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November 7, 2017
A Little List Of Life Reminders :)
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Day 2863-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


We all could use a little pick-me-up from time to time!

A little list of reminders on why you should laugh, smile and of course...BE  HAPPY!

#10. Even when you felt your absolute worst over the past week. You did your best.

#9. Being a little weird is just a natural side effect of being totally awesome!

#8. People around you right now, at this very second, might have on pants and underwear. However, that doesn't mean they are better than you.

#7. If it doesn't open. It's not your door.

#6. Standing in your truth...is like having a super festive birthday party! It doesn't matter if nobody shows up because you'll enjoy that festive glitter for weeks! If not years from now!

#5. Be you, just the way you are, in the beautiful way only you know how.

#4. If you spent 3 seconds today truly appreciating an image, smell or song. You're already ahead!

#3. It's more than okay to take the time to slow down, reflect, and appreciate what you have. Sometimes it's okay if the only thing you're doing is breathing.

#2. What you do today is important because you are exchanging a day of your life for it.

#1. This moment is sacred.

I kid you not. Right now is the only moment you have. You are not guaranteed a tomorrow. Your past is just memories now. You are alive. You are a part of this universe.

There is not one moment more sacred than this very moment.  The here, now.

Life IS a present...a remarkable gift!

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 11:14 PM EST
Updated: November 9, 2017 10:04 PM EST
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November 6, 2017
Accepting That Sometimes...Things Are What They Are.
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Day 2862-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


It's going to be a very long week.

Another early Monday morning start to our very long week.

When I take the time to look a bit back on my life over the years. In which, I try not to do very often. It's very disturbing to come to the reality of just how much my body has endured. Medically speaking. It's even far more disturbing to come to grips with another surgery, another reality that has no chance of being postponed. Not in the very sense when it comes to another infection deep within the bone.

Sigh...or really do I sigh this time? Surely, I have somehow gotten used to this normalcy. My way of living. I guess.

I had predicted this mornings turn of events. More like...another series of the same ole, same ole, events. Medically speaking of course, because so far I have yet to even finish both online businesses. Building two separate websites that once again, have to be postponed, delayed due to medical reasons. Of course, why it certainly always seems to go that way. Am I feeling a bit annoyed, yet sarcastic?.

You bet!

As with anyone who has endured a round or two of chemotherapy or radiation. Ones immune system will always be compromised. Infections are never taken lightly. Infections and the source of infections must be handled careful and urgently. Seems I might not have successfully found myself with a surgical implanted device to help regulate lack of hormones. I may not even found myself at least receiving a surgically implanted port to help minimize lack of absorption with medication, pill form, that is now a substitute for what could not be implanted surgically. But it seems today was just another day when another infection trumped everything.

I may have anticipated, literally expecting this mornings news. However, Eric was the least to expect seeing me go under the knife, one more time, dealing with another infection deep within the bone. It isn't about having a choice in the matter. Surgically, it must be done. As for now, we are looking at another Thanksgiving recovering at home. What a great way to ring in the upcoming holidays! Said...no one...ever. But such as life, you just learn to roll with the punches. What one can no longer control. After all, "It really is, what it is."

So...after two appointments and running far too many errands in order to catch up with life. We made a pit-stop in order for me to stock up on the good stuff! Another round of preparing my body for a long road to recovery. Another round or two of antibiotics until the nurse calls me with my scheduled day of surgery. Doing whatever it takes to prepare myself physically, but also emotionally. It's stressful. Lately, things are getting to be a bit depressing. As most 'normal' human beings. Although...what is really 'normal' anyways. I do the best I can, with what I got.

Tis not a good day today, but there is always...tomorrow.


Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 12:01 AM EST
Updated: November 7, 2017 10:11 PM EST
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November 5, 2017
What Really Is 'Normal' Anyways.?
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: Day 2861-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


This unseasonably warm, humid weather is enough to literally zap the energy out of a gal!

Okay, maybe even a kitty named, Beary. Hehehehehehe! Nah...she's just used to her lazy Sundays...

It was a warm, breezy day here in the country. No winter attired needed. Just throw on a t-shirt, shorts, flip-flops and your ready to go! Crazy isn't it?! I believe our temperature actually was warmer here in the country than down south in Florida. Almost 80 degrees and still in the upper 70's by late this afternoon.

What happened to the predicted 'normal' fall and winter weather for this year? I mean really...what is 'normal' anyways?. There isn't a normal. However, it was pretty nice being able to enjoy a few walks through out the day along the river. No coat needed. Just us and our fur children enjoying the warm weather and lots of sun! Ahhhh...relaxing!

With the holidays quickly upon us. What we have yet to do is have a garage sale of sorts. We were suppose to have our garage sale last month, but life got in the way. Instead of an actual garage sale. It appears that it will end up being an indoor basement sale. HA! We have a lot of storage totes filled with excess clutter that need to be moved in order to get the rest of our stuff out of storage and into our basement. Literally, from one basement to another before our final move come early spring, 2018. We aren't so sure where all this extra physical energy will be coming from...but the sale must go on within the next few weeks.

Move over ice tea! It's time to bring on the coffee for Eric, and lots of it! Hehehehehehehe!

With such a beautiful, warm, last sneak peek of summer day here in the country. We decided to end our evening with a short drive farther up on the hillside. A picture perfect view of the country! With an even more beautiful sunset!

A perfect ending to a very busy week. A most perfect kind of Sunday heavenly treat~

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November 4, 2017
Fall Fun & Football Rivalry!
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Day 2860-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


Look at these amazing fall colors!

All sorts of vibrant red, orange and yellow leaves on the trees! The fall season makes this gal SUPER HAPPY!


Thankful, is knowing that I have one heck of an amazing team of doctors who quickly found the source of my infection. The latest infection that once again, put surgical procedures on hold so my compromised immune system could receive a bit of assistance. Not only did my doctors quickly find out the source of my infection. But were as well able to quickly work me into their Monday morning schedule for next week.

Anymore with my health. I tend to just roll with the punches. Going where my doctors need me for the time being. Sure, I would like to just call it quits. However, realistically it just isn't possible when I don't even have a second to blink before getting hit again with another complication. Defying the odds... is an understatement.

What I refuse to give up on are days like today. A good day that includes a few good moments. Lots of smiles, fun and plenty of laughter among husband and wife. Even a little football rivalry of sorts!

Eric... still stuck across state lines, mentally believing that the Bungals...Bengals might take home a Super Bowl ring this year. You know, I respect that positive thinking or something like that... ha!

Then of course... You have little ole MUAH! A huge STEELERS fan that isn't shy about poking a little fun at his Cincinnati Bungals along the way. Hehehehehehe! Why, lookie here...guess what I found in one of the storage totes that we brought home yesterday...


Notice Eric's facial expression in the background. A mere disgust of me wearing my infamous Steeler's sweatshirt that I found. Hahahahaha! PRICELESS!

Today, we not only caught up on a few house-flipping projects. But most importantly, we got to spend some time outdoors taking in all the beautiful sights and sounds of fall. Regardless of what life may throw at us. We still always make sure to find time for plenty of smiles and lots of laughter along the way!

Eric's Cincinnati Bungals. I mean, Bengals.


 Muah's...STEELERS all day!



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Updated: November 5, 2017 5:47 AM EDT
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November 3, 2017
Boobear Birthday Ninja STRIKES!
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Day 2859-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


You know the ole saying... Life is far too short.

So why not have a little bit of fun!

Today it seems that the Boobear  Birthday Ninja decided to strike when least expected!

BOO! Hehehehehehe!

Sure...I know what most of you are thinking. This is about to get f-u-n-n-y! You know what? You are absolutely, 100 million percent, spot-on, RIGHT!

After last month's ridiculous shenanigans, family claiming that Eric and his coworker, Deputy Sheriff's for the county, plotted a Boobear birthday Ninja move by literally ruining a family members birthday. Of all reasons, in order to move storage totes out of a grandparents basement, given prior permission by the grandparent. Ridiculousness filed in Butler County, Ohio court. Now, public record. Denied and dismissed by the judge. Because of course, it's not a life threatening event by any means when one is attempting to pick up moving totes out of a grandparents basement with a reserved U-Haul.

BAH! Hehehehehehe!  Downright silly, I tell ya!

Honestly, I believe everyone will be laughing about this for a very long time. We are just not-so-sure which part of the story/claim will be chuckled over time and time again?. A family member claiming that the Ninja tote movers were ruining their birthday by picking up moving totes, in which, they didn't even ring the doorbell due to not being able to locate the grandparents home after a new fence was installed. Or...claiming that their birthday was also ruined by a reserved U-Haul?. HA! Literally, either way you look at it...downright silly! To file a court document claiming partly your life was in immediate danger from moving totes, two folks, Deputy Sheriff's, trying to get the moving totes and one reserved U-Haul. It still has many shaking their heads. It has me still shaking my head and remembering my Grandmothers quote about fools. Foolish folks. "You both are better off without them."

The dismissed, denied by the judge, court filings by family. Is clearly the reason why this evening, I made sure that this gal went along to retrieve the first batch of moving totes from the grandparents basement. Of course...making sure it was done so with no one present to cause another dramatic uproar over absolutely...nothing.

I like to call this evening's tote moving adventure:

Boobear Birthday Ninja STRIKES!

While everyone is out, about or at Bingo.

Hehehehehehehe! Literally, the depths I have to go through in order to keep the peace back across the state line, Ohio. Keeping peace in the city.

<Literally smiling and shaking my head as I continue typing

The Boobear Birthday Ninja was so smooth...that literally nothing went noticed as far as 11 totes, 1 large Xmas tree, 3 small Xmas trees and one huge green screen. All successfully moved from the basement to both parked vehicles waiting to make a Ninja escape without notice. All this...in order to be the bigger adults and keep the peace among family members. AMEN.

I was on the phone the other day with Eric's father. A long conversation about all of the dysfunction that has been going on among both large families. Really...as I told him...it's a sad shame. But I also told his father, that one day, there will be something that happens. An event in ones life. That literally puts life into a far bigger perspective. Silly things such as the Boobear and the gang story and other family members overdramatizing such pettiness, will no longer bother you anymore. You will actually be able to finally find humor in such a highly dynamic, dysfunction of sorts. Issues among both families that really is a crying shame. But with life changing events, such as what myself and Eric have went through over the past few weeks. You learn that even with highly dysfunctional family issues, those that have continued on for years. Some, even for almost a decade. You learn not to let things with family bother you anymore. You come to a point where you can finally laugh, shake your head, and let it roll off your shoulder. Doing so, with a smile. You learn that life is far too short, to ever let anything or anyone make you unhappy.

Life is far too short to waste another minute, another moment, another second. Even if that time means being wasted by long-winded issues among family.

It was the second of long conversations with Eric's father. In which, a light was shed upon such a very unfortunate situation. Families torn apart, two, over such pettiness. Egos far too large to just sit down, work issues out and offer a sincere apology. Too many Chiefs...not enough Indians. That's how I look at the entire situation.

But you know what I have learned the most?

Life goes on. Happiness is solely yours for the taking! Literally, absolutely, 100 million percent. It IS yours for the taking!

As for this evening's Boobear Birthday Ninja attempt at the first round of moving totes? A most HUGE success!

Isn't it sad. When those who should be there for you through thick and thin. End up being the ones who will let you down and hurt you the most. Yet...preach about not having the time to be there for each other, as family members. Yet, have all the time in the world abusing the court system. See...there are many lessons learned among both families. The greatest lesson of all is that when people claim they don't have the time for you. In turn...don't give back your valuable time for the taking. People, even family, that love you unconditionally. Will go great lengths in order to spent time with you, quality time, not petty time. Petty time is time wasted. I respect and deeply value my time. I refuse to have my valuable time wasted.

These Boobear Birthday Ninja's have no further time to waste. Life is far too short.


Never look back at closed doors. God keeps them closed for good reason! This, I know.


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November 2, 2017
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Day 2858-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


Ahhhh...the very first signs of fall here in the country...

Bahhhh...the very first signs of a far too early wake up call here in the country...

Talking about one mix-up of a day!

We arrived 10 minutes early at the hospital, signed in with registration and was taken back to the same-day surgical area. What we weren't ready for was a HUGE mix-up, more so, a phone call and voicemail message that I never received yesterday. A message from my oncologist's assistance in order to let us know that my blood work came back with a few concerns that need to be addressed first before proceeding with my port. I honestly never received the phone call nor voicemail. That is because they left the voicemail on Eric's phone number. His prior phone number before having it changed after moving to Indiana. Oh yes...someone got the message...it just wasn't me.

I am still dealing with immunity issues, a compromised immune system. What my doctors will not do is any type of surgical procedure when signs of infection surface. It took my specialists almost a month to finally be able to proceed ahead with the last surgical procedure due to my inability to regulate a safe body temperature. That was also due to problems with my immune system, in which, a pump that was going to be able to deliver important hormones that my body can no longer make on it's own, was permanently canceled. Instead, we find out four months later, after my last rescan why I am having one complication after another. Internally, things rapidly progressing is not only concerning, but if I allow it...could be beyond depressing. Days like today, most certainly put life into perspective.

The gift of life, should be respected.

So...instead of being mentally prepared for my port procedure. We were whisked away to the infusion center for another treatment to help boost my immune system. This isn't the first nor do I expect it to be the last. For anyone who has endured infusion treatments. You can completely respect the time involved which starts with first getting your vitals taken, then off to find your assigned infusion chair. Time is truly of the essence with having any type of infusion due to time sensitive, delivered medication from the hospital pharmacist. The person responsible for making sure that the medication is sent up to the infusion staff after the patient has been registered and waiting in their assigned infusion chair. The infusion center that we typically go to inside the hospital reminds me of what one would see up in heaven. Bright white walls, crystal clear and very bright overhead lighting, soft white infusion chair sheets and big fluffy white blankets and pillows to keep you warm and comfy during your infusion treatment. All of the infusion center staff wear white hospital uniforms with white medical clogs. Everything...is literally the whitest shade of white humanly possible!

I believe that those who decide upon a career, taking care of patients with serious medical, end of life conditions, have some of the biggest hearts in the medical profession. We have yet to ever see a staff member inside the infusion treatment center walk around with a frown on their face. Even right down to the volunteer staff who come around making sure you are comfortable during your infusion, along with loved ones that sit along side the patient. Offering anything from magazines, beverages, snacks and even a mini size version of chess to help bide time while waiting for the infusion treatment to end. Every single infusion center staff member is beyond amazing! Angelic...that's a good word to describe their level of compassion and care to each and every patient.

Of course, there are the stories that are pretty hard not to overhear since all infusion patients chairs are out in the open. This as we were told makes it possible in order to help patients who might encounter a reaction to their treatment medication. Within the very first minute of my nurse helping me to get comfortable in my chair. A young woman in her mid 20's started having one of those serious reactions. Her mom gently held her hand while the nurse helped talk her through the reaction she was having from her treatment. Watching her face go from a normal skin tone color, to a very pale bluish-gray color, was quite scary. Of course, since she could see me. I instantly put on my warrior face! I had to set an example, more so, a calmness for her. Before the nurse began my treatment. I asked Eric to step out to the hallway. He doesn't do well with needles and the young ladies response to her treatment already had him frightfully nervous. Every single patient with an assigned chair has a story. The gentleman who sat next to us enduring his weekly infusion who sits patiently waiting for his medication to be delivered by the hospital pharmacy. One brave soul who endures weekly treatments to help boost his compromised immune system due to a kidney transplant, number two, that his body sadly rejected last year during Christmas. Another couple, an elderly gentleman who is battling stage 4 lung cancer. A supportive hand from his wife who patiently sat by his side. Yet, tells his assigned infusion center nurse that he feels a bit better and would rather not continue his final treatments due to time spent away from his family. Infusions that take between 3-4 hours which to him, equals time away from his adult children and grandchildren. Then there are the strongest of souls who are bravely enduring one final treatment option in hopes of biding just a bit more time. Experimental chemotherapy drugs that literally cost $15,000+ per infusion. This is actually around the normal cost of most treatment drugs. This is also why the drug manufacturers must have your verbal consent on the phone before they will ship the drug to the hospital pharmacy. I was told that same information last week, by the pharmaceutical company who needed my permission before proceeding with my own last option experimental chemotherapy drug treatment. Yet...my decision to not proceed ahead with one final option was not as brave as those souls who were seated in other infusion chairs. For those patients and those who sit in a chair next to the patient. Those who are there to support their family member, loved one and friend. My heart and deepest respect go out to each and every one of you. It takes a very brave and courageous human being to hold the hand of those who fight to live to see another day. Those same patients who go through the unimaginable, literally, the unthinkable while still being able to hold a smile on their face.

There really are no words to describe what it is like to sit among those who are the most bravest souls around...looking for hope inside a place where angels really do exist.

 I am forever humbled to be around those who are forever blessed.


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November 1, 2017
United GP Walk 2017~SUCCESS! :)
Mood:  special
Now Playing: Day 2857-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)




In Loving Memory~Elia Borreo

 Our dear fellow GP friend and Angel was called to Heaven on September 5th, 2013 after a long and courageous battle. Elia was truly an inspiration to millions around the world and her legacy will live on. You will forever be loved and dearly missed.
*Don't forget to send your "WALK-RUN-RIDE" event photos to: gpawarenessfund@yahoo.com


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October 31, 2017
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Day 2856-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)




Talking about a perfect night for some tricks and treats!

A most beautiful fall day for some fun in the country!


It might not had been the most ideal start of the morning. Pain, nausea and even more painful vomiting. However, no way is this gal going to let that interfere with our very first Halloween celebration here in the country! Nope.

Actually...our very first and our very last celebration of Halloween. We never got to celebrate Halloween last year due to it falling on the week we were moving into our little hidden lemon gem of a find! Hahahahaha! Yes, we can FINALLY laugh now! We are actually back on schedule with the remaining indoor and outdoor projects in order to finally realize this great house flip! It has literally been an official year of repairing, repainting and redecorating one room at a time.

Country Coastal  Chic!

Thank goodness things took a lot longer than we actually had anticipated to finish our great house flip. There has already been several houses, all within the same area, that have either sold or just went up on the market. Close call on waiting until next year, early spring, for reselling our home here in the country. So...for now it's all about having a bit of fun!

The ole saying is true! They most definitely do everything much, MUCH bigger here in the country! Over 150+ young and a bit older trick or treater's that greeted us this evening! A lot more than what we used to have back in the city. It was nice to actually have the chance to meet many of our neighbors who live along the wooded hillside. Even those, much like ourselves, who are in process of flipping their own home and reselling to move further out in the country. Our goal destination, final move, still remains out west in Nevada. But if the good Lord does not see it fit, due to my health. Then we will move forward with our back up plans. Another home, but lots more land, further out in the country.

Peace & Quiet....Ahhhhh....

Our very first, and our very last Halloween here in our little, lazy, river town, could had not went more perfect! Isn't it crazy, how when things are just meant to be, everything will go as planned. Right down to the very first and very last Halloween SPOOKTACULAR minute! Of course...I got to celebrate it with my hubby and that folks doesn't get any better than that! We had so much fun! Far too many smiles and more than enough laughter! Far too many selfies and candy to pass around for the ghosts, goblins, oh-so-sweet and even the most scariest of trick or treater's in their best Halloween attire! They most definitely do it 'right' here in the country!

This evening was just meant to be. Me and my honey having the most fun celebrating a SPOOKTACTULAR HALLOWEEN!

Tomorrow it's an early wake up call. The very first day of November. A decision that led to my medical port procedure. Till then...

Here's wishing you and yours a very HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

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October 30, 2017
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: Day 2855-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


Can you believe it's already that time?!





**Only 2 days left remaining


for Gastroparesis Awareness**

Why not grab your walking, running or riding shoes while grabbing a few Halloween trick or treats helping to raise International Gastroparesis Awareness with the Gastroparesis Awareness Campaign

Bring your neighbors! Bring your friends! Bring your selfie stick too!

Let's all join together helping to raise Gastroparesis Awareness one person at a time!



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October 29, 2017
True Humility~
Mood:  special
Now Playing: Day 2854-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)


This is a first weekend, in a very long time, where I have to admit...it was perfect and peaceful.

Of course, I love this brisk, cold early winter weather! I love fall, but even more so, I love winter! I just love the cold weather in general. Let's not forget...my love for snow and lots of it!

Not only was it one of the nicest weekends yet for both of us. In such a very long time. But we also got to enjoy some at-home Halloween festivities, even a bit of rice krispy making! Eric's tummy is going to be mighty full of some serious snap-crackle-pop over the next few days, possibly over the next week. It really all depends on how fast he inhales the entire tray of rice krispy treats...HA!

It was so very nice, spending lots of quality time together as a little family. I wouldn't trade time like this for the world!


Even time spent with this lovable furry guy!

I have to admit. We had so much fun over this weekend. Enjoying the little things in life. That I really didn't think much about, if at all, my decision regarding a medical port. Nah...it can wait until tomorrow. Another week and a long list of things we must do. Appointments we must attend regarding my health. Even weekends like this one, in which, I really didn't want to see it come to an end. Sadly, all good things must come to an end. This, I know. But there is always next weekend to enjoy some smiling fun and lots of laughter. Together...as family. Amen.

There is a true humility to wondering if today is your last day. If tonight is your last night. If this moment in time will be your last while still alive. That's true humility. It changes a person.


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Updated: October 29, 2017 10:41 PM EDT
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