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The Road Before & After Surgery
October 5, 2017
A Little Message...Behind The Dime :)
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: Day 2831-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Toss, turn, toss, turn.

I dreaded this day. Eric dreaded this day. What I dreaded most...was once again falling naïve to something that I should had known better.

Another scan...two in less than 30 days that showed absolutely nothing. WHAT?!? Could it really be some sort of miraculous miracle? Prayers answered? Or is this just some sort of fluke with the same piece of high-tech machinery? Two separate cat scans. Both failed to show the internal war within. Yet...blood work reports from in and out of state showing otherwise. Metastasized tumors. Things spreading to the point of symptoms that have not only continued. But have gotten far worse in a matter of a week.

Clearly...not only were my specialists dumbfounded. But so were the radiologists who could not locate the tumors with the same imaging equipment, cat scan. Even the largest ovarian tumor that evaded all possible oncology treatments. Unfortunately, I once again fell victim of being totally naïve. Believing that somehow, I was miraculously cured. Possibly even by the power of prayer. Sure, I do believe in those kinds of miracles. I believe there is a God. I also believe in angels.

This morning was the start of a very long morning. An even longer afternoon. Followed by a very shattering evening. All of my hopes...quickly crashing down. How dumb was I? To be so naïve. We are scheduled back to the hospital tomorrow. To face the music of a very long journey. Quickly spiraling out of control as the tumors were ironically found by the hospital radiologists today. A long process of finding the right imaging equipment that could see through organs all fused together. Hiding the internal war within. So far, we were only told that things looked far worse. On top of the largest tumor literally twisting the lower portion of my intestines while pushing upwards on other surrounding organs. Another infection that quickly spread which meant more IV treatments and pain medication so I can be a bit more comfortable.

Who I am most disappointed in...myself. How naïve to believe that somehow I was cured by some miraculous intervention. Yes, I always tend to be extremely hard on myself. Chalk it up to the fighter within. I have given it everything that I have got over the past 15 months. Maybe I was even a bit naïve to believe that somehow things wouldn't get worse until much further down the road. Not as predicted by my team of oncologists, 12-24 months. Disappointed...isn't the word. Defeated...feels much more appropriate. As my specialists...once again...quickly scramble to get the infection under control. Along with some sort of pain medication that doesn't make matters worse with my obsolete GI motility.

I am left with one question...when does this all end?.

Even us strong gals have our breaking point. Yes, it's perfectly okay not only to express yourself, your feelings, your opinions. Contrary to what family always told me...that it isn't okay to express yourself by any means. It's also perfectly normal. But most importantly, it's very healthy and beneficial to cry your eyes out. As I did once we got back home from the hospital. There is so much that I still want to accomplish with my life. Two online businesses I have yet to finish. After just receiving the approval for a temporary work permit. Sometimes...it feels as if everything comes crashing down at once. But I know in the end...I can chose, once again, to fight with everything I have left inside me. Or...I can choose to give up a very brave battle. The choice is solely mine for the taking. We all know that I don't give up that easily. But I fully anticipate that the road ahead most definitely won't be an easy one.

A little message behind the dime that I found while waiting to be taken back...

A sign to keep fighting from papa J


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Updated: October 6, 2017 11:38 PM EDT
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October 4, 2017
ALWAYS Know Your Worth! :)
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Day 2830-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

What we have learned over the past several years...is that family is made up of those by your own choosing. Family does not always have to be blood related. Family can be made up of friends, loved ones, and even what started out as kindness from a stranger.

Family is made up by those who lift you up, when you are down. Who put a smile upon your face. Instead of a frown. Those who love you...no matter what...unconditionally.

As once again, another once-in-a-lifetime event. We find ourselves uninvited, being excluded as family members. Another nieces wedding. We have finally also come to realize that some chapters in life...need to remain closed.

Family is family of your own choosing. It doesn't always have to be connected by blood.

Respect yourself and love yourself enough...to never accept being treated as anyone or anything less.

 

EHW


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October 3, 2017
Everything Is Always....SCARIER...In The Country! ;)
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Day 2829-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

With having a few days before needing to be back at the hospital. It's time for some serious R&R...

Time to take it easy and enjoy a little bit of fall fun too! Well...why not?

It is OCTOBERBOO!!

Everything and I mean...EVERYTHING is always bigger in the country! Ask Eric, he will tell you that everything also tastes a million times better in the country when it comes to food! It might be due to 'less is more,' when it comes to a large city population vs. a far less populated area in the country. Less crowds, less supply and demand means fresh food! It might also mean weight gain...but it's fall folks! Nothing wrong with making sure you have a little extra warmth for the upcoming winter months! We are quite the opposite though when it comes to our weight. We struggle with keeping the pounds on through out the entire year. Eric...mainly due to a very high metabolism. Myself...the need to stay on liquids. What my body can handle and has proven over the years to do best with when it comes to gastroparesis. If I didn't have to worry about what I can eat...this would be the most ideal little, lazy, river town to eat to my hearts content! Restaurants, fast food, festivals and far too much access to all sorts of tasty goods~OH MY!

What we also continue to realize when it comes to living in the country...EEEEEEYIKESSSSS!!

Yep, even some things are far better NOT bigger in the country! Hahahahaha! 

With Halloween quickly on it's way! The scares are hands-down BIGGER here in the country! Compared to back in Ohio, living within a big city. I may not be much for scary stuff, but who can't resist building a little country scare or two?.

BOO!


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October 2, 2017
R-o-l-l-i-n-g With The Punches...
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Day 2828-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

What I have learned the most out of life?

Expect the unexpected.

Sometimes...even the best executed plans...don't always go as planned.

As we anticipated my second surgical round this morning. Something else decided to also rear it's ugly head on the big screen. We were told to expect things to once again come full circle after one failed attempt after another with oncology treatments. Even the maximum dose of radiation therapy failed to work in my favor. That was a little over 15 months ago. My oncologist told us to expect things to get worse over time...a period between 12-24 months.

Over the past 15 months. What I have learned to be most thankful for are the good days! Days when I have a chance to escape my reality. Time to be free from any and all restraints in front of me...medically.

I have learned a lot over the past 15 months. Maybe sometimes...a bit too much. What I have also learned is that those who will hurt you the most...are usually and unfortunately...family. What we have learned is the undeniable kindness when it comes to strangers. Even friends who never falter. Regardless of how much things can sometimes feel beyond monotonous. What we have also learned over the past 15 months is the power that comes with letting go...even with family. What does not serve you well. Will always be replaced with people who will love you unconditionally. Family is made up of those by your choosing, it doesn't need to always be bound by blood. Family...is family.

I have learned more than the cyber world can allow to write as far as this blog. I have lived, learned, grown and matured by the struggles we have endured. I have learned to even embrace what can never be defied. If I had a choice. I would much rather choose breast cancer over ovarian cancer any day of the week. Needless to say...I wouldn't expect anyone to understand. Unless you took a walk in my shoes. Our shoes. It hasn't been any easier on Eric through out this rollercoaster ride of a journey.

Somehow...someway...we still continue to weather the storm. Doing so...together.

If things couldn't had gone more the complete opposite of what was planned during this second round at the hospital. Imagine my face when we were told that I would have to undergo round 3 later this week. Ummmm...this week?!? Here's the problem with carefully planned events that involve major life changes. Like...an already scheduled date for a major television show taping. Ummmm...like having to be on the plane by later this week.

This is where always remaining pessimistic most definitely comes into play! It's one thing to anticipate ongoing issues with my health. But to have it happen during all times...this week. Was most definitely not expected. It's a good thing we were handed the news while I was still tanked from the good stuff filtering through my veins. Bah!

 Thank goodness for a production manager that already understands the uniqueness when it comes to my health. Thank goodness for having another chance at a later date to start this new chapter in my life! Another show taping and airlines booked for two at a later date. Thank...YOU!!!

For now...I have hit another huge hurdle that I must jump when it comes to existing issues with my health. This means time to do everything that I possibly can to get back on my feet. It's a good thing that I can honestly say...been THERE! done THAT!

Time and time and time and time, again.

 Lucky, is being the strong gal that I am enough to understand that things like today do happen. God willing, we got a second chance to open the door to an amazing, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. We just have to wait a little bit and work a lot harder than most. But things happen. Life happens when least expected.

  As long as you keep rolling with the punches...everything will be a-l-r-i-g-h-t~


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October 1, 2017
THE OFFICIAL KICK-OFF BEGINS!! :)
Mood:  celebratory
Now Playing: Day 2827-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

YAYYYYY!

THE OFFICIAL KICK-OFF BEGINS!!

What a magnificently most B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L day to begin this years huge Gastroparesis Awareness event! Beautiful partly cloudy skies, perfect fall temperatures and even a gentle breeze in the air...PERFECT! PERFECTO! It doesn't get any better than this folks when it comes to the start of our month-long Gastroparesis Awareness event!

The final shirt orders have been filled and successfully on their way to those who will be walking, running and riding for Gastroparesis Awareness. Talking about PERFECT timing! YAYYYY! From a small idea that began over 8 years ago. To now a HUGE annual event!

Thanks to YOU! Thanks to EVERYONE who will be participating during this years United GP Walk-2017!

YOU! Yes...YOU have made this another successful year raising Gastroparesis Awareness one person at a time!

It's official! As of today, October 1st, the OFFICIAL KICK-OFF for international Gastroparesis Awareness begins!!

Please don't forget your cameras during your Gastroparesis Awareness event and send all shared photos to:

Gastroparesis Awareness Campaign Org.

gpawarenessfund@yahoo.com

 


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Updated: October 2, 2017 1:39 AM EDT
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September 30, 2017
Most Importantly...Blessed.
Mood:  lucky
Now Playing: Day 2826-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Talking about a royal PAIN in my booty!

Not only is this blog continuing to experience more crashes than a major NASCAR event...but as well the main Gastroparesis Awareness Campaign website is having one dandy of a time keeping up with the overwhelming web traffic.

Needless to say...there is something else I need to kick into full steam ahead on my already growing 'To-Do list' of a million projects that need to be completed within the next few months. GEESH!

What I had forgotten about over the years is just how difficult and time consuming it truly is when starting a new website. Whether alone...starting not just one. But two online businesses..

It has officially been a little over 11 years since the last time this gal had the ability to work. Physically. Trust me by saying, it has been a long, windy, one HELL of a road to realizing a mere dream that is slowly becoming a reality. Eric is still in total shock that I was able to overturn my SSD case in hopes of another chance to work again. A temporary work permit that will allow for me to work from home. Finally realizing my hopes and dreams that will finally have a name, place and home when it comes to online businesses. I am SUPER EXCITED to see what the future may hold for our ENTIRE little family!

As with any business. You can most certainly expect the unexpected. As with most areas of my life. I am going into two new ventures with absolutely zero expectations. If one works and the other fails...then so be it. If both fail...then as well...so be it. Why do I feel this way? Because at the end of the day. At least I can say that I tried. And trying is only half of the battle when it comes to any new business venture. I believe the other half is the ability to purely be able to step outside of your own shoes. Looking at your business from a clients perspective. And always being your biggest critic! That is a must! Don't worry about the grass on the other side. Set your bar high by always keeping your focus on one person and one person only. Yourself.

Over the past 11 years of not working. Having to physically and mentally leave the work place after receiving a very high, quite prestigious promotion. Working along side the Vice-President of a very reputable sunglass manufacturer. It was during that time over the past 11 years that I learned how to swallow my pride. I have also learned how to appreciate the smaller things in life. In the process, I have learned that in any given second. Life can forever change from what you used to know. Normalcy lost, but never truly gone. Over the years, I have also watched those who run and own businesses that used to be successful. But what happened next unfortunately happens on far too many occasions as greed takes over what used to be quality. Now every bit about...quantity$$$. God knows I never plan on allowing my head to get bigger than my heart. Especially after everything this gal has struggled through physically and financially. Amen.

When it comes to Facebook and other forms of social media. The biggest mistake any business owner can make is mixing business with pleasure. The mere cringe of those who run any type of business and then act like a blatant drunken fool with live social media videos and other live feeds. Worse...are the business owners who use their social media accounts for personal and business pleasure. Nothing looks crazier than when a paying client gets to see the business owners constant rants and raves. Especially when the rants and raves are against their own paying customer(s). What happened to the days when employees feared for their lives when a mere phone call warning meant that the business owner was paying an unexpected visit?. Seems the only time you see that happen in this day and age is when it comes to reality television shows such as, 'Undercover Boss.'

Maybe I see life through a completely different set of eyes from overwhelming and sometimes extremely uncomfortable lessons that needed to be learned. The hard way. At the end of the day... I refuse to be one of today's typical business owners. I refuse to be the norm.

There is so much more to share with regards to my upcoming ventures. There are not enough words to begin to express how truly fortunate I am to have this chance and rare opportunity. Even while still battling the internal war within. I am not only extremely lucky. But most importantly...

Blessed.

 


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September 29, 2017
ONE GIANT STEP CLOSER!
Mood:  celebratory
Now Playing: Day 2825-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

How does that old saying go?..

"We've come a long way!"

More like...A very l-o-n-g ways!

I am proud to say that we are down to the very last when it comes to the inside portion of our massive house~flip! The tiny little touches of some quite tricky detailing with the kitchen window and living room fireplace. I was successfully able to finally finish up not only the kitchen and living room. But as well I am on my way when it comes to the final bedroom that sustained the most structural damage due to an improperly installed reinforced wall located below in the basement. Go figure! The room that we anticipated to be the most difficult. Has already started off as the easiest out of the entire upstairs portion of our home.

BAH! Always the opposite of what you expect!

Sure, we still have some ceiling repairs to deal with before the cold winter months are quickly upon us here in the country. But thankfully the far bigger projects are finally complete. YAYYYY! Talking about a team of two kicking some major repairing, repainting and remodeling booty! We are on a ROLL! And we don't plan on stopping anytime soon! Even if unforeseen issues arise with my health. Yes...I haven't forgotten about the internal war within. But one thing is for certain. I am beyond thankful to have caught a break or two while tackling on our major house~flip. AMEN to that!!

As we have officially taken one GIANT

 step closer to our final move and destination....

~NEVADA


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September 28, 2017
THE COUNTDOWN BEGINS!!!!
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: Day 2824-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

The countdown begins!

UNITED GP WALK

2017

WALK-RUN-RIDE

Can you believe this will be our 8th year?!

We are bigger than ever before with all 50 states officially being represented during this years HUGE event!

We also have the following countries showing their Gastroparesis Awareness support:

Denmark, France, Hong Kong, Italy, Jamaica, Norway, Portugal, Russia, Sweden and the United Kingdom.

Please don't forget to send your United GP Walk photos to the following: gpawarenessfund@yahoo.com

RAISING INTERNATIONAL GASTROPARESIS AWARENESS ONE PERSON AT A TIME

www.gastroparesisawareness.com

www.gastroparesisawareness.org

www.gpawarenessfund.com

www.gpawarenessfund.com/Kimberly/


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September 27, 2017
A Little Turtle...Ummmm?...
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Day 2823-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Boy oh BOY! Is this blog going to be F-U-N-N-Y!

I'm not sure if we should rate this blog 'G' or...'R?'

'R' for mature over 18 turtle audience!  Hahahahaha!

Yep...just when you think you have seen it all. You never, ever have truly seen it all. Like...rescuing two box turtles that most likely were going to either get run over by bikes on the trail or eaten by prey. Why not do another turtle-friendly deed? Turtle aid to the rescue!

Actually...box turtles.

Unlike the snapping turtles that we rescued over the summer. At least box turtles don't bite. They are 'usually' pretty mellow and have a really bright, colorful shell! These two are actually a male and female box turtle.

So...you know where 'R' for over 18 turtle audience is about to come into play! Hahahahahaha!

Myself and Eric have no clue when it comes to the box turtle mating season. Nor have we ever encountered mating in the process. All 3+ hours of it! How do we know? Because after leaving the trail with them mating. We returned 3 hours later to walk Snoreo one final time for the evening. Over 3 hours later...the turtles were still...ummmm...shell-to-shell. HA!

Oh yes! Not only did we rescue these box turtles who soon enough will have lots of little baby box turtles. But as we made our way back down the trail, these two were...well...coming out of their shells. So to speak! HAHAHAHAHA! We are still laughing at the mere thought of Mr. Turtle literally having more stamina than most likely any other specie from the reptile family. Most likely...more stamina than most humans-huMEN. Minus Viagra. 

 Hahahahaha! Okay. I don't care who you are! That there was F-U-N-N-Y!

So...if they instantly become internet stars and begin profiting from this 'R' rated turtle mating photo. Would it be considered sold as a 'box' set? Hahahahaha! A box turtle set?. BAH! Yep! We just had to go there! Hahahahaha!

On a far more serious note...who really knows much about these box turtles?. Whether alone knowing much about their mating season? We sure learned something new today! A mere rescue of two spunky box turtles that will one day turn into a large box turtle family!

Talk about coming out of your shell! Heeheeheehee!

Box turtles can be very aggressive with their mating. When the male mounts the female he often will try to bite her head and front legs.

The male locks his feet inside the females shell and begins copulating. At this point he flips over in his back.

They stay coupled for up to 3 hours. The female will often drag the male around. Afterwards the male walks off as if nothing happened.

As far as egg laying. Box turtles lay eggs at the end of the summer. The eggs hatch in the fall and the hatchlings over winter in the nest or the eggs hatch in the spring.

Box turtle eggs hatch at 70-140 days. Depending on the incubation temperature. They may stay in the egg shell absorbing yolk for up to 5 days. Most live off the yolk for a few weeks. During this time they show no interest in food.

During the time the rest of the yolk sack is absorbed. At around 10 days they come out and start exploring. Hatchlings begin eating in 1-4 weeks. They are strongly attracted to movement. In the wild, 60% or more of their diet is composed of animal matter. some of the 'animal' matter they eat in the wild includes: slugs, snails, worms, grubs, caterpillars, beetles, pill bugs, sow bugs, centipedes, crickets, grasshoppers, spiders, flies, crawfish and carrion. Essentially, if they can catch it, they will eat it.

The normal clutch size is 1-7 eggs per nest.

The average life span of adult box turtles is 50 years, while a significant portion lives over 100 years!


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September 26, 2017
Snoreo...The World's BIGGEST Baby! :)
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Day 2822-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

What do you call a 93-pound German shepherd-husky pup that is only a mere 3 years young?

Why of course! Mr. Snoreo!

The world's biggest baby

We aren't quite sure where his German shepherd side is hiding?. But clearly it's not from his Mom, Sooki. Or his Dad, Ozzie. Snoreo tends to be a bit scared of anything and everything! Maybe putting on this huge mask didn't help matters...or the fact that Eric did so while hiding in the garage until Snoreo got a glimpse of him peering through the window. Heeheeheehee! Talking about not being able to run fast enough across the hard wood floors! We both never laughed so hard in our entire lives!! Hahahahaha!

So much for the guardian and protector of our household. BAH!

We always wonder why some folks will literally walk around us at the trails along the river. Frightened at just the mere thought of how ferocious looking Snoreo is with two different colored eyes! Most of the time...we are the ones who look puzzled when others along the river trails either turn around or literally take the time to find an alternate route in hopes of avoiding contact with Snoreo. Hahahahaha!

Clearly his true intentions are to 'look' scary like a German shepherd. But this big baby is anything...but scary. In fact, we learned this afternoon just how much of a scaredy pup Snoreo truly is after coming in contact with a few members of the scarecrow family!

Notice...a quite frightened 'you-know-who' standing off to the side. As we attempted to literally drag him past the scarecrows in order to open the gate. But it seems even the scarecrows were far too scary for Snoreo. So...instead of playing Frisbee. We had to settle for walking the trails. Heeheeheeheehee!

Life has never been the same since welcoming this big baby into our home. A mere...3 years ago. Not only did he provide happiness and companionship for our beloved Littleblue. But as well to our entire little family.

So...maybe he might not make such a great guard pup. But we love him all the same. The world's biggest baby!

Our Snoreo


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