Mood:
chillin'Now Playing: Day 2588-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)
It was another cool, brisk, winter day in the country...
A great day to enjoy an early morning walk along the river trails. A gal could get used to this, if only we weren't destined to complete our final move out 
west.
We are still on hold in hopes of finding out the next round of state and county testing early next week, along with new certification information. Nevada's state and county academy test schedules are still not available for online review. Patience... p-a-t-i-e-n-c-e...
With one heck of a crazy winter season, our home is in dire need of some temporary repairs. Certainly not financially$$$ planned, but unfortunately next week we have a contractor coming out to see what can be done. 
This house has definitely been a non-stop money pit, but tis better safe, than sorry. Last thing we need is the roof and thousands of pounds of sandstone falling on top of us. EEEE`YIKES! We have bags of Quikset concrete to use for a few areas around the foundation, but with this crazy winter weather, we might have to wait and check first with the contractor next week. I can only imagine what lies ahead for us with our house of lemons, if we are still here during the upcoming spring season. Insects and lots of bees that will most likely attempt finding their way indoors if we don't fix the foundation cracks outdoors. My anxiety spikes just thinking about all the additional work! Not that we haven't done enough work as it is for a house that had a clean disclosure. Yea..... RIGHT!... Ha!
At least we will have plenty to laugh about during the rest of this winter with our green screen. Heeheeheeheehee! I didn't realize just how complicated the photo software is when manipulating the green screen. I started working on it a bit last night, but the ole fatigue got the best of me. We did get quite a few really good laughs with some absolutely hilarious backgrounds! Of course, per President Trump's expense.
"We are going to make Green Screen GREAT again!"
Hahahahaha!
Next week is going to be one very busy week for both of us. We have a meeting at little E's school, drivers license and car tag changes, auditors office information to drop off for our upcoming taxes, contractor estimates for temporary foundation repairs, doctors appointments and far too many other errands to even remember. What we might be in dire need of next week, is lots of energy!
We better enjoy this low-key weekend while it lasts...
celebratory
We are also looking into a possible move down south, close to framily, friends who are family. Sis and her family. We can't confirm anything, not just yet, but it is a possibility. A REAL possibility. Eric is as well, looking into county and state prison systems for their class schedules, along with their requirements. Regardless of what I am facing medically. It will not stop me, nor us, from pursuing our dreams and a final destination. A permanent place to finally call, "Home." 
It was an early rise-n-shine morning... Back to the oncologists for another round of bad news. As for myself? Nothing new was much of any surprise to me. A bit disappointing? Sure. Myself and Eric know the drill, especially when new symptoms arise and instead of leaving. They are here to stay. I doubt that my oral surgeon would be any bit surprised at today's news, but all I can do is keep fighting. Sometimes... That is all you can do. Grin, bear it and keep moving on!
There are families that like to tell folks that, "It's always something with her health." These are the same folks that shun down at good ole fashion counseling. Although, most would agree with most folks by saying, "It's usually those families that shun down at counseling, that are the ones who need counseling the most." Especially to learn how to conduct themselves around those who are sick. As for us? We believe that taking good care of your mental health, is just as important as taking good care of your physical health. Some folks believe that if you have a bad run in with one counselor. That every other counselor will end up the exact same way. Non sense! That is like saying if you have a bad experience with one airlines. The other airlines will also end up leaving you with the same bad experience. Where I am going with this? If you are one reading this and shaking your head, then maybe you might need counseling. 
Eric was on his best and most quiet behavior, while reading a really great book that our new counselor had requested for him to read. A very positive, uplifting and highly motivational book written by, Steve Harvey. "JUMP." Once Eric is done reading the book. I plan on reading it myself. There is nothing wrong with motivation books, same as, there is nothing wrong with counseling. Same as taking good care of your physical health, regardless if you are coming to the end of a long journey. Your mental health is just as important. We could all strive to be a better version of ourselves today, than what we were yesterday. Talking to a private, 3rd party, about issues you are facing or having in life is perfectly, OK. In fact, you will never find any doctor, specialist or oncologist to ever shun down on good counseling. Fact.
ALWAYS.
I am still dealing with never-ending, E Coli, that has become resistant to quite a few antibiotics. Each rebounding-round of E Coli, has me right back up to the hospital for another round of IV medication, at home medication and more cultures to be sent out for further studies. This latest round, has now shown to be resistant to a few new additional antibiotics. Talking about SCARY! 
After each course of strong antibiotics, I get a mere week break before the E Coli cycle starts up all over again... I don't just have one team of specialists trying to figure out this great E Coli resistant mystery, but instead, now 4 teams of specialists. Yes, it does get old, but unfortunately no one asks for their immune system to turn against them. Experimental cancer-oncology treatments do sometimes help patients, but as well, they can hurt a patient. Especially your immune system. Staying super alert and in tune with new symptoms is a must! So is keeping your sense of humor, in which, me and Eric have become our own at-home comedy team!
I am blessed to not just have a super amazing spouse-caregiver, but as well, a super loving fur family. Our fur children. 
I am still determined as ever to see one of my all-time favorite bands in concert, Journey! I am scheduled for my next rescan, a mere 2 weeks, before we can decide if my body will be able to handle the 3 hour drive to the concert. I am hopeful, but yet, realistic. My mind is more than READY! My body? Only time will tell and so will my next rescan. If they can not get this darn rebounding E Coli under control, then clearly we will have to hand over our front row tickets to another lucky someone, some 2, else. I have plans for the once-in-a-lifetime tickets if we can not go. Hopefully, my body will allow a bit of time to decide if the concert will be a GO or a NO. If we can not go, I will be auctioning off the tickets online. Proceeds from the tickets will go towards local families in need of medical assistance. I also plan on doing something special for a few children that we had met during our short laundry mat, in need of washing machine assistance, when we had plumbing issues with our new home. 
chatty
special
Indiana. 
As far as moving out west? Plans are still moving (no pun intended) in the right direction. Those who have asked how Littleblue is doing with her mammary cancer? The tumor is still growing, but thankfully, at a very slow pace. Since there are no surgical options, due to Littleblue's lungs being affected and needing to remain on medication to help with her breathing. Littleblue will remain under Veterinarian specialty care and continues doing well with at home care, along with daily medication. 
OXO
Since some of our Manic Monday schedule brought us back over state lines, into Ohio, we decided to take a walk down memory lane... We once again, braved the brisk winter weather and took a walk at one of our prior parks that we enjoyed walking the trails at over the years. It's interesting when you have been away for awhile, from where you used to live and what you used to know, then go back, even if only for a mere few hours. A chance to visit the parks and walking trails that we enjoyed for years. We both miss the place that we used to call home, but I don't miss the stress. I don't miss feeling suffocated, around those whom caused us a great deal of stress over the years. I don't miss being in a very close proximity with the stress either or those who excluded us over the years, as if we had already died. We don't miss the big city noise, over populated cookie cutter neighborhoods nor the rudeness from living a fast pace way of life. It's strange how in a mere few hours visit, back to where we once called home, has changed over the past 4 months. Not that our current, newly purchased home feels anything like, 'Home.' Yet, what we don't have, is stress or the feeling of being suffocated, nor living within a close proximity around those whom have caused more hurt than they will ever know. 
on fire
Lots of big, comfy clothes and warm blankets kind of weather here in our little, lazy, river town... 
What I have also still yet to do, since moving out of state, is to dust off and plug in the ole home treadmill. Luckily, our home foundation has been extremely quiet lately. We aren't sure if this might possibly have to do with Duke Energy hired crews cutting far too many trees in the back of our property, instead of pruning them?. Additional pressure and weight released from the foundation could very well be a possibility for the eerie silence. The cold winter weather and ground starting to freeze might also possibly have something to do with our home finally catching a break. Professional expects feel that it could be very well from both. Released pressure, weight from the trees and much cooler winter weather. This doesn't mean that our troubles are over. Not by any means. It just means that we have finally gotten our long overdue house break. Literally... Break. 
#DeterminedAndFIERCE
Did I just write two paragraphs on politics?!? 
I still have several weeks before my body ultimately decides for us, the fate of those concert tickets. In the meantime... I have an appointment with my specialist next week, to see where I am with an 8 month rebounding E Coli infection. I am almost certain on the exact location, where I picked up this upmost nasty infection. I remember the day when I gave up a room after radiation for another cancer patient who was struggling to walk after his chemotherapy treatment. On our way out of the oncology treatment center, I started feeling sick and was in need of a bathroom, ASAP! I ended up using a bathroom, right outside of the closed oncology society doors, in which, I would greatly regret later. Like days later, after the first initial signs of E Coli began to surface. The rest? The rest should be history, but unfortunately for me, it is still in the present. I plan on asking my specialist next week if we could possibly move up my dosage of Marinol. I started off on 2.5 mg capsules and now currently taking the 5 mg capsules. The problem is that I have to melt each 5 mg capsule in a large thermal mug of decaf coffee. That means having to drink two large thermal mugs of decaf coffee or decaf tea on a daily basis, on top of my other daily liquid nutrition. I am good just to be able to consume one large thermal mug a day. This might be why I am not reaping the full benefits of my little magical pill. Some days, even with medical, are better than others. If I didn't have an obsolete GI tract, Gastroparesis, my transit time with medications would be normal. I am not alone, but I still get by, like the rest of us GP'ers. One day at a time. Adding cancer treatments and rare tumors only made matters that much harder to handle. Far more difficult for a team of doctors to treat, but I vow to continue on...
JOURNEY! 
d'oh
day!
What a great way to team up and have some fun with friends, while also getting the chance to tour around to various locations during tournament season. Talking about some serious competition! Just when you think you have seen it all... You have never truly seen it all! Heeheeheehee~ We saw some of the most creative team shirts from Kentucky, Illinois, New York, Michigan, Ohio, Pennsylvania, Tennessee. You name the state and they were there to represent! Now I can see why Eric's friends are so passionate about playing darts, especially at the beginning of dart tournament season. Of course, we didn't play darts, but were there instead for team support, but unfortunately that support only lasted a mere 2 hours.
didn't stop until an hour after we got home. Instead of enjoying the start to what could had been, a really good evening and end to a 'good' day. We instead had to spend it, once again, at home. Eric playing nurse and my beloved fur children by my side. 
There is still so much more to explore around the little, lazy, river town. We also want to visit a local rescue organization, only a mere 10 minute drive from our home. The organization only allows visitors by appointment. It's hard to make an appointment, because my good and bad days are impossible to predict. I live day to day, hour by hour. Not on promises or any plans made well in advance. We live by the word, 'spontaneous.' Maybe next weeks doctors appointment will bring with it, some insight on any other possible treatments so I can enjoy far more good days! We have been told about possible, immunotherapy, but it never got past a brief conversation. For now, I must continue listening to my body, which unfortunately requires a lot of rest...
Heeheeheehee!