Mood: bright
Now Playing: Day 2871-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)
Good day. Bad day. Bad day. Good day.
Some times it feels as if they all blend together as one. This is what happens after a good pie!
POOF! Hahahahaha!
One couldn't tell that Eric really liked sweet potato pie. Nah. Not in the least bit.
Today I assumed (so wrong to assume anything in life) that I would have a new specialty oncologist here in the country. This way I wouldn't have to continue tracking over state lines with my other oncologist. At least occasionally. But one should never assume anything in life. Just like assuming that everything would turn out okay with a new specialist that is much closer to our home here in the country. That appointment went literally no where as I was referred to the same place where my other team of specialists are referring me. Back to the Cleveland Clinic.
How far of a drive would that now be since moving out here in the country. Here in Indiana.... Oh... only a 4 hour and 18 minute drive?. Well then, sign us on up! Said no one, ever.
I might not be much when it comes to compromising such as with another even longer drive back up to the Cleveland Clinic. Once was enough with all the bumps in the road that only made matters worse, internally. Instead, I decided to do a far different compromise and take my specialists up on the offer to have my most recent physician notes and medical reports faxed up to the team at the Cleveland Clinic. All within the hopes of helping my team of specialists down here back across state lines in the city. And lets not forget, a new team member now here in the country. But even so, that oncologist appointment today didn't go so well as planned. They felt that the level of expertise needed for my care way exceeds the level of care that they could offer me. One even commented to Eric that my unique case is like something that came right out of the New England Medical Journal. A rare condition that needs extremely high expertise medical care.
Not only have I officially come full circle with my tumors since ending experimental oncology treatments. But now, as of most recently, I am once again dealing with two separate ovaries that have woken up from a deep radiation therapy sleep. One ovary that miraculously grew back and is now it's own entity. Even as much as ovulating on a different cycle than my other ovary. Need not mention the hormone levels that are being fed to already extremely large ovarian tumors. Ovarian cancer is one of the most difficult female cancers to treat, whether alone to even cure. I can't possibly see me enduring a drive up to Cleveland Clinic twice a month. Even with Eric driving and staying overnight at one of their connected hotels for free. It's just not possible nor feasible for me anymore. That window of opportunity has sadly already passed by me.
How in the world did my body become such a huge mess, internally. It is beyond me. But what I have learned to do, is to put all of my mental energy into far more productive things.
The truth will set you free. As I once again listened to my gut instincts. Myself and Eric both agree when it comes to having closure with family. The latest denied, dismissed court filings are very puzzling. I feel as if with some family members. I am getting mixed information. I sure hope it doesn't end up with mixed information that turns out to be mere lying. This afternoon, I began the process of finding answers. Seeking final closure on some quite bizarre filings. I should have all transcripts within the next few weeks. Once again, all I can hope and pray is that we don't end up reading about more lying. The truth may set you free. But I tend to believe more so on gut instincts. We even agree to so much as to give a few the chance to come clean with anything that hasn't been truthfully told to us with both court filings. But as such, they must had decided to plead the fifth. "Mum," was the response for the remainder of the day. Time will only tell who is finally being honest and who is once again, lying. I anticipate for a huge shock once we are finally able to read all court transcripts regarding both filings. Knowledge is... bliss~
With rain, rain and more rain that continued for the remainder of the day here in the country. I opted to begin my new pain medication a bit early. Eric... he took on the chore of at-home pet grooming.
These two! Too darn CUTE! Hehehehehehe!