Mood:
chillin'Now Playing: Day 2651-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)
We had everything planned accordingly for this weekend. With very limited time, we still have a lot left to do before moving onto our next adventure.
Our new way of life... 
RVing~
Such as with life, things can happen. Things can also happen as they tend to always do, unexpectedly.
I have been doing fairly well with my new treatments in hopes of rebuilding an immune system that unfortunately became quickly depleted after radiation and ongoing infections. Allergy shots are suppose to help counteract the many side effects with treatment, but as I learned today. Nothing is a guarantee.
When I think of allergic reactions. I assume that one would experience a rash, hives or something along that nature. That is how I generally respond to an allergic reaction, but this evening into the early morning hours things were quite different. I am not used to having upper pain, vomiting, seizures, shortness of breathe and overall, feeling out of it happen in such a short amount of time. I also began feeling very toxic. My goal this year was to stay as far away from emergency care as possible. Sure, I still go for treatments, but they are provided as well allergy shots via outpatient. With Littleblue not feeling well and her surgery right around the corner on top of needing to finish everything with our move. The last thing I need is any type of set-back. Then again, one should already be used to expecting the unexpected.
A little set-back...
Thanks to those who once again, picked up their phones. What I needed was someone to just listen and help direct me in what they felt I should do since I was anything, but wanting to seek emergency care. This is the second time I have been handed a set-back with serious complications, yet I still remain determined to fight without seeking medical help. Let's just say that vomiting every 10 minutes got the best of me. I also started to quickly become dehydrated and my seizures were not getting any better. Either I continue to fight or I officially give up. I once again, chose the latter. Eric becoming an emotional, nervous wreck also played a part in deciding it was time to head up to the hospital. Littleblue also needs her human mommy to be with her during and after surgery. There are reasons to fight and continue fighting the great fight.
Anyone who has undergone radiation near or below the abdominal area can understand how quickly scar tissue can form. We were told by my oncologists that post-radiation scar tissue can actually be worse than post-surgical scar tissue. I expected it only to be an allergic reaction to one of the treatment drugs I have been taking, but instead there are a few issues going on that has thrown me for another set-back. I refuse to take pain medication, due to not wanting to be someone that gets addicted. The thought alone scares the heck out of me enough that I refuse to take pain medication. I have even backed off a bit from the little magic pill, Marinol, but mainly due it not providing much relief. As things have progressed, even getting relief from Marinol has been limited. Not taking pain medication can cause seizures as my pain tolerance has now become extremely high! The brain is very much in tune when the body is experiencing pain. There is a connection with pain and seizures as we learned a great deal in the hospital today.
I had my first major scan in almost a year due to the emergency room physicians not sure if something else was going on after a second visit since the vomiting only had gotten worse. It seemed we treated one problem, but clearly there was something else they were missing. This tends to be the norm, which is why I dread hospitals. Especially, the emergency room. Sure enough, I am once again dealing with blockage issues. This time with my small intestine. This is first time however, that they wanted to do a NJ tube, but my specialist wants to make that decision and give my body time to see if we will need to still go that route to help decompress things. It took a lot of medication through an IV, but I remain determined to pull another odds in my favor. To me, this is just another small set-back. I will prevail, but it will take a little bit longer this time. I didn't ask about the procedure for the NJ tube. I figure that I will cross that bridge when the time comes. I tend to not allow myself to think too far ahead anymore, because anything is possible. Even when tests might show otherwise.
So... I decided to ride this out again, let my specialists decide what is best for me. Even if it means changing things up a bit. NJ tube? I have my opinions, but if it's for my best, then the best it will be. Temporarily.
Life goes on... Tomorrow is another chance. Another beautiful day here in the country... 
sad
Today we had only anticipated to have an appointment with our prior veterinarian surgeon who performed dental surgery to remove a broken tooth a few years ago. After receiving three different veterinarian opinions, we were then told over the past month that Littleblue's mammary tumor was inoperable due to the size and serious surgical complications. Littleblue has connected respiratory issues which began around the same time that the cancerous growth was found. We were only looking for a better pain medication for Littleblue during today's veterinarian appointment, but sadly were given unfortunate news. 
Littleblue's tumor not only continues growing rapidly and is now the size of a golf ball, but the tumor has now placed us in a no-win dilemma due to the blood vessels quickly becoming enlarged. We thought that we had at least some time on our hands, but now we don't have much time, if very little time before the tumor ruptures and becomes instantly fatal. This is a time when we believe that our appointment with our veterinarian surgeon was just meant to be. Of course, surgery scares the bejeepers out of both of us! The risks involved are 50/50 and that doesn't include if and how fast cancer cells can spread after surgery. We also have the sad risk of respiratory complications that can happen during surgery to our beloved Littleblue, but we now have no choice. There is no time left nor any other options. We are fortunate to have a great veterinarian surgeon and a wonderful surgical staff with state of the art medical equipment at their finger tips. This makes us feel a little better in case Littleblue does suffer from a surgical complication, but still the risks are scarily high! 
happy
VE~
There are so many cute ducklings and baby chickens at our local farm retailer! This is the first year in quite a long time that it actually feels like Easter is upon us! Eric even agreed with me, that if we had lots of land, there would be a few of these cuties coming home with us today. I love animals! First we must ride the legal course with litigation on our home. After all is said and done. I seriously doubt we will ever purchase another home, but instead are looking into buying land. If RV life pans out to be everything that we were told it will be, and we actually really do enjoy it... Then land it will be! 
#SlowWayOfLife 
sharp
We still have lingering issues going on with our RV sale. More so due to Camping World initially pulling a fast one on us and selling us the wrong RV. That meant having to redo all of the paperwork and needing to recheck everything. Some may call it the ole, "Bait & 
Switch." I call it, just poor professionalism by the General Manager. Not the sales person, since most of what happened was clearly out of his hands. Literally. The rest? We are leaving it in corporates hands since we have enough to worry about with finishing up vacating our 5-month old new home which continues to sink. The second litigation will begin soon enough! The quicker things can get settled. The faster everything can be overturned and Eric's VA benefits will be reinstated. Everything else, legally, could take 1-2 years before settling out or... going to trial which would be a bad thing on those involved in the fraudulent sale of a very unstable, uninhabitable and unsafe home. 
There will be aspects with the legal process, in which, I can not be an active party since the mortgage loan is solely in Eric's name using VA benefits. The first time he used his veteran benefits which turned out to be the worst experience possible for him. The entire situation is not only sad, but has been extremely stressful. I can only hope and pray that justice will be served accordingly to all parties involved. It might be a year or possibly even two years, but all good things to those who wait. Patience is a virtue! 
plays on...
At least we woke up on a funny note! A BEARY funny note as Beary kitty did her very best to appear as if she was literally inside Miss DaisyMae & SnugglyDoo's cage. Heeheeheehee! It wasn't just me who was fooled into thinking she somehow got into the cage. Eric freaked out! All I heard was, "OMG!" Hahahahaha! Sometimes, a picture really does say it all! Hahahahaha! 
zzz's...
celebratory
My anxiety did spike once we entered the event center since I am not really used to crowds. Not anymore. I have a huge fear of large crowds and even worse, being stuck right smack in the middle of one! The concession stand lines were no better after taking 30 minutes just to make 
it to the front of the line. The bathrooms were even worse, but it didn't have anything to do with the band, but instead the coordination, or lack of, with the event center staff and personnel. We personally would never attend another concert at the Ford Event Center, but then again, I figured this would be my last concert. Mainly due to medical reasons and the huge effort it takes to coordinate and pull off such a huge feat! Personally, I am beyond proud of how well I not only handled the drive, but as well dealing with taking a slue of medication through out the entire day. Physically, I asked a lot from my tired body, but I made it! 
YAYYYYY!!! 
Talking about so many reasons to celebrate! So many reasons to celebrate life and all of the ups and downs that we both have endured... Together. There is no other human being on this planet that I would had enjoyed this journey with more, than my one and only best friend, comedic side kick, confidant, spontaneous jokester, up for anything... Hubby
We just... Click! We not only sang our way to the concert, but as well laughed at quite a few happy and quite memorable moments that we have shared over the years. I was determined as ever to make it to the concert! If it wasn't for Eric continuing to cheer me on and always letting me know, "You got this!" I doubt that I would had pushed myself so hard. I can't begin to describe the feeling of truly having someone there for you. Having a soul mate and best friend there to lift you up when you feel at your most absolute worst. In such a short amount of time, we have endured a lifetime of struggles and an abundance of pain. Guess what? Here we are! 
We made it through the JOURNEY! The next chapter can only get better from here! AMEN!
JOURNEY~
EXCITED!
EXCITED! A bit nervous too!
A time to celebrate life with another new journey. This time it was the once-in-a-lifetime musical kind of journey!
Thanks to Ben and Kyle for providing the first of many important must-haves in order to make our journey as comfortable as can be out on the open road. This Yukon was not only spacious and quite roomy, but it also had really nice 
heated seats and every kind of optional feature one could ever want or find in an SUV. I thought the expedition that our insurance company reserved for us to use while our car was getting repaired was nice, but this Yukon is actually a lot nicer! I can't begin to explain how much more comfortable the ride was while sitting for a little over 3-hours up and 3-hours back since we had to do a same-day trip for medical reasons. I also have to make sure not to push things beyond my physical limit since I am still going through immunotherapy treatments. 
JOURNEY!!!
You know... By the looks of things... This gal could really get to liking this new way of life. Hmmmmm... The great outdoors with lots of wildlife, plenty of nature, open land, fresh air and well earned peace & quiet! This is only our third time to the site. Once we hit the open country road, it's also yawn time! Hahahahaha! There is just something about the country and living the country lifestyle that makes one feel about as relaxed and at peace as one can possible get! We thought our little, lazy, river town was peaceful. We thought we were living out in the country, but when you compare it to our new site where our new home will reside... THIS is COUNTRY! God's country!
We overheard one person at the local gas station make a comment about how living out here is like living in a ghost town. Well... You know... I like the idea of living in a ghost town! Where is my equipment? I might be needing it sooner than I had anticipated! Heeheeheehee! No worries, it was an out-of-towner complaining. That's what those who live out here in the country say about city folk. Shhhhh~ We won't tell them, not just yet, that we used to be city folk. Heeheeheeheehee!
Hmmmm?...
Not only did the voicemail sound concerning, but so was the fact that the finance manager was calling me at 8pm. After catching some serious zzzzz's... I woke up around 3am with a gut feeling to look at all of my paperwork for YOLO (you only live once-RV name). Eric mentioned a few times, during closing, that it didn't seem like they pulled the right RV. Even the numbers didn't seem the same as our original sales contract. Mind you, there was another very similar RV, same make and model, next to the one we picked out. Surely, they didn't sell us the wrong RV? Or... Did they?
If it wasn't for another visit from the engineer this morning and the chimney company handing us more bad news with our lemonade home. I would had probably walked, but we don't have that option right now. Not in this situation, where time is clearly of the essence in needing to quickly vacate before the house kills all of us. 30 minutes later... I called our very apologetic sales person and he quickly expedited things on their end at the dealership! I can't say the same for the General Manager who didn't even have a bit of common courtesy to apologize for such a huge mess on their end. Unprofessionalism and arrogance with regards to any business error will get you absolutely no where. As with any company, there is always room for success and there will always be room for growth. No one is perfect and same holds true for any type of business. Customer service is always #1 for any successful company. Clearly, customer service isn't for this General Manager, but thank goodness for his sales person. Needless to say, maybe the General Manager can learn a thing or two from his sales person. As for YOLO? We decided to keep her and all of her imperfection dealership mishaps and mix-ups. Our original RV choice, Big Bertha, will remain on the dealership lot. 