Mood: bright
Now Playing: Day 2683-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)
Yesterday might had been a true hospital BUST!
However... Today turned out to be a complete turn-around kind of hospital day. PLUS!
I used to sleep like a vampire. Living like a true night owl. Life after dark. Now I am far from a night owl. Life sometimes let's you know that the early bird does get the worm. Sometimes... Also a very early morning wake up call with it~
8:00AMRise N' Shine!
9:00AM out the door! Time to head back across state lines to the city. Hospital treatment day.
No stressors today. Not for this gal anyways.
I am less than a month away from my next rescan. A full year as of May 4th from a very tough round of radiation therapy. A fast-track treatment that left me wondering if somehow, it was all worth it. One year and less than one week later. It seems that sometimes it truly never ends. When you want to finally see some sort of break. Some type of remission.
I have done my best to stay out of the emergency room. So far, only a few visits for this year. That is a major improvement from this time last year! Maybe it is because, I know there isn't much more my specialists can do, but to tackle the new symptoms and oncology treatment side effects as they come. All I want is to go back to work. As of this past March, it has been six years that I have been on permanent disability. Tis not been fun. Especially when I am so used to staying busy.
There are days, however, when a swift reality check is in order for why I still have a ways to go before my doctors will allow me to try going back to work. One cell, is all it takes for things to go from bad to worse. No one can predict what happens after radiation therapy. We were told to expect things to come full circle because the treatments didn't work. Today was a lesson to the golden rule that one can not predict what happens after radiation or any other type of oncology treatment. All you can do sometimes. Is do your best to roll with the punches. Continue living life to the fullest!
My nurse today said it best, as she told me about her sister who bravely battled breast cancer. After enduring radiation therapy and chemo therapy treatments. Her sister did successfully beat cancer, but without enduring many post-treatment side effects. "It's like my sister got rid of the nasty cancer and is now dealing with another entirely different beast. A new host of post-treatment problems." My heart goes out to her sister. Especially when it comes to facing the unknown. I deal with my own medical demons. Even I am not alone.
At the end of the day. The most sought after words that a patient so desperately seeks to hear.
"Remission."
For some it comes after treatment. For others like myself, we still have a long ways left to go...
theshando Moments. They happen.
Today was and is a moment. What does remission mean? I heard that word and have no idea how to react. Good news? YES. Overwhelming. YES. Now more waiting. As every single one of my fellow cancer family knows, the next five years is crucial. Reoccurrences happen all the time. Many of you have shared that very story with me. So with a heart that is certainly lighter, I wait. In the meantime, decisions. Reconstruction which is several surgeries. Decision on taking a pill for the next five years that comes with its own set of problems and side effects. I am blessed, I know that. But for now... remission. I'm going to just breathe. #cancerslayer