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You know me...
I am one to make sure that when I experience something. I have some UMPF to it!
Especially when it came to my phone literally coming alive on it's very own last night. We decided to visit our cell phone carrier this afternoon. Just to make sure.... There wasn't some sort of possible glitch with my cell phone. Hmmmm?...
When explaining what had happened to the gentleman whom had proudly told us how many years he had been working for the phone carrier. The look on his face was PRICELESS! Hahahaha! "So...
You were laying on the couch and your cell phone was not being used. Then the Google search asked you to repeat your search request, but you were not using your phone?" Yes. I was turned the other way, watching television, ready to go to sleep. "Ummm... Well... You would first need to swipe to the screen to find the Google search bar on it. Then proceed by pressing the microphone icon. If you didn't touch your phone? Ummm... I don't know how it would detect anything without you pressing the microphone icon right here on this screen. Of course, you have to first swipe over to get to this screen on your phone." I wasn't using the phone at the time. It was laying on the head rest part of our couch. "Well...
That's strange. I never heard of this phone manipulating on it's own because in all reality. That's what it did because I had our tech look at your phone and he didn't see anything wrong with it." Wow! Myself and Eric were actually chuckling a bit, but all I could do was thank the gentleman and wish him a blessed afternoon. I wasn't going to go into the full story. The parts of the strange, yet amazing conclude to a very special day, yesterday.
Over the years. Actually... Decades. I have learned that not everyone believes in my gift. You have your believers and then you have those who don't believe. Something's... You can't predict. Like the reactions from the non-believers. Then again... Something's... Like last night. No one can predict. It just happens and pretty much, the same way it always has happened for me since I was young. When least expected, but in the most special way. My gift.
Today was a pretty busy and quite hectic day! We started off this morning with once again, changing days with the RV tech that is now coming out to meet us this coming weekend. Things happen. Life happens. Today was my follow-up appointment to see how things are doing GI speaking. Decompressing takes time, especially when your are lucky enough to be spared a major intestinal blockage. My labs ended up coming back late yesterday afternoon, but my specialist wasn't in office to read them. By the time we went over my labs. Walgreens had already beat my specialist to the medication punch! BAH! Back on another round of medication. At least, two more for the time being. We did go over my labs from the hospital, in which, they weren't the best when it comes to hoping for a far better report. My white blood cell counts and other WBC test levels were super low, off the charts low. Worse than just a few weeks ago. Not good. My lymph levels weren't even registered on the chart. They were way below the already low end of the scale. 9.1L, 0.09L. My Gran levels were also way off, too high. 86.2H, 9.74H. Other lab results also showed changes that were only worse, not better than we could had anticipated. I do my best, to not allow my labs or any other tests to get the best of me. Things can always change. Better or worse. Over the years, I have learned to accept the good with the bad. Sometimes that is all you can do. No need to cry over spilt milk. There are no pity parties, WHOA as me. I am not a victim. HA! That even sounds silly! Stressing out, over what you can not control, doesn't do anyone any good. Especially, YOU.
My next rescan is already in a mere 6 weeks. Until then, I need not worry so much and instead, get out and continue living. Enjoying life to the fullest during my good days! While accepting there will always be the bad days. I don't believe in having expectations. I have changed the way that I look at life.
Wherever the wind takes me...
Is where you will find me...
special
Unfortunately, I knew that I couldn't use the exact same balloon to sent back up to the pillowy white clouds in the sky. Not after losing all of it's helium flying powers when it accidently got stuck, wrapped around the top of the memorial light post along the river trails. What the balloon needed was a bit of assistance from a few other balloons. As I carefully un-taped the birthday message. I noticed what appeared to be another message from someone else written on the back side of the note. Not only was it another birthday message to the special someone in Heaven, but now the special someone had a name. Larry. How ironic could this be?!? Myself and Eric always wondered about the name with so many heartfelt birthday messages that had every intention, to be delivered back home. In Heaven. 
I initially picked a colorful square balloon and a very pretty Happy Birthday balloon with sunflowers. As the young lady was filling the balloons up with helium, I felt drawn to look up towards the ceiling. There it was! Enough helium flying power to reach beyond the clouds! A super-size mylar balloon with the same appropriate message, "Happy Birthday!" Yep, that would be the one! The one balloon that not only assisted the colorful square balloon, but as well the pretty sunflower balloon carrying the very special message. Trust me by saying, that I planned on making double, even TRIPLE sure that this message would not be getting hung up on any light posts or anything else along the way! 
This evening as I tied all three balloons together. I looked for the most perfect location along the river trails in hopes of making sure that Larry's message got sent back up to the skies, way past the clouds, onto it's destination. Back home with a very special birthday message. Heaven. It didn't very take long for all three balloons to quickly disappear among the clouds. In fact, within only a mere five minutes the balloons completely disappeared. To think, that something so wonderful, so rare, a once-in-a-lifetime moment, I was blessed enough to help assist. An evening walk, that led us to a special balloon, in need of assistance. To help resend a very special message to a most very special person. Larry. I don't believe in things like this happening again. Not ever again, because this is a once-in-lifetime moment. Was it meant to be for me? Most definitely! 
As we continued walking along the river trails. I kept looking back, while saying a special prayer to the special balloon carrying a special message to a very special person, Larry. I prayed that the balloon would finally make it to it's very special destination, Heaven. I also prayed that somehow, someway, someone would let me know later down the road of life... That the message on the balloon was finally delivered. 
Heaven.
happy
Everyone, that includes our fur children, got to enjoy a few Easter goodies. Even DaisyMae and SnuggleDoo got to explore their first colored eggs this year. We didn't leave them in the cage for too long, since the chances of them becoming a bit too curious could mean, scrambled eggs and picking up pieces of egg shells. They were too curiously CUTE! 
Snoreo is still in his non-sharing 3's with everyone. Including the kitty gang and Littleblue. So we opted for giving everyone their own special baskets in separate areas of the house. This way there wouldn't be any disagreements on who got the best basket. HAHAHAHA! Less is MORE! That has been our motto and new way of life! This year we scaled back quite a bit with the holidays, but no complaints what so ever. Even with zero disagreements and fighting among each other. Heeheeheehee! 
Myself and Eric also scaled back this year when exchanging homemade Easter baskets. No candy or sugary goodies this year for me from the Easter Bunny. This year was all about comfy colorful socks and a few light material summer short sleeve shirts. PERFECT! Thanks Easter Hubby! Heeheeheehee! Eric on the other hand... Well... I guess the Easter Bunny still had a little bit of a sweet tooth. Hahahahaha! Yep, someone got the goodie basket! Better Eric, than me. 
EASTER!
We had to head up north, way far into the country in order to check on YOLO, our RV. It's been a week since we had a chance, actually a breather, to check and see how she was doing. We also wanted to make sure she did well during last weeks crazy weather. Since YOLO is brand new, she didn't disappoint as far as weathering the storms. Until we are officially all moved into our new little home, YOLO-You Only Live Once, we will be slowly taking a few totes up at time during each visit. Today was more so about making a few changes and add-ons for the upcoming summer months. We had scheduled an RV technician to also come out and fix a few minor things, but there must had been a bit of miscommunication. Instead of this weekend. Looks like the repairs will be completed next week. 
Today was all-around an absolutely BEAUTIFUL and most PERFECT Easter day to enjoy all the sights and sounds of life in the country! In between the rain. We ended up having nothing but beautiful weather and partly cloudy skies with sunshine peaking every so often in between the clouds. PERFECT! There is just something about the country that brings nothing but pure peace for both of us. Peace and quiet in a little hidden country gem! God's country. 
Littleblue continues to amaze us! She is doing so good with her surgical recovery and the stitches are even healing better than we could had ever anticipated! She is most definitely strong and I am so proud of how good she has been, even while being in so much pain. Our beloved fur angels in heaven have definitely been keeping a very close eye on her! There is no other way to explain how lucky we have been. How fortunate we are to have our Littleblue back home, minus the cancerous tumor. Dr. T has played such a huge part in our lives. God is good and so are those whom he has brought into our lives. 
bright
The first red tulip of the season! Spring or summer season? Who knows with temperatures hitting an all-time record here in the country. A mighty warm 87-degrees record! Can we say... A/C time? Sure we can! It's already on!
Another round of medication via outpatient and labs that won't come back until early next week. Not exactly how one envisions starting their Easter weekend, but one still has to keep going! I was never one to let medical hurdles get the best of me, nor stand in my way. I not only never plan on looking sick, but I never plan on looking how I really feel. Internally. Not everyone might feel the same way nor do the same as I do, but that's just me. That is what makes us all so different and unique. I like still looking and feeling... B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. 
EASTER
Me, the early bird is now falling asleep before the clock strikes midnight, while Eric has only been at work for a mere hour. HA! Another sleep schedule instantly thrown off while slowly coming off of various treatment medication. 
While Eric was resting at home with Littleblue. I was already up, walking the trails along the river. Unfortunately, since needing to resort back to nasty GI treatments this week in hopes of a slow decompression. I can't afford to lay around, but instead must continue doing my best to move around, physically. My treadmill is no longer. In fact, the thought of not being able to use it since radiation, not only made me frustrated, but very depressed. I did my best getting back into the swing of things, but with a home continuing to pull and sink. We didn't trust having the treadmill on any part of such unstable floors. My treadmill of many miles, to China and back again, is now enjoying some use from another determined traveler! I sure do miss using my treadmill, but at the same time. I am glad to know it is back in use! Until we are finally back in a home. On a stable and safe foundation. I will be utilizing the great outdoor parks and trails for daily exercise.
Since Eric was at home, keeping a close eye on Littleblue while she continues on the road to recovery. I finally was able to catch up with my dental treatments. Yes, three more unexpected dental treatments. It never seems to end. At last! I was also finally able to pick up my new prosthesis, since the last one caused me to have an allergic reaction due to the type of material that was used. Its been a few weeks, but I can finally get back to smiling again! YAYYY! One dental treatment back down and two more to go.. Thank goodness for changing our dental plan and going up a notch! It most definitely will come in handy this year!
d'oh
Littleblue has been resting over the past 24 hours since her surgery. We are beyond shocked on how well she is doing with such an invasive surgery. She is most definitely just like her human Mommy... A born fighter! 
Littleblue has a long road to recovery, but we plan to do our best to make it as much as a smooth one as possible. With of course, the help of her buddy Snoreo who has been keeping a close eye while she rests through out the day. Myself and Eric already have a game plan in action. When one of us needs to head out, the other stays at home with Littleblue. Today was a low-key day anyways for all of us. GI-treatment day for me while Eric kept a close eye on Littleblue. Talking about fortunate to have made it through surgery! Littleblue most definitely had the Angels on her side. We are most grateful, forever blessed. 
We still plan on keeping up with a few annual Easter traditions this year, such as decorating Easter eggs and exchanging Easter baskets. One is never too old to receive an Easter basket from the Easter Bunny. *WINK-WINK* Even our beloved fur children get a special Easter basket filled with pet-friendly treats! Our holidays might be celebrated a bit differently than most, but we still make sure to celebrate with love, laughter and plenty of reasons to smile! 
THURSDAY photo...
sad
and depressing.
We rushed our beloved Littleblue up to the same animal hospital where she was scheduled for surgery to possibly remove her cancerous mammary tumor early next week. We only did as anyone would in an emergency setting when clearly time is not on your side. For confidential reasons, we only trust a few surgeons at this particular animal hospital. One of the best surgeons that works there just happens to be the same surgeon who was scheduled to do Littleblue's surgery early next week. Unfortunately, he was not scheduled to work during our emergency visit. Instead... The one whom we have the least trust or faith in when it comes to any type of veterinarian care, was scheduled to work. The same veterinarian who trumped the emergency room veterinarian who was assigned to Littleblue during our visit. 
Notoriety doesn't equal experience by any means. 
In one single reply text message. We were told to come up right away! This was at 8:15pm. In less than 40 minutes and a drive back across the Ohio state line. Littleblue received the upmost best, professional, compassionate, kind and experienced care that a beloved fur child could ever possibly receive. In such an urgent necessity to get Littleblue quickly into surgery. Dr. T, once again, came through for us. For our little family. There are not enough words to describe his kindred soul. Dr. T has not only been here for me, helping to direct me during my own medical journey, but he as well has been there for our beloved fur children. I have always believed that the good Lord brings good souls to us. Those who have our best interest, even our fur children's best interest to heart. A 45 year, highly skilled, with the upmost talent, professionalism and passion for all animals, career. God's creatures both big and small. Dr. T's children have followed in his footsteps. Not for the title nor the money, but for a medical career chosen by where their hearts had led them. A well-known Pediatric Cancer Professor and Surgeon. 
SAVED.
rushed
Right back UP again!
Regardless of how I feel. Today must go on! So does having to follow Eric with the moving truck back and forth across three state lines. Indiana, Kentucky, Ohio and then back to Indiana. I guess you can say three state lines and then back across to our current state line. Indiana. Nuts? Stressful? Hectic? OH YES! All three and then some! It took quite a few hours and one extremely achy and irritable me, but we did it! An Army of two after a friend and coworker of Eric's got hit for mandatory overtime. Of all mornings... The morning he was going to help Eric, but it's more than understandably, OK. Life happens and if any two folks know that more than anyone, it's us two folks. Amen. 
Yes, we WILL! 
I have a hunch, that this will end up becoming a three-move-process, all in less than 12 months. The next organized move can only get better or... At least we hope so! Eric said, "It can't get any worse." It actually wasn't that bad for Eric moving all the storage totes by himself. However, he will be receiving help from a few friends when it comes time to move the last little bit and furniture we still currently have left in our house. I am soooo ready to be done with this chapter! The great house hunting adventures mistake. Hahahaha! At least my first home purchase on my very own, RVing, seems to be going extremely well! Even the final walk through only showed a mere 3 minor repairs. We still have an outlet to be rechecked and part of a screen to be repaired. Otherwise, we are all set and only need a few of our belongings still brought to our next new home and NEW way of living.
WOO~HOO!
Delays.
After far too much IV medication. I was scheduled for another outpatient round again this morning due to lack of still being able to get the vomiting under control. My blood work didn't help matters. Especially when my immune system should be making even a teeny, tiny sort of some type of change in the right direction. Instead... It took another nose-dive. In the wrong direction. Another early morning assisted walk through the hospital halls in hopes of finding answers instead of continuing to spin the ole wheels. This morning my specialists made their decision against any type of temporary tube due to obvious factors with lack of an immune system and the far too high risk of developing an infection that my body would not be able to fight off. Not with the way my blood levels are right now. It's just far too risky. Time to slowly decompress my small intestine a far different way than with the aid of a tube.
It's other times, when the universe seemed to line up perfectly for us and we were able to once again be one with the ocean or even feeling a whole lot LUCKY out west in Nevada. I don't regret one single moment. I wouldn't dare change one single thing when going against the grain. 
When your immune system becomes depleted from oncology treatments and countless infections due to lack of a normal immune system. Even sometimes experimental means of alternate therapy might not be the answer. It could also backfire on you. My goal, same as always, was to seek means of alternative ways to bide myself a better quality of life. Not take away from my good days, but to gain a few more good days. I have come to realize, that same with oncology treatments. I am only hurting my health. Not helping my health. For those very same reasons. Same as with trying other treatments that didn't work for me. I have opted to now stop existing treatments due to changes going the opposite direction with my health.
Turned.