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hug meNow Playing: Day 2833-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)
Not one...but 2 cat scans over the course of a mere month.
Both failed to pick up not just the existing tumors. But more than what we could had ever anticipated. This is what happens when oncology treatments don't work. This is what happens when you begin staring down death.
Yesterday morning...7:30am. The phone calls began. I already knew deep down in my heart that the news wasn't going to be good. Myself and Eric already knew due to symptoms that are continuing to only get worse. The pain was off the charts yesterday morning into the early evening hours. I hardly got any sleep. That makes two of us. There was no need for me to pick up the phone. It can wait until we head up to the hospital later that morning. Facing the music of what lies ahead.
Isn't is crazy, how life can change in an instant.
It has been almost 5 months since my last rescan. After myself and my specialists had come to a decision to discontinue rescanning what had already shown signs of growing back. Unfortunately, over the past month, new symptoms had to urgently be addressed. Yet, the inability to manage new symptoms had my specialists scrambling to once again, rescan. Two cat scans using the same imaging equipment failed to show serious issues that had escalated over the past 5 months.
The results that were finally picked up by radiology using other imaging equipment..painfully damning as one-by-one...placed on the big screen.
Yesterday morning marks the beginning of a chapter that we both had dreaded for a very long time. We not only have a very long week ahead of us...next week. But there are decisions that now must be made. With not much time to make them. As we both bravely kept our composure at the hospital while being handed what I feel is a death sentence. We came home feeling defeated and most definitely, beyond devastated.
I can only hope that by sharing my journey over the years. That those whom also bravely put a smile on each and every day, always remember, that God only gives his strongest battles to his bravest angels.
Never give up. Never give in.
bright
d'oh
cheeky
BOO!!
Everything and I mean...EVERYTHING is always bigger in the country! Ask Eric, he will tell you that everything also tastes a million times better in the country when it comes to food! It might be due to 'less is more,' when it comes to a large city population vs. a far less populated area in the country. Less crowds, less supply and demand means fresh food! It might also mean weight gain...but it's fall folks! Nothing wrong with making sure you have a little extra warmth for the upcoming winter months! We are quite the opposite though when it comes to our weight. We struggle with keeping the pounds on through out the entire year. Eric...mainly due to a very high metabolism. Myself...the need to stay on liquids. What my body can handle and has proven over the years to do best with when it comes to gastroparesis. If I didn't have to worry about what I can eat...this would be the most ideal little, lazy, river town to eat to my hearts content! Restaurants, fast food, festivals and far too much access to all sorts of tasty goods~OH MY! 
YIKESSSSS!!
a-ok
I have learned more than the cyber world can allow to write as far as this blog. I have lived, learned, grown and matured by the struggles we have endured. I have learned to even embrace what can never be defied. If I had a choice. I would much rather choose breast cancer over ovarian cancer any day of the week. Needless to say...I wouldn't expect anyone to understand. Unless you took a walk in my shoes. Our shoes. It hasn't been any easier on Eric through out this rollercoaster ride of a journey. 
This is where always remaining pessimistic most definitely comes into play! It's one thing to anticipate ongoing issues with my health. But to have it happen during all times...this week. Was most definitely not expected. It's a good thing we were handed the news while I was still tanked from the good stuff filtering through my veins. Bah!
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What a magnificently most B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L day to begin this years huge Gastroparesis Awareness event! Beautiful partly cloudy skies, perfect fall temperatures and even a gentle breeze in the air...PERFECT! PERFECTO! It doesn't get any better than this folks when it comes to the start of our month-long Gastroparesis Awareness event!
The final shirt orders have been filled and successfully on their way to those who will be walking, running and riding for Gastroparesis Awareness. Talking about PERFECT timing! YAYYYY! From a small idea that began over 8 years ago. To now a HUGE annual event! 
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I am proud to say that we are down to the very last when it comes to the inside portion of our massive house~flip! The tiny little touches of some quite tricky detailing with the kitchen window and living room fireplace. I was successfully able to finally finish up not only the kitchen and living room. But as well I am on my way when it comes to the final bedroom that sustained the most structural damage due to an improperly installed reinforced wall located below in the basement. Go figure! The room that we anticipated to be the most difficult. Has already started off as the easiest out of the entire upstairs portion of our home. 
~NEVADA
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Hahahahaha!
Yep...just when you think you have seen it all. You never, ever have truly seen it all. Like...rescuing two box turtles that most likely were going to either get run over by bikes on the trail or eaten by prey. Why not do another turtle-friendly deed? Turtle aid to the rescue! 
Unlike the snapping turtles that we rescued over the summer. At least box turtles don't bite. They are 'usually' pretty mellow and have a really bright, colorful shell! These two are actually a male and female box turtle.
Oh yes! Not only did we rescue these box turtles who soon enough will have lots of little baby box turtles. But as we made our way back down the trail, these two were...well...coming out of their shells. So to speak! HAHAHAHAHA! We are still laughing at the mere thought of Mr. Turtle literally having more stamina than most likely any other specie from the reptile family. Most likely...more stamina than most humans-huMEN. Minus Viagra. 
