Can you believe that the OB-original blog has reached 3,000 blog posts today?!.
Talking about some serious dedication! I would had never anticipated in my wildest dreams to actually be sitting here typing out blog post #3,000!
You know what is even more surprising and quite inspiring? The realism of just how much I have grown over the years. The reality of how much I have gone through over the years... yet here I am still GOING and GROWING stronger than ever before!
For anyone who is an avid, daily blogger or Podcaster on the worldwide web.... only you can truly appreciate and understand all the hard work and endless hours that go into writing a blog or posting a Podcast on a daily basis. Most only post on an every-other-day or even some a weekly basis. I have followed those over the years that have started off putting in all the hard work... yet somehow they lost sight, interest or just neglected the time it takes to follow through on such a life changing, life altering way to share your journey with the world.
As for myself... I have nothing but extremely high expectations for myself and that goes for pretty much everything in my life. I have always given everything in my life 110%! That includes the countless hours and more than what I would like to express in frustrations when the original blog software went crashing time and time and time again. The only reason for the time and time again website crashes has now made me view it far differently! I now view the frustrations as a proud moment! That is because the software can not keep up with the high demands from almost 2 million permalink readers.
You know... I not only see the world far more differently now while typing out blog post #3,000. But I also view folks much more differently now than years ago when I first started the original blog. I don't believe in the saying that time heals all wounds. Instead... I believe that time makes you realize that some people, some situations and some unnecessary conflict no longer needs your time, your energy and your undivided attention. I will be the first to admit going back through the blog and reading some posts that really made me upset with myself. Spending far too much valuable time on those who didn't deserve my time. What really made me even harder on myself was watching me waste the same time, attention and energy on the same folks when I really needed to conserve that time for myself while enduring maximum course treatments of radiation therapy and other oncology treatments. Those same blood connections as well had plenty of time to dish out unnecessary conflict on both sides. Yet... they should had instead put that energy towards being present as a group to offer support during treatments. The time when myself and even Eric needed them the most. It wasn't just one side... it was both absent sides. I was handed the same old excuses that they did not know what hospital the radiation therapy treatments were being performed. However, all would agree on how many photos that were on the blog posts day after day as we walked through the same hospital with the same big ole sign that read, "Jewish Hospital." Even stranger is that a parent had the same radiation oncologist, yet deliberately never bothered to call or even show up during early morning radiation therapy treatments. Ironically, months prior to realizing my own cancer demise... I was ever present that morning for all the same blood connections during that parents surgery for a promising cancer cure. But you know what I have learned through the art of blogging? It's okay and perfectly normal to express how you feel. And it's okay to be upset with lack of support when support was more than needed from both sides. Hey folks! You were not born in a factory as some mere robots! It's more than perfectly OKAY to have emotions and express them in the best way you know how! It's called being... human.
3,000 blog posts later... I am BEYOND PROUD of my many changes...
I have grown, evolved and learned a great deal of life lessons. Some good and a whole lot of really bad life lessons. I have mastered the art of gaining more wisdom than most will ever gain in an entire lifetime. I have also gained back the self-respect that I now demand from others. I am no longer that weak individual that you may feel you can attempt to once again walk on, although, I tend to believe that she was just far too sick and tired to stand up for herself against conflict among blood connections.
As I sit here and type blog post #3,000... I have come to realize what truly matters in life... what is most important. It isn't just myself who has learned a great deal of life lessons through out the timeline of blogging on a daily basis. Eric has really learned a great deal about himself. It hasn't always been good, but what makes this blog great is realizing that he is now adult enough to own up to his mistakes. We have both mastered the art of forgiveness, yet at the same time, also demanding apologizes when apologies are owed. That's how you allow the healing process to begin and end by coming to realization of hurt. Giving yourself closure by any and all means. I will be the first to be the far bigger adult among mirrored reflective images of blood individuals to sit down and talk when any issues arise. But the far greater lesson I have learned through this is all the wasted time that can't be returned when you waste all your energy on adults that lack simple communication skills.
There is clearly something to be said about any individual who runs to hide behind an attorney or judge, sharing personal matters that are no place to be addressed inside of a court room, instead of sitting down as an adult to communicate and work through your problems. Through my own personal experiences... you can not change people nor can you make adults grow up. Some adults may present their age as an adult, but yet their lack of the art of communication says far differently. What happened way back in the day when attorneys didn't exist? Wait... I know! Folks sat down and worked out their problems, communicating among one another until they reached a resolution. The way problems should be handled now as adults in this current day and age.
I have learned so much about myself over the past 3,000 blog posts. But most importantly... I have learned far more about others. I have watched and learned by the actions of others whom I vow to myself to never act like nor become in this lifetime. I have watched adults by age act more like underage children. I have seen children act like adults more than the adults that are raising them.
In all actuality... I could go on and on and on and on about everything I have learned in the past 3,000 blog posts. But at the end of the day and at the end of this blog... I have zero regrets. If it weren't for having the voice to express myself and the tenacity to stick up for myself. I wouldn't continue on this life journey being the strong willed woman that I am today.
What I have learned the most as I type out the final words of blog post #3,000 is that you should never fear being the radiant bright soul that has real emotions and isn't afraid to show them to the world! Never be afraid and never be told to dim your bright light that has so much compassion, love and strength to show to others in this world!
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Yes! That's right! Those emotions are your BADASS SUPERPOWERS!
You there! YOU are B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L and never let anyone ever tell you otherwise because those folks are just jealous of your true self.... your undeniable BEAUTY!
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