Today folks... TODAY was a GOOD day!

They say that fear can really get the best of you. That is... if you let it.

Last night I decided to face one of my biggest fears as I began the next course of treatments in hopes of beginning to reach up and grasp the top of this Mammoth size Mountain that I still must successfully climb! One hand slowly grasping the peak as I begin attempting to manage my way back over to the other side. The safe side.

I fear the really strong stuff as far as prescription drugs. The medications that have brought me nothing but really bad side effects in the past. I do not do well with steroids. I never did well with Prednisone. But after getting to this point of nothing else that has yet to work... it is a fear that I needed to conquer as I began my first dose late last night. 

Fear really only exists in the mind. Some would even say... it's really all about mind over matter. 

This afternoon, I had already began to experience the first of many not-so-great side effects that come with a high dose course of Prednisone. I feel jumpy, edgy, sweaty and WIDE AWAKE! This should make for a perfect evening to be one with the owls! Hahahahaha! God help me when it comes to the upcoming cravings of all sorts of foods! Yep... been there one other time in my lifetime with this drug. Who knows if it will hit me the same way?. But one thing is for certain... the only cravings I will be able to consume are still solely the liquid kind. 

BRING ON THE HOT CHOCOLATE WITH LOTS OF PEPPERMINT!

Since yesterday was one of my worst days yet... the hospital had to reschedule me for testing tomorrow and finally have the cardiology team put my monitor on. This will allow my Critical Care specialists to keep a 24-hour, close eye on how my heart is responding to everything. Tomorrow will be the first round of nuclear tests for my lungs and to see how much pressure the largest ovarian tumor is placing on my organs. If it weren't for already maxing out our out-of-pocket insurance deductible for this new year. I most likely would not be able to move forward with such extensive and quite costly testing. But God willing... when there is a will... he will provide a way. 

Life is just far too short to take yourself so seriously.

Life is far too short not to always find a reason to laugh and smile each and every day!

This... I know.