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sharpNow Playing: Day 2787-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)
Gosh darn blessed!
4am...cold sweats, head pain and far too low body temperature.
This not only went on into the early morning hours. But as well followed us across state lines. Into the hospital back in Ohio.
About the only time you will catch this gal crossing state lines into the land of O-hell-io. There is nothing very positive back in Ohio. But a whole lot of negative. A past that I intend to keep in the past, back in the state of Ohio.
This gal has moved onto a new and far more happier way of life in our new home state...Indiana. Of course, my team of specialists still reside back across state lines in Ohio. So do the hospitals where they practice. Also back in Ohio. I cringe at the thought of once again having to cross state lines. Yet, find a huge sense of relief when heading back home. To our new home here in Indiana. That same bad energy state of Ohio still seems to somehow find a way to drain me emotionally. A very bad past 5+ years still resides in that state. We don't plan nor ever intend on moving back. So it's not any surprise that I went into another head-to-head, highly confrontational and most definitely toxic battle with absent family. It's no wonder that I couldn't even walk into this mornings scheduled testing at the hospital...successfully. Testing that should had followed up with a very important surgery. Two weeks in the making.
One would think that this gal should know better to continue battling with the same group of absent individuals whom most definitely do not have my best interest at heart. That also includes my health. Their stress can kill me. Literally. Medical records from as young as an infant. Show a pattern of not following through with specialty care. This isn't the first time to be brought to my attention. During my disability hearing, it was brought up by state attorneys within the first few minutes of my hearing. Some of this mornings 'new' records even took Eric by surprise. A means to an end for my team of oncologists in finding every single last medical history puzzle piece. Medical records don't lie. Although today...I sure wish they did as once again I find myself extremely disappointed with regards to past medical history of handling my health care. Once again being told, "Things like this don't just happen with ones health. Things like this progress over time. It starts as a young child. In your case. An infant. Following up with proper specialty care is crucial as a very sick child. It can make all the difference in the world."
So... I didn't pass the mandatory body temperature of 97.5 this morning. But thankfully I have a very understanding lead oncologist whom rescheduled everything, once again, pushed back another week.
After crossing back into our home state of Indiana. Right back to a nice, warm couch waiting for me....Thanks to Mittens and Beary kitty. Eric went to pick up another round of medication for what will hopefully be the last due to finally getting testing out of the way. Onto a very important surgery next week! We were told that time is of the essence. "We can't keep rescheduling when things are at the point where they are with your health."
Either I start putting those who do not serve me well in my past. Permanently. Or I allow them to dig my own grave for me.
The choice is mine.
And solely mine...for the taking.
bright
If you didn't have special glasses to watch this incredibly magical moment as the sun and moon dazzled even the youngest of viewing crowds. You were either S-O-L or in need of an ophthalmologist appointment within the next few days! Heeheeheeheehee! I am not so sure of the old wives tales about instantly becoming blind while looking up at the eclipse. But we must admit. It sure was super bright! Most definitely something to see with the proper glasses! A last second, extremely smart decision purchase at the right time and at the right place! 
It's been decades since the last solar eclipse. I actually remember it, but don't remember these nifty glasses. I assume back then we just took our chances of looking up at God's magical solar light show while also taking our chances of becoming blind. Or...with some serious eye irritation and pain over the next few weeks. Heeheeheeheehee!
happy
As I round off the weekend... 
else might say or tell you. YOU are most B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L too!
So...maybe our challenges in life, medically, are different. Maybe our weight loss and gains might be different. Maybe we live differently among what we endure independently. But doesn't it feel damn good to know...WE are still every bit proud, brave and most importantly...B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L women! Thank you Melanda for your kind words. Thank you for sharing your brave journey. Thank you for inspiring me!
ever forget!
celebratory
B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y today...
Yep, I am still up and early with the birds! That means once Eric gets home from work. It's time to change and head out the door! Of course, it seems that I am the only one used to this new sleep schedule. Ask Eric or Snoreo...and you can most certainly bet that their reply will follow up with a quick ZZZZZZ... Hahahahaha!
This year, Eric requested to have pie. A personal pizza pie! He isn't much for desert. I guess it's a good thing that I only enjoy the icing part on a really good cake! I was never much for the actual cake part of a birthday cake. A birthday pizza pie it is! And it was! Inhaled within a mere 5 minutes. Talking about a GREAT brick-oven, organic style birthday pizza pie! Heeheeheeheehee! Good thing I am not much for pizza either. Nah, I will gladly stick with a healthy protein shake! 
Over the years by my own personal struggles, experience and being the support for others whom battle illness. I refuse to be another person who would rather not be burdened. Refusing to be inconvenienced by someone who is battling any illness. By wisdom. I have learned how to never act nor treat others who never asked to be sick in the first place.
chillin'
I need my body temperature and other levels to be as much on the normal side as possible. Maybe not-so-much as normal as most folks. But I need my levels to not be so foobar as last weekends. I only have this weekend to allow my body as much rest as possible. If I can go into testing and surgery next week, with levels on the okay side... Then my team of specialists won't have to keep rescheduling everything. That means, NO drama, NO stress, NO nada. 
finished!
Repairing, repainting and redecorating anything and everything we come across through each and every room. This after deciding to take on the massive and quite timely project . Putting every last ounce of energy into creating a most b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l country coastal themed home!
From (literally) hand texturized ceilings with a glove. To chiseling wood floors. Repairing a home, from top-to-bottom that was seriously neglected by prior owners. Not to forget repairs that were way past our help and endless contractors coming and going over the past several months. The goal is to have our home ready to place on the market by next year, early spring.
He also hasn't skipped a walk with Snoreo this morning either along the river trails. Another very foggy, almost eerie looking walk along the river trails... 
Regardless of medical set-backs. We still have a very busy and quite celebratory week ahead of us! Eric turns 57 this week! Heeheeheeheehee....So maybe...I added a few years or two. Hahahahaha! The only thing he has been asking for is something to help him gain back a lot of lost weight. Eric's metabolism is already high. Add stress of medical issues that we are enduring with my health. And his metabolism seems to have went off the charts! What he surely wasn't expecting. Was the largest container of protein weight gainer that even shocked him! By the looks of this photo...possibly even shocking Snoreo! Hahahahahaha! 
Looks like someone will be having lots of extra, healthy energy to spend through out the remainder of this project year. Slowly, but surely, we are making our way through flipping our house. One room at a time. The second bedroom project is most definitely taking a lot longer than anticipated. This doesn't even look like the same bedroom anymore. Whether alone the same house! When you take your time and do it right the first time. The end result will be worth the wait! Figuring out why this house had sustained so much damage isn't so much of any type of great mystery anymore. Serious prior neglect and improper reinforcement of a wall, sump pump and French drain system in the basement. The damage is quite obvious to us now. So is the hard work and losing track of far too many hours that we have spent to get this house it's most BEAUTIFUL yet!
YYYY!!!!
d'oh
Thankfully, my oncologist was able to work me into their schedule after feeling all over the place. Infusion, treatments are suppose to slowly get me somewhat, back on track. What my brain can no longer supply, thanks to tumor complications, is suppose to slowly help me feel a bit better. More like myself. But instead...I woke up with once again, low body temperature, cold sweats, brain fog and my blood sugar levels far too high. Mind you, I haven't been able to consume much. What I have consumed has barely any sugar, not even close enough to spike my levels as soon as I woke up this morning. 
Tis going to be a very busy weekend! We have a lot on our already full plate and final touches to catch up on with 1 of 3 bedrooms. I started painting the living room. But had to take a bit of a break. Hopefully I can regain some energy in order to kick start this project already in the making! It's been one very interesting year for us. Yet, I am so beyond relieved that things are finally coming together for our little family. They say, when you rid the negative out of your life. Things are bound to get better! 
