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B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L! 
The first red tulip of the season! Spring or summer season? Who knows with temperatures hitting an all-time record here in the country. A mighty warm 87-degrees record! Can we say... A/C time? Sure we can! It's already on!
It was a very busy, yet another mighty productive day. There is still so much on our plate before we are officially on our way farther north in the country. All in less than 3 weeks... RVinggggg! We are still doing our best to stay organization and on track, but there is always room for the exception. Even the best intentions with planning. Don't always go as planned.
Another round of medication via outpatient and labs that won't come back until early next week. Not exactly how one envisions starting their Easter weekend, but one still has to keep going! I was never one to let medical hurdles get the best of me, nor stand in my way. I not only never plan on looking sick, but I never plan on looking how I really feel. Internally. Not everyone might feel the same way nor do the same as I do, but that's just me. That is what makes us all so different and unique. I like still looking and feeling... B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L.
Maybe spending most of the day, not feeling my absolute best, didn't necessary=beautiful, but there's always tomorrow. Another beautiful day. EASTER!
No matter the battle or hurdles ahead... KEEP GOING~
That's what the good Lord said!
HAPPY 
EASTER
Me, the early bird is now falling asleep before the clock strikes midnight, while Eric has only been at work for a mere hour. HA! Another sleep schedule instantly thrown off while slowly coming off of various treatment medication. 
While Eric was resting at home with Littleblue. I was already up, walking the trails along the river. Unfortunately, since needing to resort back to nasty GI treatments this week in hopes of a slow decompression. I can't afford to lay around, but instead must continue doing my best to move around, physically. My treadmill is no longer. In fact, the thought of not being able to use it since radiation, not only made me frustrated, but very depressed. I did my best getting back into the swing of things, but with a home continuing to pull and sink. We didn't trust having the treadmill on any part of such unstable floors. My treadmill of many miles, to China and back again, is now enjoying some use from another determined traveler! I sure do miss using my treadmill, but at the same time. I am glad to know it is back in use! Until we are finally back in a home. On a stable and safe foundation. I will be utilizing the great outdoor parks and trails for daily exercise.
Since Eric was at home, keeping a close eye on Littleblue while she continues on the road to recovery. I finally was able to catch up with my dental treatments. Yes, three more unexpected dental treatments. It never seems to end. At last! I was also finally able to pick up my new prosthesis, since the last one caused me to have an allergic reaction due to the type of material that was used. Its been a few weeks, but I can finally get back to smiling again! YAYYY! One dental treatment back down and two more to go.. Thank goodness for changing our dental plan and going up a notch! It most definitely will come in handy this year!
d'oh
Littleblue has been resting over the past 24 hours since her surgery. We are beyond shocked on how well she is doing with such an invasive surgery. She is most definitely just like her human Mommy... A born fighter! 
Littleblue has a long road to recovery, but we plan to do our best to make it as much as a smooth one as possible. With of course, the help of her buddy Snoreo who has been keeping a close eye while she rests through out the day. Myself and Eric already have a game plan in action. When one of us needs to head out, the other stays at home with Littleblue. Today was a low-key day anyways for all of us. GI-treatment day for me while Eric kept a close eye on Littleblue. Talking about fortunate to have made it through surgery! Littleblue most definitely had the Angels on her side. We are most grateful, forever blessed. 
We still plan on keeping up with a few annual Easter traditions this year, such as decorating Easter eggs and exchanging Easter baskets. One is never too old to receive an Easter basket from the Easter Bunny. *WINK-WINK* Even our beloved fur children get a special Easter basket filled with pet-friendly treats! Our holidays might be celebrated a bit differently than most, but we still make sure to celebrate with love, laughter and plenty of reasons to smile! 
THURSDAY photo...
sad
and depressing.
We rushed our beloved Littleblue up to the same animal hospital where she was scheduled for surgery to possibly remove her cancerous mammary tumor early next week. We only did as anyone would in an emergency setting when clearly time is not on your side. For confidential reasons, we only trust a few surgeons at this particular animal hospital. One of the best surgeons that works there just happens to be the same surgeon who was scheduled to do Littleblue's surgery early next week. Unfortunately, he was not scheduled to work during our emergency visit. Instead... The one whom we have the least trust or faith in when it comes to any type of veterinarian care, was scheduled to work. The same veterinarian who trumped the emergency room veterinarian who was assigned to Littleblue during our visit. 
Notoriety doesn't equal experience by any means. 
In one single reply text message. We were told to come up right away! This was at 8:15pm. In less than 40 minutes and a drive back across the Ohio state line. Littleblue received the upmost best, professional, compassionate, kind and experienced care that a beloved fur child could ever possibly receive. In such an urgent necessity to get Littleblue quickly into surgery. Dr. T, once again, came through for us. For our little family. There are not enough words to describe his kindred soul. Dr. T has not only been here for me, helping to direct me during my own medical journey, but he as well has been there for our beloved fur children. I have always believed that the good Lord brings good souls to us. Those who have our best interest, even our fur children's best interest to heart. A 45 year, highly skilled, with the upmost talent, professionalism and passion for all animals, career. God's creatures both big and small. Dr. T's children have followed in his footsteps. Not for the title nor the money, but for a medical career chosen by where their hearts had led them. A well-known Pediatric Cancer Professor and Surgeon. 
SAVED.
rushed
Right back UP again!
Regardless of how I feel. Today must go on! So does having to follow Eric with the moving truck back and forth across three state lines. Indiana, Kentucky, Ohio and then back to Indiana. I guess you can say three state lines and then back across to our current state line. Indiana. Nuts? Stressful? Hectic? OH YES! All three and then some! It took quite a few hours and one extremely achy and irritable me, but we did it! An Army of two after a friend and coworker of Eric's got hit for mandatory overtime. Of all mornings... The morning he was going to help Eric, but it's more than understandably, OK. Life happens and if any two folks know that more than anyone, it's us two folks. Amen. 
Yes, we WILL! 
I have a hunch, that this will end up becoming a three-move-process, all in less than 12 months. The next organized move can only get better or... At least we hope so! Eric said, "It can't get any worse." It actually wasn't that bad for Eric moving all the storage totes by himself. However, he will be receiving help from a few friends when it comes time to move the last little bit and furniture we still currently have left in our house. I am soooo ready to be done with this chapter! The great house hunting adventures mistake. Hahahaha! At least my first home purchase on my very own, RVing, seems to be going extremely well! Even the final walk through only showed a mere 3 minor repairs. We still have an outlet to be rechecked and part of a screen to be repaired. Otherwise, we are all set and only need a few of our belongings still brought to our next new home and NEW way of living.
WOO~HOO!
Delays.
After far too much IV medication. I was scheduled for another outpatient round again this morning due to lack of still being able to get the vomiting under control. My blood work didn't help matters. Especially when my immune system should be making even a teeny, tiny sort of some type of change in the right direction. Instead... It took another nose-dive. In the wrong direction. Another early morning assisted walk through the hospital halls in hopes of finding answers instead of continuing to spin the ole wheels. This morning my specialists made their decision against any type of temporary tube due to obvious factors with lack of an immune system and the far too high risk of developing an infection that my body would not be able to fight off. Not with the way my blood levels are right now. It's just far too risky. Time to slowly decompress my small intestine a far different way than with the aid of a tube.
It's other times, when the universe seemed to line up perfectly for us and we were able to once again be one with the ocean or even feeling a whole lot LUCKY out west in Nevada. I don't regret one single moment. I wouldn't dare change one single thing when going against the grain. 
When your immune system becomes depleted from oncology treatments and countless infections due to lack of a normal immune system. Even sometimes experimental means of alternate therapy might not be the answer. It could also backfire on you. My goal, same as always, was to seek means of alternative ways to bide myself a better quality of life. Not take away from my good days, but to gain a few more good days. I have come to realize, that same with oncology treatments. I am only hurting my health. Not helping my health. For those very same reasons. Same as with trying other treatments that didn't work for me. I have opted to now stop existing treatments due to changes going the opposite direction with my health.
Turned.
chillin'
!
We have only a few weeks left before needing to start our RVing way of life. We also have quite a few pieces of furniture that still needs to be placed for sale online. Even with set-backs, we still must keep UP with the fast pace of life! While I was taking it easy, catching a few zzzzz's and giving my body some rest. Eric was keeping up with text messages and phone calls with regards to items we have listed for sale online. We won't be able to take everything with us this time. That unfortunately even includes storing belongings until we figure out the next step with a new home. Our RV can only hold so much and it already came nicely equipped with everything that we need minus a few odds and ends. There are a few pieces of furniture that I will be keeping, mainly for sentimental reasons. It definitely frustrates me that we have to change our lifestyle once again, but this time due to negligence on the prior owners who sold us such an uninhabitable home by hiding some seriously dangerous foundation issues. I know that anger can only make matters worse, not just with your health, but with your soul. We both refuse to allow the stress and emotions from our newly 5-month old home, that will sit in litigation for up to 2 years, get the best of us. Life is far too short to allow others to get the best of you. I believe in karma and karma can serve up a mighty bad recourse. It might take awhile, but life will soon enough get back to a bit of normalcy. 
I am scheduled to see my specialist tomorrow morning in order to find out his decision with the NJ tube. I am still dealing with the pressure pain and doing my best to not sit around for too long of periods of time. Gravity has to be my best friend right now, even though all I want to do is sleep. At least watching Eric in selling action has been entertaining this afternoon into the early evening hours! Heeheeheehee! The biggest highlight so far when it comes to our online buyers just happens to be a part of a far bigger team. A professional fishing team that was actually just on television earlier this morning. How crazy is that!
Not too crazy, not for us anyways. Hahahaha! One can only imagine the slow down looks and stares from those who were born and raised in our little, lazy, river town. Those who knew exactly what the colorful vehicle meant with the zombie-like fish and many corporate sponsored logos of the fishing pros. Eric sure learned a few things or two about pro fishing while the gentleman stopped by to pick up an item we had for sale online. I may not know much about professional fishing, but by the looks of things. It looks mighty profitable! Fun too! 
Such as with life, things can happen. Things can also happen as they tend to always do, unexpectedly.
Thanks to those who once again, picked up their phones. What I needed was someone to just listen and help direct me in what they felt I should do since I was anything, but wanting to seek emergency care. This is the second time I have been handed a set-back with serious complications, yet I still remain determined to fight without seeking medical help. Let's just say that vomiting every 10 minutes got the best of me. I also started to quickly become dehydrated and my seizures were not getting any better. Either I continue to fight or I officially give up. I once again, chose the latter. Eric becoming an emotional, nervous wreck also played a part in deciding it was time to head up to the hospital. Littleblue also needs her human mommy to be with her during and after surgery. There are reasons to fight and continue fighting the great fight. 
Today we had only anticipated to have an appointment with our prior veterinarian surgeon who performed dental surgery to remove a broken tooth a few years ago. After receiving three different veterinarian opinions, we were then told over the past month that Littleblue's mammary tumor was inoperable due to the size and serious surgical complications. Littleblue has connected respiratory issues which began around the same time that the cancerous growth was found. We were only looking for a better pain medication for Littleblue during today's veterinarian appointment, but sadly were given unfortunate news. 
Littleblue's tumor not only continues growing rapidly and is now the size of a golf ball, but the tumor has now placed us in a no-win dilemma due to the blood vessels quickly becoming enlarged. We thought that we had at least some time on our hands, but now we don't have much time, if very little time before the tumor ruptures and becomes instantly fatal. This is a time when we believe that our appointment with our veterinarian surgeon was just meant to be. Of course, surgery scares the bejeepers out of both of us! The risks involved are 50/50 and that doesn't include if and how fast cancer cells can spread after surgery. We also have the sad risk of respiratory complications that can happen during surgery to our beloved Littleblue, but we now have no choice. There is no time left nor any other options. We are fortunate to have a great veterinarian surgeon and a wonderful surgical staff with state of the art medical equipment at their finger tips. This makes us feel a little better in case Littleblue does suffer from a surgical complication, but still the risks are scarily high! 
happy
VE~
There are so many cute ducklings and baby chickens at our local farm retailer! This is the first year in quite a long time that it actually feels like Easter is upon us! Eric even agreed with me, that if we had lots of land, there would be a few of these cuties coming home with us today. I love animals! First we must ride the legal course with litigation on our home. After all is said and done. I seriously doubt we will ever purchase another home, but instead are looking into buying land. If RV life pans out to be everything that we were told it will be, and we actually really do enjoy it... Then land it will be! 
#SlowWayOfLife