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November 13, 2017
A Very Special Birth Day Celebration :)
Mood:  special
Now Playing: Day 2869-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


When the good Lord gives you a good day, a good hour, a good minute, a good moment.

You use it to the very  fullest!

Today was a perfect day and a most perfect opportunity to celebrate a very special moment. A very special belated birth day. Feeling another year of being blessed? You BET! I am one very lucky and beyond fortunate gal!

As I mentioned just a few blogs ago...it's amazing what a year can do to ones life. It's also amazing to literally see how much we have both changed over the past year. Of course, like fine wine, I like to think that I get better with age. Eric...he begs to differ as he decided to plead the fifth on how well he ages. Hehehehehehe! Hey, I am trying with making sure he uses daily facial and body lotion. Someone's gotta help him to preserve his youth! Hehehehehehe! I chalk up my graceful aging to genetics. Possibly even the fact that I don't get outdoors very much in the sun. I stay well preserved! Hahahahaha! Too funny! I still get carded to this very day. BAH! Sometimes that can be a good thing or a really annoying thing. I earned every single year of celebrating another birthday. This year was no exception to the rule of getting out to enjoy life. When a good moment hits...SEIZE IT!

This year we decided to continue with a special birth day tradition. A Christmas theme kind of birthday celebration!


How fortunate can a gal be. How incredibly lucky and forever blessed am I to celebrate another birthday with my best friend, hubby by my side. Life...it doesn't get any more perfect than this! Life to me. It is truly a gift!


Cancer is a game changer. It changes you physically, emotionally. It changes the way you see things and people and relationships. It literally leaves an imprint on your brain.

On my worst days I raged about the why, the how.

On my worst days I allowed the disease to define me.

On my very worst days and nights I allowed fear to get me with no end in sight.

But on my best days...

On my best days I give thanks.

Not for being sick. Not for losing a part of my body. Not for even losing a part of myself. But for life itself. And for all the things I learned while battling this war.

I lived through a virtual encyclopedia of daily fear. The sense of losing physical control of what could never be defied, internally. I have finally learned that there is no such thing as control.

I still struggle to be comfortable with daily uncertainty. The look of fear within the eyes of my medical team. But I have finally made peace. Peace with everything and what is and what can no longer be. With each passing day, I am that much further in order to embrace what is going on with me.

Healing is never really about getting better. It is about letting go of everything that isn't you and finally becoming who you are and destined to be. When you square off with death, you learn that there is no such thing as too late. If I am going to do something, even on a whim, I do it now. Not later. 

While on the end of this journey. What I have learned most is that love means everything. Love is the foundation of absolutely everything. Unconditional love means everything when you are sick. Love gets you through those days when really all you want to do is give up.

This moment is the prize. This moment is a gift.

 I know this. And I will never forget.


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Updated: November 14, 2017 2:51 AM EST
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November 12, 2017
Tis A GREAT Day To BAKE! :)
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Day 2868-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


Our indoor garage sale...okay...that sounds funny.

Our sale that we held indoors, turned out to be a huge success!

We have won another battle of less=MORE. YAYYYY!

Thankfully, the rain held off for a bit longer than the forecast predicted here in the country. Although, we ended up closing our weekend sale a bit early. It was still a huge success and most relaxing too! Not having to go back and forth, outside to the garage when a customer arrived was not missed this year. Having our sale in the basement, indoors, was the best decision at the last second when we noticed rain forecasted for this weekend. We may not have made a whole lot of money. However, we did end up selling a good majority of excess stuff. What's that ole saying again?... Hmmmmm... What is junk to one. Is a treasure to another?. Or something along those lines. It's totally true, however we really didn't have any junk. Not in the least bit due to my OCD habits of being such an organized neat freak. HA! I always was one to take care of everything that I own as well making sure to keep things super clean, neat and tidy! We were beyond relieved to not see one customer leave empty handed through out the weekend. It's good to see that folks can use what we no longer need or no longer can use. Lots of various items that have been stored within a huge pile of cardboard moving boxes in our basement. Boxes that are now officially empty, broken down and now stored in our very clean and vacant basement! YAYYYY!

What little we had left were around 7 boxes of mostly clothes and other small miscellaneous items. Instead of keeping what didn't sell. We decided to drop the items off at a little consignment store down the street. The same store that I found my very beautiful ocean theme painting that I restored and is now hanging on the wall in the master bedroom. No need for a tax receipt. So we decided to drop everything off this evening while the rest of our little, lazy, river town was fast asleep. It's nice to give back when given the opportunity. We wish we could do more for those in need. But sometimes just paying someone a nice compliment means more than any material object. A smile goes a long way! So does a compliment! Try it sometime, you will see exactly what I mean!

After cleaning up from our weekend sale and taking down all nine online ads, (just call me the marketing Queen) we decided to end the day on a baking note. Time for some early holiday baking! Time to try a few new twists to the same ole recipes! I was never one to use recipes. I enjoy being creative and doing my own cooking thang-hehehehehe! This time of year brings out my true passion and love for holiday cooking. I have always enjoyed cooking, since as young as I can remember. So why not try something new to start off the next few months of some serious holiday baking!

Triple TART Berry Cobbler & Super SPICY Sweet Potato Pie

Think of a really super tart piece of candy and this is exactly how TART this triple berry cobbler tastes! Trust me by saying, "It's GOOD!" But 'OH' is it mighty TART! I can't remember the last time making any type of cobbler. So it should really be no big surprise that I under baked it which led to the crust falling into the cobbler. BAH! Eric...well he ate it anyways and did so with a smile. As well with a huge spoon in hand! Hahahahaha!

I was going to try my hand, literally, with making my own crust for this super spicy sweet potato pie. However since this is the first for me making any type of sweet potato pie. I opted for a pre-made crust. I did go a bit over-the-top with a few spices, but that is really what made it turn out sooooo DELICIOUS! Eric loves anything with sweet potatoes. I am fortunate that me and sweet potatoes don't really mix. I can live without them, but even a few small spoonful's really has me revisiting my relationship with these amazing golden holiday potatoes! This super spicy sweet potato pie really turned out to be a super tasty dish!

How long will it last in our household? I give it a day. Eric is already going on his forth serving, and the pie has only been out of the oven less than 3 hours ago. HA! I feel for him come tomorrow morning after mixing both the sweet potatoes and triple berry cobbler. Talking about one heck of a stomach ache! Nah...I will stick with my protein shakes and other safe beverages for the evening. Hehehehehehe!

CHEERS to the start of a very HAPPY season of holiday baking!

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Updated: November 14, 2017 1:44 AM EST
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November 11, 2017
Garage Sale MANIA! ;)
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: Day 2867-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


Talking about the start of a huge garage sale success!

Maybe not so much of an actual 'garage' sale. Not since having to move it indoors to the basement. It was not only far more convenient being able to just literally walk down the basement steps to watch over the big sale. But it also seems as if the customers are far more appreciative of having the warmth of shopping indoors.

First day of our big sale, a year in the making, turned out to be a HUGE SUCCESS!

We didn't expect to have too many customers. However, here in the country, anything goes! Even garage sales on a working day, Friday. YAYYYY!

The time flew by super fast and so did all of the clutter and excess that we have been accumulating over the years. What a huge relief watching box after box being broke down and stacked up against the wall. WOO~HOO! Less...is more folks! It's been my life motto for quite a few years now. Less clutter, less cleaning, less of everything means far more time to literally live life to the fullest. Bring on the good days!

After a successful first day, now going into our second day of our huge indoor garage sale-moving sale. The fur gang stayed upstairs on their bestest behavior! Snoreo even helped with the big sale by keeping an eye and bark out, letting us know when the next customer has arrived. Hehehehehehe!

It sure looks like this is going to be another cold sneak-preview winter day here in the country. Better bundle up the gang before heading up to our local dog park later this evening! BRRRRR! I don't mind though, however Eric begs to differ on the cold weather, hehehehehehe! I love the cold weather and being able to wear lots of big, comfy clothes! Now all we need is snow, lots of it!

This evening will be a super~relaxing time enjoying a few more holiday classics with a nice warm cup of coffee for Eric and tea for me. A super  relaxing kind of Saturday evening!


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November 10, 2017
A Special Kind Of Birth~Day :)
Mood:  special
Now Playing: Day 2866-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


What a difference a year can make in ones life.

Today is a very special day. A very special birth~day kind of day!

Who I miss the most...my Littleblue.

I honestly miss all of my beloved fur children that got called back home to heaven far too soon. I miss celebrating a very special day with my very special beloved fur angels. All the tail waggins, meows and howls of excitement while opening my gifts and cutting a slice of birthday cake. The little kisses on my cheek.

This year feels different trying to celebrate my actual birth date. Not having my beloved fur children surrounding me feels...empty.

I always told Eric, that maybe they wanted to reach the beautiful golden gate and such peace that heaven will bring, before me. I can only hope and pray, that when my time comes being called back home to heaven. That all of my beloved fur angels will be standing in front of that big golden gate. Waiting for their mommy.

What a beautiful day that will be!

This evening, Eric lit a few candles on a slice of my favorite, Tiramisu cake. As we listened to some favorite holiday music classics, reflecting on far happier memories. Far happier days. 


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November 9, 2017
Cleveland Clinic...Here We Come! Or...Not.
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: Day 2865-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


This was totally me this  morning!


Actually...both of us.

Nothing like ringing in a new year, birth year, with a little bit of shocking news from my doctor this morning. For crying out loud! Here we go again and again and again and again.

I can't remember what it's like to actually work for a living. If being sick was a job. I clearly would be holding a top CEO title! No joke. I miss working. I never would had imagined having to be on permanent disability for most likely, the remainder of my lifetime. Knowing that it took me a little over 3 years to win a temporary work permit. Then to once again, deal with more complications, escalating issues with my health. In which, I still have yet to complete the first of two possible online business ventures with my temporary work permit. Well...it's down right frustrating. I could use other choice words on my mind, but we will keep this blog 'G' rated. BAH!

Not only has it been one hell of a morning. An even worse afternoon into the evening hours dealing with nagging pain from sitting in the car traveling across state. Far too many hours for this gals liking when not taking her pain medication. Yep, I also forgot to bring that with us this morning. Pfffff!

Today...just wasn't my day. Our day.

I will quote the words from one of my many specialists whom have all wrote their own special notes within my online medical chart. Another few specialist notes that were read to us today.

"Please refer patient to Cleveland Clinic for further advanced care."

"Patient needs to be referred to specialty cancer care."

We have been down this road a few times over the years. My specialists have come to their own crossroads where even my complications are becoming far too much for them to manage. What used to work, is no longer working. Another possible option for some sort of experimental treatment. I assume...if one wants to wander back down that experimental road. Really, in my mind, while being read one specialist letter after another. I have already given up this long, windy road of going no where.

Really, it's not all about giving up. For me, it's about the quality of my good days. Not the quantity of how many days I am able to enjoy through out the week. Driving back and forth up north to the Cleveland Clinic already sounds exhausting. Yet, my team of specialists are very adamant about sending me up north as my long, lengthy online medical chart makes it way to the Cleveland Clinic now as we speak. Sometimes, it's best to just bite your tongue before you speak. I don't want to let my amazing team of specialists down, however, I am a realistic gal. Realistic is when you come to a point within your battle, realizing that things are not going to get any better. So why not enjoy the good days, to the fullest, while they last. AMEN.

Yea, it wasn't a very good appointment. Not like they ever are lately. But I guess even today brings with it, another silver lining. I always have Cleveland Clinic to fall back on. Maybe not in this lifetime. But it's nice to know that my specialists still have hope and remain dedicated in my care to the very best of their ability.



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November 8, 2017
One Word...TIRED.
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Day 2864-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


One BEST enjoy this beautiful fall weather before Mother Nature literally throws us an early taste of winter over this upcoming weekend!


Thanks to Dr. T and his most marvelous hidden talent!

This totally describes how I view the fall season...LOVE  IT!

However, today was all about good ole sleep. Much needed rest for my body! We plan on still having our garage sale over this upcoming weekend. Even with the brisk winter-like weather forecasted...our sale must go on...indoors! Hehehehehe! This means moving everything from the upstairs garage to the basement. Looks like not only will Eric need coffee, but as well an extra protein shake! HA!

It's been an official year, October 24th, since moving into our home here in the country. More like...on the wooded country hillside. We have accumulated an awful lot over the years. More so on my end, over the past decade and then some! Less to me...is truly more in order to enjoy life to the fullest! Amen.

Tomorrow marks another appointment with my specialist. Then next week it's off to see a new specialist here in Indiana. Sometimes, it's all about location-location-location. Not having to be in the car, driving over bumps that only make the tumor pain worse. I will still remain part of my team of specialists care back in Ohio. However, having another doctor to share their expertise with my unique medical case can never hurt matters. Possibly, even helping matters.

Only time will tell. It's a watch, wait and see.

Until tomorrowzzzzz

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November 7, 2017
A Little List Of Life Reminders :)
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Day 2863-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


We all could use a little pick-me-up from time to time!

A little list of reminders on why you should laugh, smile and of course...BE  HAPPY!

#10. Even when you felt your absolute worst over the past week. You did your best.

#9. Being a little weird is just a natural side effect of being totally awesome!

#8. People around you right now, at this very second, might have on pants and underwear. However, that doesn't mean they are better than you.

#7. If it doesn't open. It's not your door.

#6. Standing in your truth...is like having a super festive birthday party! It doesn't matter if nobody shows up because you'll enjoy that festive glitter for weeks! If not years from now!

#5. Be you, just the way you are, in the beautiful way only you know how.

#4. If you spent 3 seconds today truly appreciating an image, smell or song. You're already ahead!

#3. It's more than okay to take the time to slow down, reflect, and appreciate what you have. Sometimes it's okay if the only thing you're doing is breathing.

#2. What you do today is important because you are exchanging a day of your life for it.

#1. This moment is sacred.

I kid you not. Right now is the only moment you have. You are not guaranteed a tomorrow. Your past is just memories now. You are alive. You are a part of this universe.

There is not one moment more sacred than this very moment.  The here, now.

Life IS a present...a remarkable gift!

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November 6, 2017
Accepting That Sometimes...Things Are What They Are.
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Day 2862-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


It's going to be a very long week.

Another early Monday morning start to our very long week.

When I take the time to look a bit back on my life over the years. In which, I try not to do very often. It's very disturbing to come to the reality of just how much my body has endured. Medically speaking. It's even far more disturbing to come to grips with another surgery, another reality that has no chance of being postponed. Not in the very sense when it comes to another infection deep within the bone.

Sigh...or really do I sigh this time? Surely, I have somehow gotten used to this normalcy. My way of living. I guess.

I had predicted this mornings turn of events. More like...another series of the same ole, same ole, events. Medically speaking of course, because so far I have yet to even finish both online businesses. Building two separate websites that once again, have to be postponed, delayed due to medical reasons. Of course, why it certainly always seems to go that way. Am I feeling a bit annoyed, yet sarcastic?.

You bet!

As with anyone who has endured a round or two of chemotherapy or radiation. Ones immune system will always be compromised. Infections are never taken lightly. Infections and the source of infections must be handled careful and urgently. Seems I might not have successfully found myself with a surgical implanted device to help regulate lack of hormones. I may not even found myself at least receiving a surgically implanted port to help minimize lack of absorption with medication, pill form, that is now a substitute for what could not be implanted surgically. But it seems today was just another day when another infection trumped everything.

I may have anticipated, literally expecting this mornings news. However, Eric was the least to expect seeing me go under the knife, one more time, dealing with another infection deep within the bone. It isn't about having a choice in the matter. Surgically, it must be done. As for now, we are looking at another Thanksgiving recovering at home. What a great way to ring in the upcoming holidays! Said...no one...ever. But such as life, you just learn to roll with the punches. What one can no longer control. After all, "It really is, what it is."

So...after two appointments and running far too many errands in order to catch up with life. We made a pit-stop in order for me to stock up on the good stuff! Another round of preparing my body for a long road to recovery. Another round or two of antibiotics until the nurse calls me with my scheduled day of surgery. Doing whatever it takes to prepare myself physically, but also emotionally. It's stressful. Lately, things are getting to be a bit depressing. As most 'normal' human beings. Although...what is really 'normal' anyways. I do the best I can, with what I got.

Tis not a good day today, but there is always...tomorrow.


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November 5, 2017
What Really Is 'Normal' Anyways.?
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: Day 2861-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


This unseasonably warm, humid weather is enough to literally zap the energy out of a gal!

Okay, maybe even a kitty named, Beary. Hehehehehehe! Nah...she's just used to her lazy Sundays...

It was a warm, breezy day here in the country. No winter attired needed. Just throw on a t-shirt, shorts, flip-flops and your ready to go! Crazy isn't it?! I believe our temperature actually was warmer here in the country than down south in Florida. Almost 80 degrees and still in the upper 70's by late this afternoon.

What happened to the predicted 'normal' fall and winter weather for this year? I mean really...what is 'normal' anyways?. There isn't a normal. However, it was pretty nice being able to enjoy a few walks through out the day along the river. No coat needed. Just us and our fur children enjoying the warm weather and lots of sun! Ahhhh...relaxing!

With the holidays quickly upon us. What we have yet to do is have a garage sale of sorts. We were suppose to have our garage sale last month, but life got in the way. Instead of an actual garage sale. It appears that it will end up being an indoor basement sale. HA! We have a lot of storage totes filled with excess clutter that need to be moved in order to get the rest of our stuff out of storage and into our basement. Literally, from one basement to another before our final move come early spring, 2018. We aren't so sure where all this extra physical energy will be coming from...but the sale must go on within the next few weeks.

Move over ice tea! It's time to bring on the coffee for Eric, and lots of it! Hehehehehehehe!

With such a beautiful, warm, last sneak peek of summer day here in the country. We decided to end our evening with a short drive farther up on the hillside. A picture perfect view of the country! With an even more beautiful sunset!

A perfect ending to a very busy week. A most perfect kind of Sunday heavenly treat~

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November 4, 2017
Fall Fun & Football Rivalry!
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Day 2860-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


Look at these amazing fall colors!

All sorts of vibrant red, orange and yellow leaves on the trees! The fall season makes this gal SUPER HAPPY!


Thankful, is knowing that I have one heck of an amazing team of doctors who quickly found the source of my infection. The latest infection that once again, put surgical procedures on hold so my compromised immune system could receive a bit of assistance. Not only did my doctors quickly find out the source of my infection. But were as well able to quickly work me into their Monday morning schedule for next week.

Anymore with my health. I tend to just roll with the punches. Going where my doctors need me for the time being. Sure, I would like to just call it quits. However, realistically it just isn't possible when I don't even have a second to blink before getting hit again with another complication. Defying the odds... is an understatement.

What I refuse to give up on are days like today. A good day that includes a few good moments. Lots of smiles, fun and plenty of laughter among husband and wife. Even a little football rivalry of sorts!

Eric... still stuck across state lines, mentally believing that the Bungals...Bengals might take home a Super Bowl ring this year. You know, I respect that positive thinking or something like that... ha!

Then of course... You have little ole MUAH! A huge STEELERS fan that isn't shy about poking a little fun at his Cincinnati Bungals along the way. Hehehehehehe! Why, lookie here...guess what I found in one of the storage totes that we brought home yesterday...


Notice Eric's facial expression in the background. A mere disgust of me wearing my infamous Steeler's sweatshirt that I found. Hahahahaha! PRICELESS!

Today, we not only caught up on a few house-flipping projects. But most importantly, we got to spend some time outdoors taking in all the beautiful sights and sounds of fall. Regardless of what life may throw at us. We still always make sure to find time for plenty of smiles and lots of laughter along the way!

Eric's Cincinnati Bungals. I mean, Bengals.


 Muah's...STEELERS all day!



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Updated: November 5, 2017 5:47 AM EDT
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