Now Playing: Day 836-The Final Road To Survival
I weigh HOW MUCH?!!
Yes, it was another day when all my body wanted to do was sleep, sleep, sleep but instead we had a full days schedule which included doctor appointments, door repairs and friends coming over to visit. No sleeping all day for this gal but maybe another time later this week. Littleblue once again didn't help matters jumping back and forth between the couch and her den located under a side coffee table with her stuffed animal fur babies. At least Oreo doesn't do the same thing and instead finds complete comfort on his extra large floor bed.
The tremors seem to be more coming than going and after today's visit it appears they won't be leaving anytime soon. Same goes with the constant weight loss. 108 pounds is a number I don't remember seeing since I was in the 8th grade and even then I don't think I was that small! HOLYMOLY!! If my paralyzed and stretched colon wasn't still inside me they estimate my weight to be less than 100 pounds. NUTS!! As one doctor said, "You are all stomach." Ummm...More like stomach and intestines! Its no wonder Eric complains that I need smaller pants that fit and don't droop but lets be honest in saying it took me months just to find the three new pairs I bought this spring. They are all size 2 which means the next juniors size down is 1 or 0 and they are hard to find. I guess we know what Santa will be bringing me this holiday season. Eric even lost four pounds over the past week but his is due to all the stress that he has been taking off my shoulders. Its hard keeping up with the constant walking and moving around in order to not get myself in trouble-GP wise but I also lack the calories now since having to water down the heck out of everything I consume on a daily basis.
One GP evil -vs- another.
Oh well....All I can do is continue doing the best I can do and at least my specialists totally understand! They don't want to go the tube or IV route seeing my compromised immune system couldn't handle any line infections. That would only make things a million times worse for me and for them! Lately I am just flat out TIRED but its only to be expected. Friends were over today and even commented on the fact I didn't look so good. Maybe since I see myself in the mirror everyday I don't see the changes as much unlike others who don't see me on a daily basis. I still respect their honesty because I can't deny the fact that if my insides are changing and not for the better my outer appearance will also in time suffer. Thank goodness for hair care products, wigs and make up but sometimes you can't always hide the bags and darkness under your eyes.
Since the tremors haven't been too kind this week once again the doctors have me pushing my treatment back another 24 hours. Not like it matters to me seeing I can't stand drinking that foul, warm, ocean, chlorine-toxic nightmare anymore. The only positive out of each dreaded experience is it does help to keep me out of trouble. This evening we only did half of a walk. Eric said, "I think this is the shortest walk we have ever done." NO JOKE! The rest of the evening consisted of running a few errands and I even bought myself some new fingernail polishes. What gal doesn't enjoy a few new shades for the upcoming fall season?! My colors, "Black polish with a bottle of festive sparkle topcoat." Call it the BLAH color mood of choice. Need I say more?...
Hopefully this evening Miss Littleblue will be less of a jumping bean laying next to Mommy. If tomorrow finally brings my next treatment then I will surely need all the sleep I can get! AMEN. You know when you get knocked on your A%% and you just can't take anymore....
Well there are people that are always there to pick you up... dust you off...and lend you their hand to help.... -FB Friend
You know when you get knocked on your A%% and you just can't take anymore....