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Now Playing: Day 2932-Chapter 3... Happiness~My Silver Lining
Good lord! So much going on all at once. Where do I begin? I know...just b-r-e-a-t-h-e woman!
B-r-e-a-t-h-e~
There are some parts of my life, that I am still questioning on what should remain private and what shouldn't remain private. When is being brutally honest a bit... too brutally honest?
My relationship with my spouse. Far from perfect. Although... there really is no such thing as any type of perfect relationship. Not of this world. But there have been times where Eric has really blown my trust to all hell and back. Once... beyond the boundaries of trust. I believe in change. I believe that when anyone messes up and really hurts someone to the core. They have the power to do just that... change.
Yet, for over 2 year now. I am still waiting for that change from something that happened which really blew my trust. I am not so sure where the boundaries of privacy should begin and end. So for now... I will just leave things where they are between us. Ultimatums and healthy boundaries that any one would place on any type of relationship when you find yourself with broken trust. At the end of the day. Nothing is worth rehashing a billion times over when expecting some type of change. At the end of the day... when you screw up and screw up royally. Own up to your mistakes and do what it takes to change for the better.
Like I have always said time and time again... WE all can strive to be a better version of ourselves today. Than we were just yesterday or the day before or the week before or even the year before.
As far as Eric's ginormous screw up and not owning up by taking the necessary steps to change. Could... have dire consequences. We will be sitting down and having a very long heart-to-heart within the next few days. There are three ways things will either play out. There are certain things that I will no longer tolerate with anyone. Including my own spouse. I am not here to change anyone. You should want to make changes within yourself. Not because someone has to bring it to your attention. I am not anyone's parent, except for my fur children. That means I refuse to have to act like a parent, instead of a spouse. I refuse to have to constantly remind anyone to do basic, common duties when owning a home or actually with any normal adult daily chores, responsibilities, etc. Lastly, when you screw up, as an adult. When you royally screw up as a spouse or in any other type of relationship. It is your responsibility to own up and make the necessary changes to earn back the trust that has been broken. If you truly love and care about someone that you have hurt. You will take all the necessary measures to make things right. Acknowledge and then own up to your mistake(s). It shouldn't take years to do so.
This is a new year. A new chance to get it right. I refuse to settle for anything nor anyone. Life is far too short to be anything, but happy!
#Self~LOVE #Self~RESPECT