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November 3, 2017
Boobear Birthday Ninja STRIKES!
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Day 2859-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


You know the ole saying... Life is far too short.

So why not have a little bit of fun!

Today it seems that the Boobear  Birthday Ninja decided to strike when least expected!

BOO! Hehehehehehe!

Sure...I know what most of you are thinking. This is about to get f-u-n-n-y! You know what? You are absolutely, 100 million percent, spot-on, RIGHT!

After last month's ridiculous shenanigans, family claiming that Eric and his coworker, Deputy Sheriff's for the county, plotted a Boobear birthday Ninja move by literally ruining a family members birthday. Of all reasons, in order to move storage totes out of a grandparents basement, given prior permission by the grandparent. Ridiculousness filed in Butler County, Ohio court. Now, public record. Denied and dismissed by the judge. Because of course, it's not a life threatening event by any means when one is attempting to pick up moving totes out of a grandparents basement with a reserved U-Haul.

BAH! Hehehehehehe!  Downright silly, I tell ya!

Honestly, I believe everyone will be laughing about this for a very long time. We are just not-so-sure which part of the story/claim will be chuckled over time and time again?. A family member claiming that the Ninja tote movers were ruining their birthday by picking up moving totes, in which, they didn't even ring the doorbell due to not being able to locate the grandparents home after a new fence was installed. Or...claiming that their birthday was also ruined by a reserved U-Haul?. HA! Literally, either way you look at it...downright silly! To file a court document claiming partly your life was in immediate danger from moving totes, two folks, Deputy Sheriff's, trying to get the moving totes and one reserved U-Haul. It still has many shaking their heads. It has me still shaking my head and remembering my Grandmothers quote about fools. Foolish folks. "You both are better off without them."

The dismissed, denied by the judge, court filings by family. Is clearly the reason why this evening, I made sure that this gal went along to retrieve the first batch of moving totes from the grandparents basement. Of course...making sure it was done so with no one present to cause another dramatic uproar over absolutely...nothing.

I like to call this evening's tote moving adventure:

Boobear Birthday Ninja STRIKES!

While everyone is out, about or at Bingo.

Hehehehehehehe! Literally, the depths I have to go through in order to keep the peace back across the state line, Ohio. Keeping peace in the city.

<Literally smiling and shaking my head as I continue typing

The Boobear Birthday Ninja was so smooth...that literally nothing went noticed as far as 11 totes, 1 large Xmas tree, 3 small Xmas trees and one huge green screen. All successfully moved from the basement to both parked vehicles waiting to make a Ninja escape without notice. All this...in order to be the bigger adults and keep the peace among family members. AMEN.

I was on the phone the other day with Eric's father. A long conversation about all of the dysfunction that has been going on among both large families. Really...as I told him...it's a sad shame. But I also told his father, that one day, there will be something that happens. An event in ones life. That literally puts life into a far bigger perspective. Silly things such as the Boobear and the gang story and other family members overdramatizing such pettiness, will no longer bother you anymore. You will actually be able to finally find humor in such a highly dynamic, dysfunction of sorts. Issues among both families that really is a crying shame. But with life changing events, such as what myself and Eric have went through over the past few weeks. You learn that even with highly dysfunctional family issues, those that have continued on for years. Some, even for almost a decade. You learn not to let things with family bother you anymore. You come to a point where you can finally laugh, shake your head, and let it roll off your shoulder. Doing so, with a smile. You learn that life is far too short, to ever let anything or anyone make you unhappy.

Life is far too short to waste another minute, another moment, another second. Even if that time means being wasted by long-winded issues among family.

It was the second of long conversations with Eric's father. In which, a light was shed upon such a very unfortunate situation. Families torn apart, two, over such pettiness. Egos far too large to just sit down, work issues out and offer a sincere apology. Too many Chiefs...not enough Indians. That's how I look at the entire situation.

But you know what I have learned the most?

Life goes on. Happiness is solely yours for the taking! Literally, absolutely, 100 million percent. It IS yours for the taking!

As for this evening's Boobear Birthday Ninja attempt at the first round of moving totes? A most HUGE success!

Isn't it sad. When those who should be there for you through thick and thin. End up being the ones who will let you down and hurt you the most. Yet...preach about not having the time to be there for each other, as family members. Yet, have all the time in the world abusing the court system. See...there are many lessons learned among both families. The greatest lesson of all is that when people claim they don't have the time for you. In turn...don't give back your valuable time for the taking. People, even family, that love you unconditionally. Will go great lengths in order to spent time with you, quality time, not petty time. Petty time is time wasted. I respect and deeply value my time. I refuse to have my valuable time wasted.

These Boobear Birthday Ninja's have no further time to waste. Life is far too short.


Never look back at closed doors. God keeps them closed for good reason! This, I know.


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November 2, 2017
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Day 2858-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


Ahhhh...the very first signs of fall here in the country...

Bahhhh...the very first signs of a far too early wake up call here in the country...

Talking about one mix-up of a day!

We arrived 10 minutes early at the hospital, signed in with registration and was taken back to the same-day surgical area. What we weren't ready for was a HUGE mix-up, more so, a phone call and voicemail message that I never received yesterday. A message from my oncologist's assistance in order to let us know that my blood work came back with a few concerns that need to be addressed first before proceeding with my port. I honestly never received the phone call nor voicemail. That is because they left the voicemail on Eric's phone number. His prior phone number before having it changed after moving to Indiana. Oh yes...someone got the message...it just wasn't me.

I am still dealing with immunity issues, a compromised immune system. What my doctors will not do is any type of surgical procedure when signs of infection surface. It took my specialists almost a month to finally be able to proceed ahead with the last surgical procedure due to my inability to regulate a safe body temperature. That was also due to problems with my immune system, in which, a pump that was going to be able to deliver important hormones that my body can no longer make on it's own, was permanently canceled. Instead, we find out four months later, after my last rescan why I am having one complication after another. Internally, things rapidly progressing is not only concerning, but if I allow it...could be beyond depressing. Days like today, most certainly put life into perspective.

The gift of life, should be respected.

So...instead of being mentally prepared for my port procedure. We were whisked away to the infusion center for another treatment to help boost my immune system. This isn't the first nor do I expect it to be the last. For anyone who has endured infusion treatments. You can completely respect the time involved which starts with first getting your vitals taken, then off to find your assigned infusion chair. Time is truly of the essence with having any type of infusion due to time sensitive, delivered medication from the hospital pharmacist. The person responsible for making sure that the medication is sent up to the infusion staff after the patient has been registered and waiting in their assigned infusion chair. The infusion center that we typically go to inside the hospital reminds me of what one would see up in heaven. Bright white walls, crystal clear and very bright overhead lighting, soft white infusion chair sheets and big fluffy white blankets and pillows to keep you warm and comfy during your infusion treatment. All of the infusion center staff wear white hospital uniforms with white medical clogs. Everything...is literally the whitest shade of white humanly possible!

I believe that those who decide upon a career, taking care of patients with serious medical, end of life conditions, have some of the biggest hearts in the medical profession. We have yet to ever see a staff member inside the infusion treatment center walk around with a frown on their face. Even right down to the volunteer staff who come around making sure you are comfortable during your infusion, along with loved ones that sit along side the patient. Offering anything from magazines, beverages, snacks and even a mini size version of chess to help bide time while waiting for the infusion treatment to end. Every single infusion center staff member is beyond amazing! Angelic...that's a good word to describe their level of compassion and care to each and every patient.

Of course, there are the stories that are pretty hard not to overhear since all infusion patients chairs are out in the open. This as we were told makes it possible in order to help patients who might encounter a reaction to their treatment medication. Within the very first minute of my nurse helping me to get comfortable in my chair. A young woman in her mid 20's started having one of those serious reactions. Her mom gently held her hand while the nurse helped talk her through the reaction she was having from her treatment. Watching her face go from a normal skin tone color, to a very pale bluish-gray color, was quite scary. Of course, since she could see me. I instantly put on my warrior face! I had to set an example, more so, a calmness for her. Before the nurse began my treatment. I asked Eric to step out to the hallway. He doesn't do well with needles and the young ladies response to her treatment already had him frightfully nervous. Every single patient with an assigned chair has a story. The gentleman who sat next to us enduring his weekly infusion who sits patiently waiting for his medication to be delivered by the hospital pharmacy. One brave soul who endures weekly treatments to help boost his compromised immune system due to a kidney transplant, number two, that his body sadly rejected last year during Christmas. Another couple, an elderly gentleman who is battling stage 4 lung cancer. A supportive hand from his wife who patiently sat by his side. Yet, tells his assigned infusion center nurse that he feels a bit better and would rather not continue his final treatments due to time spent away from his family. Infusions that take between 3-4 hours which to him, equals time away from his adult children and grandchildren. Then there are the strongest of souls who are bravely enduring one final treatment option in hopes of biding just a bit more time. Experimental chemotherapy drugs that literally cost $15,000+ per infusion. This is actually around the normal cost of most treatment drugs. This is also why the drug manufacturers must have your verbal consent on the phone before they will ship the drug to the hospital pharmacy. I was told that same information last week, by the pharmaceutical company who needed my permission before proceeding with my own last option experimental chemotherapy drug treatment. Yet...my decision to not proceed ahead with one final option was not as brave as those souls who were seated in other infusion chairs. For those patients and those who sit in a chair next to the patient. Those who are there to support their family member, loved one and friend. My heart and deepest respect go out to each and every one of you. It takes a very brave and courageous human being to hold the hand of those who fight to live to see another day. Those same patients who go through the unimaginable, literally, the unthinkable while still being able to hold a smile on their face.

There really are no words to describe what it is like to sit among those who are the most bravest souls around...looking for hope inside a place where angels really do exist.

 I am forever humbled to be around those who are forever blessed.


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Updated: November 3, 2017 3:39 AM EDT
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November 1, 2017
United GP Walk 2017~SUCCESS! :)
Mood:  special
Now Playing: Day 2857-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)




In Loving Memory~Elia Borreo

 Our dear fellow GP friend and Angel was called to Heaven on September 5th, 2013 after a long and courageous battle. Elia was truly an inspiration to millions around the world and her legacy will live on. You will forever be loved and dearly missed.
*Don't forget to send your "WALK-RUN-RIDE" event photos to: gpawarenessfund@yahoo.com


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October 31, 2017
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Day 2856-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)




Talking about a perfect night for some tricks and treats!

A most beautiful fall day for some fun in the country!


It might not had been the most ideal start of the morning. Pain, nausea and even more painful vomiting. However, no way is this gal going to let that interfere with our very first Halloween celebration here in the country! Nope.

Actually...our very first and our very last celebration of Halloween. We never got to celebrate Halloween last year due to it falling on the week we were moving into our little hidden lemon gem of a find! Hahahahaha! Yes, we can FINALLY laugh now! We are actually back on schedule with the remaining indoor and outdoor projects in order to finally realize this great house flip! It has literally been an official year of repairing, repainting and redecorating one room at a time.

Country Coastal  Chic!

Thank goodness things took a lot longer than we actually had anticipated to finish our great house flip. There has already been several houses, all within the same area, that have either sold or just went up on the market. Close call on waiting until next year, early spring, for reselling our home here in the country. So...for now it's all about having a bit of fun!

The ole saying is true! They most definitely do everything much, MUCH bigger here in the country! Over 150+ young and a bit older trick or treater's that greeted us this evening! A lot more than what we used to have back in the city. It was nice to actually have the chance to meet many of our neighbors who live along the wooded hillside. Even those, much like ourselves, who are in process of flipping their own home and reselling to move further out in the country. Our goal destination, final move, still remains out west in Nevada. But if the good Lord does not see it fit, due to my health. Then we will move forward with our back up plans. Another home, but lots more land, further out in the country.

Peace & Quiet....Ahhhhh....

Our very first, and our very last Halloween here in our little, lazy, river town, could had not went more perfect! Isn't it crazy, how when things are just meant to be, everything will go as planned. Right down to the very first and very last Halloween SPOOKTACULAR minute! Of course...I got to celebrate it with my hubby and that folks doesn't get any better than that! We had so much fun! Far too many smiles and more than enough laughter! Far too many selfies and candy to pass around for the ghosts, goblins, oh-so-sweet and even the most scariest of trick or treater's in their best Halloween attire! They most definitely do it 'right' here in the country!

This evening was just meant to be. Me and my honey having the most fun celebrating a SPOOKTACTULAR HALLOWEEN!

Tomorrow it's an early wake up call. The very first day of November. A decision that led to my medical port procedure. Till then...

Here's wishing you and yours a very HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

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Updated: November 1, 2017 6:03 AM EDT
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October 30, 2017
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: Day 2855-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


Can you believe it's already that time?!





**Only 2 days left remaining


for Gastroparesis Awareness**

Why not grab your walking, running or riding shoes while grabbing a few Halloween trick or treats helping to raise International Gastroparesis Awareness with the Gastroparesis Awareness Campaign

Bring your neighbors! Bring your friends! Bring your selfie stick too!

Let's all join together helping to raise Gastroparesis Awareness one person at a time!



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October 29, 2017
True Humility~
Mood:  special
Now Playing: Day 2854-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


This is a first weekend, in a very long time, where I have to admit...it was perfect and peaceful.

Of course, I love this brisk, cold early winter weather! I love fall, but even more so, I love winter! I just love the cold weather in general. Let's not forget...my love for snow and lots of it!

Not only was it one of the nicest weekends yet for both of us. In such a very long time. But we also got to enjoy some at-home Halloween festivities, even a bit of rice krispy making! Eric's tummy is going to be mighty full of some serious snap-crackle-pop over the next few days, possibly over the next week. It really all depends on how fast he inhales the entire tray of rice krispy treats...HA!

It was so very nice, spending lots of quality time together as a little family. I wouldn't trade time like this for the world!


Even time spent with this lovable furry guy!

I have to admit. We had so much fun over this weekend. Enjoying the little things in life. That I really didn't think much about, if at all, my decision regarding a medical port. Nah...it can wait until tomorrow. Another week and a long list of things we must do. Appointments we must attend regarding my health. Even weekends like this one, in which, I really didn't want to see it come to an end. Sadly, all good things must come to an end. This, I know. But there is always next weekend to enjoy some smiling fun and lots of laughter. Together...as family. Amen.

There is a true humility to wondering if today is your last day. If tonight is your last night. If this moment in time will be your last while still alive. That's true humility. It changes a person.


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Updated: October 29, 2017 10:41 PM EDT
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October 28, 2017
A NEW Twist On The Same Ole Pumpkin Carving Tradition! :)
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Day 2853-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


It's about time we caught ourselves up with the holidays!

Time to put our pumpkin carving skills to the test!


This year we decided to throw out the same ole pumpkin carving traditions and instead opt for something totally different!

Not only do we not have to worry about throwing away a rotting pumpkin a few weeks after Halloween. But we can as well enjoy our super country chic pumpkin through out the next holiday season, Thanksgiving! I have to admit...this pumpkin turned out magnificent!

2 hours later...TADA!

Not only was it super fun using my creative side to create a 0ne-of-a-kind pumpkin masterpiece worth saving and sharing! But I did so using left over material and other fabrics from other projects that we did over the summer. Waste not, want not and nothing went to waste!

I was even able to take some left over burlap and fireplace cover material to create a platform for the pumpkin to sit with lots of Halloween goodies! 2 hours worth of peace and quiet while starting a new family tradition of the same ole pumpkin carving. Totally unique and totally fun!

We still need to work on how we are going to set up a table outdoors for all the trick or treat kiddies next week. But you know me...I already have a few ideas in mind!

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Updated: October 29, 2017 9:55 PM EDT
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October 27, 2017
Do YOU! Do What Makes Your Heart The Most Happiest! :)
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Day 2852-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)



Sure! Why not? Look what arrived in the mail today from our insurance company. Third try was a charm for my doctors when it came down to forcing our insurance company to cover one final option, experimental oncology treatment. Isn't it crazy, how once again, life happens. This time...delivered via mail.

Did this change my mind in the least bit to possibly reverse my decision? Not in the least bit! No way, no how, no more experimental treatments for this gal. Let life lead me the way to happiness through out the remainder of my journey. No more toxic torture oncology treatments. No way, no how.


To port or not to port? That is the next question. The question to ponder my decision on over this weekend.

Sure, I know it means less poking and prying. Trying to retrieve blood from a good vein. God knows last attempt at the hospital required having to get someone from the lab to draw from a different vein in my other arm. The nurse needed 10 vials, however, my vein was only able to fill 3. It took a few hours of rest before the lab technician could find a good vein. Ports are great in helping to avoid issues such as this and in helping to administer medication, however, there is also a risk of infection. Last thing this gal needs!

So....looks like decisions...decisions will be pondered over this weekend.

I am more so focusing this weekend on taking the time to enjoy the little things. All the surprises and gifts that life brings. Passions of mine, which include the furry kind. God's creatures, both big and small.

Even those who need our help and assistance the most during these upcoming cold winter months. God's rescued Angels~

This weekend, don't forget to take time out for yourself. Do YOU!

Do what makes your heart the most happiest

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October 26, 2017
What Does This Now Mean For The Remainder Of My Life?
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: Day 2851-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


It was just meant to be. Today was the day to contact my doctor's office in order to let them know my decision.

Ironically, they are the last ones to know. As a blog reader, you were the first to know my carefully thought out decision regarding one final experimental treatment option. Why? It is very hard to let a team of specialists know that I finally gave up. Because in all reality. That is really what is going on with my decision. I gave up on trying to defy something that is humanly impossible for me to defy.

Radiation therapy and other experimental oncology treatments failed to defy what can no longer be defied, internally.

For me, today was the toughest day of my entire life. Literally handing over a decision that will change my life. Forever...in an instant. Ironically, my doctor's office ended up beating me to the punch after leaving a voicemail on my phone while I was sleeping. Ha! Isn't it crazy how things happen? All while you are sleeping.

"Hello this is so and so, with regards to your decision moving forward with scheduled treatments. I don't want to make you feel rushed on your decision. However, the pharmaceutical company has been faxing our office on a daily basis, trying to reach you in order to get your authorization. They will need your verbal consent first before shipping out the drug in order to start your first scheduled treatment."

Funny enough, how everyone makes medical marijuana such a huge issue. Although...we are willing to try such lethal experimental treatments on patients at end of stage cancers with various experimental drugs. I have run into those who work in the health care industry that are against my little magical pill, Marinol. Yet, that potent main ingredient found in marijuana, placed into a tiny little gel cap, has provided me a lot of positive relief over the past 15 months. More so than any experimental oncology treatment. Yet, why are doctors so quick to push these experimental treatments that literally can do more harm than good?. Yet, are so controversial about legalizing medical marijuana which holds many positive benefits for all patients. Whether alone are very hush-hush with even prescribing my little blessing in disguise...Marinol, marijuana via tiny pill form without any additives. Clearly, we have a lot of work still left to do in the healthcare industry when it comes to making sure patients that are at the end of their medical journey are given the best possible options to live the best end of life possible. AMEN.

After listening to the voicemail, and wiping away my tears. I decided to email my decision to their office...instead of calling. Emailing their office was a lot easier to give my final decision on one last option at another experimental treatment. Mainly due to mixed emotions running rampant in my mind. The worst emotion...feeling as if I might possibly be letting my team of specialists down. Yes, these are honestly true feelings that overcome you when making such a critical life changing decision. The end of my journey. It wasn't easy typing out my decision with a very brief, to the point explanation. But today had to happen. It's part of the journey.

"After carefully reviewing information on the experimental drug, which really isn't meant to be used for my advanced condition. I have come to the decision that the overwhelming risks. Far outweigh any possible benefit. I do thank all of my doctors for giving me one final option. Thank you for reaching out to me this morning. Have a blessed upcoming weekend."

Today was a very somber day. Yet, I know that my decision was the right one. I stand firm on my decision as there is no possible way that my body could handle such a powerful experimental drug therapy, more than 4x the normal suggested therapeutic dose. That fact alone, was one of many that helped to make my final decision.

What does this now mean for the rest of my journey?

Only God knows that answer.


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Updated: October 27, 2017 6:10 AM EDT
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October 25, 2017
Handing Over My Blog Baby *:)
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: Day 2850-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


Today was the day!

Talking about being nervous as my blog baby was finally handed over to the publishing company. Blog baby... that's how I view this blog which has over 2,800+ entries and still going strong!

Talk about a LOT of hours logged behind the screen!

I had already decided to sign over rights with my blog to a very reputable publishing company a few years ago. The reason for the delay was in order to make sure that this was the route destined to be taken. I needed to make sure that the vision for this blog is mutual between myself and the publishing company. The right publisher who can carefully dissect this blog and figure out how to best work the chapters into a series of sorts. A long journey about my life. All the ups, downs, ins and outs. Now safely in the hands of those who will be carefully deciding which direction needs to be taken next with this blog. In the meantime...plans are still full steam ahead in launching this blogs new home which is set to happen next month. I am not sure on the exact date, but it will most definitely happen in November.

It may work. It may not work. As I have always believed, trying is half the battle. Regardless if the new site works or doesn't work. I am determined as ever to give it my all.

'A' for effort!

Tomorrow is going to be a very long day. I have two back-to-back doctor appointments. Then we have an electrician coming over that has been scheduled by our warranty company. Eric needs to drop off his car down the street for an oil change and issues with the tire monitoring system that needs serviced. Thank goodness for the warranty and realizing that we had a years worth of free oil changes. Two paid oils changes later..HA! We still have yet to decorate our pumpkin for Halloween as well buy candy for all the trick-or-treaters. There is also a few outdoor projects that need to be finished before winter. Water proofing the outside of the basement wall and filling in settlement cracks where needed. The other minor repairs still left in our great house-flipping project can slowly be finished through out the upcoming winter months. This will at least give Eric something to do while I am resting. It's been tough lately with my health. More bad days...than good. Trying to get the pain under control and non-stop nausea has also been tough. I still need to keep up with daily fluids, but in all reality, I do better just not drinking anything at all. However, I know that is not feasible.

Tomorrow I have to contact my specialist's office to let them know that I have decided against one final option with the experimental chemo drug. It's going to be tough making that call, but it has to be done. It's like closing another door. Completing another chapter to a very long journey~


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