Mood: sad
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Another emotionally spent day.
Saying goodbye...is never, ever easy. I don't care what anyone says. It doesn't get any easier after losing another beloved family member. Our little Cuddles angel, was welcomed home to heaven at the age of 19 years young. Young...because in my heart, she will always be my Cuddles kitty
The emotionally charged, past few days have been tough. Physically, the nausea, pain and vomiting have increased due to the overwhelming stress. Sleep? What's that?. After having to seek assistance from our veterinarian to help Cuddles gently continue her journey back home to heaven. I can't describe what it's like having to sit and hold your beloved fur child while the injections slowly help to ease the pain and suffering. Cuddles has been part of our family for over 19 years. The last of my original 6 rescued fur angels.
Cuddles is now with her siblings. Back home...in heaven.
Physically and emotionally. Myself and Eric are both beyond spent. This has been a very tough week. As we are helping Cuddles. I also have to keep in mind, helping myself. I have a very difficult decision to make regarding my own life. But as of yesterday. I have come to a definitive decision. Some may dislike and some may even disagree with my decision. But everyone is entitled to his or her own opinions. I received many opinions from others when it came time to decide regarding a fast track, maximum course of radiation therapy and a few other oncology treatment drugs. The difference between myself and Cuddles is that she needed our assistance in making such a very hard decision. We gave it a few days, but Cuddles health was deteriorating far too rapidly for her to pass peacefully at home. Early this morning, Cuddles peacefully passed onto a far more beautiful place where she was greeted by her other rescued siblings.
Heaven.
As we did so with our other beloved fur children. We brought Cuddles back home so her fur siblings could understand what had happened. I believe this to be a very important part of grieving, because even animals grieve. Snoreo was the first to walk up to Cuddles resting peacefully while wrapped up in a few of her favorite sheets and kitty blanket. It was the most amazing thing to watch Snoreo literally walk up, sniff and then kiss Cuddles on the nose. Big LOVE took only a mere instant to realize that one of his new best friends was to be no longer. Not in the physical sense, but very much still alive with us, spiritually, energy. Big LOVE sat the longest while Eric called to set up a time for a private crematory service at Faithful Companion. We have unfortunately made far too many calls to Faithful Companion over the years. I know things happen for a reason. All I can believe in my heart is that they wanted to be together. Waiting for me to arrive, so we can cross the Rainbow Bridge...together.
Sharing this part of my life, a very private part of my journey is very important. Sharing allows other fur parents to understand that when the time comes. There are options. It doesn't mean having to bury your beloved fur child, or keeping them with your veterinarian. There are wonderful, kind, compassionate companies out there who offer services and other options for our beloved family members. Our faithful companions. Pet crematory services, private crematory services such as we have used with, Faithful Companion. Having a private crematory service, while having the time to grieve our loss. Knowing that we will be bringing home Cuddles just in a different form. It's beyond reassuring! I wouldn't handle the passing of any of our fur children any other way. There are options out there. I hope by sharing this part of my journey. You too, will realize that other choices do exist in hopes of bringing your beloved fur child back home to be with their family.
Our life...has once again...forever changed.
The normal routine, that once existed, is no longer. Losing a fur child is never, ever easy. But I know the good Lord has his angels wings gently wrapped around our beloved Cuddles. As she is now back home with her other siblings. In a most beautiful place...Heaven.
Grieving. It's perfectly normal. It's most definitely okay. We all grieve. No matter the loss. But rest my weary and be assured. That the spirit, still remains.
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