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happyNow Playing: Day 2785-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)
As I round off the weekend...
I am reminded of what is to come starting next week. Hospital testing, surgery and walking into the land of the unknown...
I am also reminded today of the good and the bad. What comes with enduring more treatments. Hair, no hair, eyebrows, no eyebrows, more weight loss, more dark circles under the eyes. All in hopes of the best hair and cosmetic arsenals that one can find! Heeheeheehee!
Sure, why yes! I can laugh! You see...I have been down this road before. Far too many times over the past 14 months and counting. But you know what? I still feel beautiful! You know what else? No matter how you feel or what anyone 
else might say or tell you. YOU are most B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L too!
Change? Change is good! Change is powerful! As a woman. We can change whenever, however and as many times or as often as we want! I received a very heartfelt email over the weekend from a young lady who is starting her final year in high school. A very proud senior at that! A young woman with a most beautiful smile and even more beautiful soul that embraces change that comes with her illness. Endometriosis. I was asked to share some of her story with you. I was asked to share how she began to understand that no matter how much her illness began affecting her. No matter how much weight she gained from her illness. No matter how ugly, swollen, bloated and pain she feels each and every day. There is ALWAYS. ALWAYS! A reason to feel beautiful!
So...maybe our challenges in life, medically, are different. Maybe our weight loss and gains might be different. Maybe we live differently among what we endure independently. But doesn't it feel damn good to know...WE are still every bit proud, brave and most importantly...B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L women! Thank you Melanda for your kind words. Thank you for sharing your brave journey. Thank you for inspiring me!
There are so many ways to embrace beauty. There are so many reasons for all of us, to feel beautiful each and every day! From a dark haired brunette, to a super light blond...I now embrace the fiery red head in me! Why? Because change is GOOD!
To all the woman out there in the world...
YOU are MOST BEAUTIFUL!
And don't YOU
ever forget!
* It is beautiful to speak another language. It is beautiful to try.
* Beauty is long hair, and short hair; brown, black, pink, yellow, or white. Beauty is a smooth bald head.
* If you have been to hell and back, your resilience is beautiful.
* You are beautiful when you are afraid to do something, and you do it anyway.
* Flat stomachs are beautiful, sure, but big, soft bellies are beautiful, too.
* Beauty is putting paint on canvas, or strumming a guitar, or baking bread, or dancing with your eyes closed.
* Your bare face in the morning is beautiful. Ask the person who loves you. It’s true.
* Beauty is laughing so hard your eyes are watering and your stomach hurts and you’re yelling, “Stop, stop! Seriously, I’m peeing!” (Yes. Peeing your pants can be beautiful.)
* Beauty is telling a teenage girl that she’s going to be OK.
* Beauty is calling someone out for saying something hurtful, even if you weren’t the one getting hurt.
* Your legs are beautiful. No, really. They are. Look at the curve of your calves, the muscles in your thighs, the peaks and valleys of your knee.
* You are beautiful when you rock out so hard at a concert that your neck is sore the next day.
* Intelligence is beautiful.
* Worldliness is beautiful.
* Compassion is very, very beautiful.
* Beauty is wearing an outfit so fierce that when people compliment you on it you say, “I know, right?” and then, “Oh, I mean, thank you.”
* Strong opinions are beautiful.
* Respecting other people’s strong opinions is beautiful too.
* Women who never wear makeup, whatever their reasons, are beautiful.
* Women who always wear makeup, whatever their reasons, are beautiful.
* Floating in the ocean is a beautiful feeling.
* Your eyes are beautiful. Nobody else has eyes like yours. They are deep and inquisitive and instantly recognizable.
* Beauty is being able to walk gracefully in high heels.
* Beauty is digging your bare feet into the sand.
* Beauty is sitting very still with your thoughts.
* It is beautiful to find the strength to ask for help when you need it. We all feel like we’re drowning sometimes, and we would all be glad to pull you from the rapids.
* Beauty is loving your pet as much as they love you.
* Beauty is a fresh flower in your hair.
* The physical remnants of our life experiences–wrinkles, stretch marks, scars, and sun spots–are beautiful.
* Wisdom is beautiful.
* Humility is beautiful.
* Freedom is beautiful. You are free to fill your life with the things that make you happy.
* Happiness is beautiful.
YOU are BEAUTIFUL!
WDE
celebratory
B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y today...
Yep, I am still up and early with the birds! That means once Eric gets home from work. It's time to change and head out the door! Of course, it seems that I am the only one used to this new sleep schedule. Ask Eric or Snoreo...and you can most certainly bet that their reply will follow up with a quick ZZZZZZ... Hahahahaha!
This year, Eric requested to have pie. A personal pizza pie! He isn't much for desert. I guess it's a good thing that I only enjoy the icing part on a really good cake! I was never much for the actual cake part of a birthday cake. A birthday pizza pie it is! And it was! Inhaled within a mere 5 minutes. Talking about a GREAT brick-oven, organic style birthday pizza pie! Heeheeheeheehee! Good thing I am not much for pizza either. Nah, I will gladly stick with a healthy protein shake! 
Over the years by my own personal struggles, experience and being the support for others whom battle illness. I refuse to be another person who would rather not be burdened. Refusing to be inconvenienced by someone who is battling any illness. By wisdom. I have learned how to never act nor treat others who never asked to be sick in the first place.
chillin'
I need my body temperature and other levels to be as much on the normal side as possible. Maybe not-so-much as normal as most folks. But I need my levels to not be so foobar as last weekends. I only have this weekend to allow my body as much rest as possible. If I can go into testing and surgery next week, with levels on the okay side... Then my team of specialists won't have to keep rescheduling everything. That means, NO drama, NO stress, NO nada. 
finished!
Repairing, repainting and redecorating anything and everything we come across through each and every room. This after deciding to take on the massive and quite timely project . Putting every last ounce of energy into creating a most b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l country coastal themed home!
From (literally) hand texturized ceilings with a glove. To chiseling wood floors. Repairing a home, from top-to-bottom that was seriously neglected by prior owners. Not to forget repairs that were way past our help and endless contractors coming and going over the past several months. The goal is to have our home ready to place on the market by next year, early spring.
He also hasn't skipped a walk with Snoreo this morning either along the river trails. Another very foggy, almost eerie looking walk along the river trails... 
Regardless of medical set-backs. We still have a very busy and quite celebratory week ahead of us! Eric turns 57 this week! Heeheeheeheehee....So maybe...I added a few years or two. Hahahahaha! The only thing he has been asking for is something to help him gain back a lot of lost weight. Eric's metabolism is already high. Add stress of medical issues that we are enduring with my health. And his metabolism seems to have went off the charts! What he surely wasn't expecting. Was the largest container of protein weight gainer that even shocked him! By the looks of this photo...possibly even shocking Snoreo! Hahahahahaha! 
Looks like someone will be having lots of extra, healthy energy to spend through out the remainder of this project year. Slowly, but surely, we are making our way through flipping our house. One room at a time. The second bedroom project is most definitely taking a lot longer than anticipated. This doesn't even look like the same bedroom anymore. Whether alone the same house! When you take your time and do it right the first time. The end result will be worth the wait! Figuring out why this house had sustained so much damage isn't so much of any type of great mystery anymore. Serious prior neglect and improper reinforcement of a wall, sump pump and French drain system in the basement. The damage is quite obvious to us now. So is the hard work and losing track of far too many hours that we have spent to get this house it's most BEAUTIFUL yet!
YYYY!!!!
d'oh
Thankfully, my oncologist was able to work me into their schedule after feeling all over the place. Infusion, treatments are suppose to slowly get me somewhat, back on track. What my brain can no longer supply, thanks to tumor complications, is suppose to slowly help me feel a bit better. More like myself. But instead...I woke up with once again, low body temperature, cold sweats, brain fog and my blood sugar levels far too high. Mind you, I haven't been able to consume much. What I have consumed has barely any sugar, not even close enough to spike my levels as soon as I woke up this morning. 
bright
Tis going to be a very busy weekend! We have a lot on our already full plate and final touches to catch up on with 1 of 3 bedrooms. I started painting the living room. But had to take a bit of a break. Hopefully I can regain some energy in order to kick start this project already in the making! It's been one very interesting year for us. Yet, I am so beyond relieved that things are finally coming together for our little family. They say, when you rid the negative out of your life. Things are bound to get better! 
happy
LOVE
country! I have always had a huge passion for all of God's creatures. Both big and small. I also hold beyond respect for God's land. I doubt that I will be seeing those craze-minded hunters in heaven.
We are finally able this year to enjoy a much more normal of a summer with much more normal temperatures. Compared to over the past few years and then some! I'm not sure with no longer living in the city suburbs makes a difference? However living in our new little, lazy, river town most definitely brings with it a very nice consistent breeze~ 
For now...we continue moving forward with one project after another and another and another. Mr. Snoreo doesn't seem to mind a bit! He still enjoys time at our local dog park with other playful new friends that have been keeping him company. We were anticipating to welcome a new member to our family. But health-wise, we aren't sure what the future may or may not hold. We live for today. Not yesterday and most definitely...not tomorrow. Like I always say, "SEIZE THE MOMENT!" 
far too many hospital visits to count. As anticipated, my labs once again did not come back with flying colors. Once again, my lab work came back way too far off the charts from anything close to normal. My brain...failed the tests. I dreaded hearing the words from my team of specialists, one in particular today on the phone that is leading this latest progressive discovery, "We have you scheduled Monday with the hospital and oncology infusion team. Your labs are still coming back extremely low. We will need you to proceed forward with everything that has been discussed." 
BRING ON THE CANDY & WINE!
