Mood:
brightNow Playing: Day 2577-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)
What an AMAZING
weekend!
There are so many things going on behind the scenes, just as with life, some good and some bad. No parent should ever tell their children or adult children how they should or should not feel. It's not only wrong to not allow people the right to go through emotions, but as well, it is downright unhealthy. I don't take things that have transpired over the past 5 years very lightly nor should anyone assume, that we don't take it very seriously.
Over this past year, we have bravely put on warrior masks during cancer treatments, other treatments and more surgical procedures that we could had ever imagined in one single year. To set the facts straight with one particular cousin named, Tammy and a few others. We had to remove ourselves from some blood members for almost a year, due to not by our choice, but per the advice of a team of specialists and oncologists who insisted that family stress, if continued, could not only cause a major delay in post-treatment recovery, but could as well, be fatal when it comes to your health. There are times when we caught holy hell from blood members, for stories that were not about them, although they assumed, but instead from other readers, those like you, who choose to be anonymous and now, a publishing company who is proud of their dedicated blogger. A writer who has a passion in writing. This blog will live on with the help of a very reputable publishing company.
There are permalink readers, that have shared their stories with us over the years. We have used more stories that we can count and for those kind, compassionate, brave souls. Our hearts go out to you. It takes a strong person, a hell of a strong person to be OK with their feelings and emotions. For those who are braver than you will ever know... WE thank YOU! XOXOXOXO
To those over this past year, that put their necks on the chopping block, because they cared, those who put their own relationships with family members on the line, because they did not agree. Even those whom never understood how families can keep the next generation from having the opportunity to know their families. What you have reached out over this past year, to let us know, has never fell on deaf ears. To read about, see and look at photos of events that even little E, our son, was not included, is not only sad, but disturbing.
We may not like the emails we read, to see all the photos and other information that goes along with more than 100+ emails, but it is a must. For both of us. We must come to terms with everything. Through struggles, we have learned a lot. We have gained a lot. We appreciate the little things in life so much more!
I am a far more wiser person for the lessons learned.
For those who tell their blood relatives or adult children what they can or can not say. What they can or can not feel. To those who told us this week and told others how this blog is so negative, among other things, do yourself a favor. Especially do a huge favor for those who contribute to this blog. Those who also enjoy this blog and actually look forward to reading it. Do new permalink readers a favor, those waiting to sign up. Remove yourself from this blog and all links attached. If you don't like what you are reading, then why read it? It's that easy. Don't read the blog.
We plan on reading every single email this week, look at every single photo from what we were excluded from over this past year. All 100+ emails. Some even, years prior to this past year. We both plan on allowing ourselves the much needed closure to permanently move on... There are so many amazing, compassionate, kind hearted, good folks in this world. We refuse to here on out, allow great and amazing future friends and framily (friends who are family) for life, slip through our hands.
It's finally time to make peace with what is, what used to be, and those whom will never be again...
The choice is ours for the taking. Out with the negative! In with the positive!
Time to be truly and genuinely HAPPY
~H.B.D
happy
Instead of another dreary, rainy day. Mother Nature decided to give us a little taste of spring! Lots of sunshine during the morning and afternoon hours, following quickly by overcast skies for the evening. 
LOVE~LOVE~LOVE
cheeky
We have, however, come across some very interesting findings. Thanks to those who have also weighed into the great lemonade house mystery, those whom have recently given us some friendly advice based off of many years of experience. Professional experience. 
Per told by Geo Engineers who are also working on a local Walmart store, a mere 1 minute drive from our home, which is also sinking. "I would not suggest buying a home in the city which you currently reside because the ground is not stable." Too bad we weren't warned this ahead of 
time, same as not knowing a year prior, local counselor and the city mayor approved the Duke Energy tree slashing proposal. Like... sometime before closing would had been nice to know everything. Who would had thought to check on the soil and city property soil report, before purchasing a home? Not I. This entire experience has been some what, positive. I have learned a great deal about a huge array of topics that I would had never, prior to purchasing a home, would had ever dreamed about learning.
competition!
Years ago... A dear friend of mine used to take turns with me playing the game called, "Silly Selfies." We used to make it a competition on who could create the silliest, funniest, unique and sometimes, even the most fierce selfie! Of course, we would start our competition during the most random times. Heeheeheehee!
The object is to see who can create the best selfies, whether they are silly, serious, obnoxious, down right ridiculous and of course, the most FIERCE! Hahahahaha... We take our selfies very seriously! 
Hahahahaha! 
Me and Eric have our own silly selfie competitions during the week. We also like to see who can create the best lyrics regarding the days events, while throwing in random dance moves. BAH! I usually win on the lyrics part, while Eric is still the winner with his creative dancing. Although, sometimes I am not sure if he just threw out his back, or is actually busting out another new dance move?. HAHAHAHAHA! Life need not always be so serious, nor taken so seriously. Bust a selfie or two! Who cares what people will think, everyone has taken a selfie at some point in their lives. I believe that some folks used to call them polaroid's back in the day. Not selfies, as they are called in the present time. 
I am certainly no Kim Kardashian when it comes to taking selfies, but for someone battling a nonstop, internal war within. I pride myself on cleaning up MARVELOUSLY! 
on what I will look like during next weeks round of...
WINK*
HAHAHAHA!
It was an exciting, yet great idea for the perfect, not yet thought of, vacating a dangerous home opportunity. Unfortunately, it was a no-go, since there are no year round places that offer water connections in the winter. Who wants to spend more unnecessary money, buying a home on wheels and you can't find a place to park it? A great idea quickly went all downhill from there... Back to the drawing board...
Another problem we have been running into, is most home rental properties are now owned and managed by huge corporations. Private owned properties are becoming few and far between. One out of every 50 rentals, are now owned by large corporations. A mere, home rental Monopoly. Not only do they charge you, per person in the household, application fee, but as well make it virtually impossible to be approved. We only did one round of applications, with one large company, only to find out that Snoreo was not accepted because he is part German Shepherd. BAH! They accept mixed breed dogs, but not if they are part German Shepherd. Not only ridiculous, but a waste of application fee $$ and valuable time that I do not have to waste in the first place. We did rent from a private owner prior to purchasing our doomed home, but once we went under contract, we gave our 60 day vacate notice to the owner. For some reason, there are family members who are stating we got evicted, which is down right silly! We have the letter stating we gave our 60 day notice, yet, once again we find ourselves defending such a silly, ridiculous assumption. All because Snoreo was not approved. Not because of any eviction, because we never got evicted, we gave a 60 day notice after going under contract. Nothing more annoying than folks causing more unnecessary stress. Especially, when we have enough going on and far more important things to worry about, like... Finding a safe home while our doomed home sits in litigation. AMEN. 
chillin'
This is the same infection that I picked up back in June, 2016. During radiation treatments. Yes, I am still battling the same infection, as well two other infections, all at the same time. E Coli has once again, showed up on labs and that within itself, has my entire treating team of specialists very concerned. The constant infections have also began working their way to other good organs. Organs that were not affected by radiation causing good and also bad cells, continue to scramble. Not only are my kidneys in danger, but now labs are showing early stages of cells within the bladder. Not good. 
100.
sad
and very grim reminder with regards to our doomed purchased property that began day 1. 
So much for peace, quiet and enjoying nature. This is what we were left with after a mere two hours of Duke Energy Indiana and the local mayor approving a project. One year ago, in which, we were never informed. 
This is what makes me sick. Not cancer, nor illness, but the complete devastation of trees, birds and other wildlife that I once enjoyed. It's a shame that humans are the ones who destroy the most. Absolutely heartbreaking!. 
Sad, disappointing and beyond depressing day. 
sharp
Yep, all part of the internal war within continuing it's downhill spiral. I can no longer mentally fight the physical need of some serious sleep! I am also on my umpteen round of some pretty, down right, vicious medication. Another round of labs and cultures are also waiting to come back, after another round had to be taken a few days ago. Another rebound, antibiotic resistant infection. This is what happens when the body begins to break down. Dental work? That no longer is holding up after taking an entire year, last year, in order to complete. My dental team and oral surgeon were hoping that the dental repairs would last, however, they didn't, as they too are failing. Somehow, in the middle of everything, including one very physically tired body. I have to find the time this week for another round of dental work. Again. 
MEAL!
While the world is warming and winters are now more like, springtime. Our house of lemons continues to sink and crumble. We have gotten so desperate, that even duct tape and rubber sealant in a can, seems like a temporary good idea. Temporary, is the key word! It could also be a minimum 3-day temporary fix with a home that is anything, but remaining stable on a continuously, shifting foundation. Will this home ever resell in the future or find itself being fully repaired? Per Geo engineer today... Not likely. It's a shame if you think about it, but more so a shame of such deceit by a group of mere liars. Did I ever mention, how much I despise those who lie? Especially, when lying could literally cause mortality to an entire family. Need I say more? Nah! I think I have more than once, gotten my point across. Well... There is always church for the entire involved party. A chance to make right with God. 
Don't ever be afraid to bring a tool box with you during the first initial walk through, or even during the final 2, before closing. Don't be afraid to lift that huge piece of art work on the wall. Don't be afraid to move the dresser that seems to be oddly placed or even wall border that looks fairly new. Just run your fingers across the border, let your hands do the talking! I also suggest removing one vent, in order to see what's inside the ducts and what you could potentially end up breathing. Bring a flashlight with you, for homes like this one, where they recently repainted with dark colors in order to further conceal problems. Flush the toilets, turn on the water, look for Drano bottles, open the cabinets. Heck! Just go ALL OUT! Heeheeheehee... You may look nuts to the realtor, but isn't looking nuts far better than dealing with a bunch of nuts when you end up buying a house that was anything, but true to the sellers disclosure?.. There are things that even your inspector will most likely, not do during inspection. There are far more things with a VA loan, that VA appraisers will not do for the bank. 
Just some good ole friendly advice we would like to pass on to others. Those who are getting ready to search for their new home during the upcoming home buying season... 
~3 years young! 
We still have yet to find any temporary rental in order to catch a break from this nightmare. For starters, the prices of rental homes are beyond ridiculous! You could take out a $250,000 mortgage for the price of what a rental home costs you in this day and age. Add all utilities onto the actual rental price, deposits, pet deposits and additional per pet monthly fees. It's absolutely nuts! We certainly did not ask for this entire mess, but then again, we really don't have much of a choice right now. Last week was a rude awakening on how frightening this house, that is ready to crumble, can really be when a huge storm system is right on top of you. The sounds coming from the foundation are no better. Especially at night. 
Those who had a hand in causing our little family such a nightmare and think it's OK? I am here to say, it most certainly is NOT OK. I'm not dead yet. Medically, I have continued beating the odds. Lately, it hasn't been looking very good nor in my favor, but I am still here. I am still alive. I will continue to fight in order to live to see another day. If it means taking extreme measures in order to have some sort of safe roof over our head? Then so be it. 
Today was another grim reminder of the uphill battle that I continue to face. Another round of antibiotics, once again, failed after just less than a week. It only takes a mere 48 hours before the rebound infections come back in full force. It only takes a mere 24 hours before the physical toll begins to hit me, all over again... Today was another grim reminder. Another antibiotic resistant infection, rearing it's ugly head and a team of doctors trying to figure out what to do next . It was another grim reminder as well of what radiation can do to not only it's target area, but as well, your good organs. Your overall immune system. 
