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"Seizures are electrical malfunctions within the brain that can occur with or without warning." I HATE SEIZURES!!
Everything was going great last night and we both were having such an amazing time. That was until the intestinal pain started creeping up followed by a headache. Luckily I keep medication on me so I decided to take an Advil migraine hoping it would quickly put a halt to the pain. Instead of getting relief things just kept getting worse so once again we had to cut the night short. Eric has drill at the Armory this weekend and was suppose to be there tomorrow morning at 9am for formation.
That didn't happen.
I had Eric drive on the way home because the angry intestinal pain that was going through my back made it hard for me to sit. The headache wasn't helping matters either so once we got home Eric took the fur kids outside so I could rest on the recliner. Once he got the couchbed ready for me it was already midnight. Pain can make you feel completely exhausted and by the time I propped my pillows up against the arm of the couch I was out! At 5am I was back up once again with pain that intensified followed by nausea and vomiting. When I attempted to lay back down I started to get what I thought were chills. Once I stood up and tried to explain to Eric what was going I was greeted instead by a seizure that came out of no where.
My seizure disorder started a little over four years ago. I tend to always get seizure-aura before the seizure starts but this time was different because I didn't get any warnings. My Neurologists call my seizures, "Complex seizures" same as with my Gastroparesis that also seems to be COMPLEX. My doctors have run numerous tests over the past four years and found my triggers which seem to be excessive light, flashing lights and bright lights. They have recently not only tried me on a few other new medications but adjusted the dosage but obviously they don't work due to the complexity of my seizures.The past two years they seem to occur the same time my Gastroparesis flairs up. Are they connected? Yes. This morning proved to my doctors once again there is a definite connection.
Thankfully Eric was home and didn't leave yet for drill. Since I was in the process of standing up I didn't get the aura warning to lay down so the seizure knocked me back and locked my entire left side of my body. I suffered temporary memory loss which isn't the first time and although it can scare the crap out of anyone it sadly occurs following most seizures. Eric was very concerned because my left hand and foot were locked up and turned inward due to my joints being frozen from the seizure. Once my seizure stopped the after tremors lasted for 20 minutes and by that time I was mentally and physically EXHAUSTED! It was 7:30am before I was able to get back to sleep. Eric didn't get to sleep until 10am and also had to call his Commander to let them know what was going on. They are fully aware of my unique medical condition and felt it was important Eric stayed home to make sure I didn't have any after-seizures which can happen following a seizure and tremors.
I always take things one day at a time in life because I can't predict tomorrow whether alone the next hour. I am very thankful to have Eric who never seizes to amaze me with staying calm during stressful times. It isn't easy being sick and not knowing what each day brings. One thing for certain is I know with my supportive and loving Husband I will never be alone.
celebratory
I have always wanted an apple tree for the past seven years. Its hard to find apple trees and when I looked online last month it was too late in the season to order one. This afternoon I am happy to say we ironically stumbled across APPLE TREES! Not only did we buy one but instead bought two. Soon enough I will have enough wildlife animals around the property to call it my own personal little Zoo. Heeheeheehee... Mr. Groundhog is finally back with a new girlfriend living under the front porch. I have a feeling sooner or later we might see some baby Groundhogs. Eric said, "Wow! The male is HUGE! I have never been able to come this close to a Groundhog but they sure are cute." "The way things are going instead of buying a house out west we might end up with a farm. Hahahaha! I love animals because they will never leave you and always give unconditional love. DITTO TIMES 10!
Since tomorrow is Dranotini Sunday we decided to have a date-night this evening. It will do us both good to get out of the house for awhile! We tried to start the new tradition last month taking turns planning a night out each week but things got us side tracked and I was once again down for the count. Thank goodness I am spontaneous. You have to be living a Gastroparesis life. AMEN! Its been awhile since I was able to go out without hair extensions or wigs and it felt extremely liberating. I better do it now before its too late. Sometimes you just have to put what others say to the side and be YOURSELF. 
With all the house repairs going on Oreo has yet to catch up on his sleep. Littleblue doesn't help much since she is up most of the day and night rotating her stuffed animal fur babies. Hee,hee,hee,hee... Eric hasn't seen anything quite like it but does agree she sure is a great and protective Mom. Too bad most parents in the world aren't as protective of their own kids like Littleblue is with her fur babies.
We let him pick out the days activities which included dinner and games at Chuck E. Cheese. Since my last treatment is still trapped which makes me feel a bit foggy I got smart this time and brought along a magazine. Eric has a huge fear of the Teletubbies which is kinda ironic seeing the table we picked out seemed to be right next to them. The only problem was Eric didn't see them but I sure did. TOO FUNNY!
Little Erik had a great time playing all the games and watching Chuck E. Cheese perform on stage with the other characters. It was busy but not too crowded so we all got to enjoy playing a few game together until little Erik's energy was wiped out then we headed home. We all had a great time and it was nice to free my mind from all the stress that has been going on lately with family. AMEN!
Since a few close friends in the city told me I need to start calling them more often so they can share some laughs I did just that this morning. Like 2:30am. Hahahaha! OK. Now you all can't say I don't call when I am up because guess what? I was UP but the problem was one individual wasn't and instead of his phone ringer being off he accidentally left it on after falling asleep in his kids bed watching a movie. Talking about sharing a few laughs when he was completely out of it then freaked thinking he was late for work. Hahahaha! Maybe next time everyone will think twice about telling me to call them when I am up and can't sleep. At least we both got a huge kick out of it later this evening. I am hoping to be able to see my friends in the city a bit more often before making the big move out west. 
quizzical
Since the stress caused by family put a halt for two days with my treatment I now have to endure it one more time this weekend. Yesterdays treatment didn't work and its to no surprise when your insides are fighting two battles. This should be a clear example for me to finally GET IT and understand if family understood my condition they would had respected the hell I go through doing treatments and not added unnecessary stress. AMEN. Its OK though because here on out I won't have to worry about holding off on treatment and now maybe I can get back on a schedule. I did have an important appointment to have my lymph nodes rechecked by my Oncologist/Hematologist today "however" its like the domino effect. Stress=no treatment for two days=having to catch up on treatment=no sleep=doctor wants me to reschedule so I can rest. Crazy isn't it? Yes. It is.
chillin'
One of my best buddies in the city also got a bit inspired by me finally taking the bull by the horns that he too started on a new journey letting go of someone who hurt him and his Son in the past. He told me, "Like yourself it was a long time coming but when its the right time you just know." I am very proud of him and together we continue to support one another on our new life journey without the stress, without the constant harassment but instead with open eyes and a lot more wisdom! CHEERS TO THAT!! It takes time to heal when you are constantly being bullied by family and when its been going on for years it can also take years to recover. I sure hope my dear friend and his Son are in a much better place emotionally and in time they can be at peace again. 
If anything "good" came out of this Freddy Kruger nightmare is I am BLESSED to be alive because as stated by a health professional this afternoon, "The stress could had killed you." AMEN! Now for once I can go back to writing about life with Gastroparesis and my NEW LIFE flying solo with Eric, my fur kids and all my amazing, kind, compassionate, loving and supportive friends who have always been like family to me. Thank you to those who have always had my back and to God who made me who I am today, "A FIGHTER."
bright
Why thank you Mr. Deer and wildlife gang. I am sure the peaches were just TASTY as can be! Hee,hee,hee... The peach tree is now officially peach-less. The only ones who will be getting any homemade peach pie are the wildlife who either ate them or saved them for baking. Hahahaha! Eric was shocked because as of yesterday we at least had half of the peaches still left on the tree. This evening it was an official peach BUST. Oh well... Glad at least someone got to enjoy them and it gives me reason to "not" blow my liquid diet.
Since this was another beautiful and less hot/humid day we had additional work done on the new gutters. Hopefully the rain will hold off for a few more days so they can continue finishing things up. Its been a longgggggg time comin! The new wildflower beds have been taking off and we have all sorts of new colorful blooms. I haven't seen too many butterflies this year but maybe with the flowers starting to bloom we might start seeing more. Wildflowers also attract hummingbirds. BONUS! 
Once the sun started to set we got the car loaded up and headed to the park. The baby ducks are doing amazing and even have a few other older Malard babies who took them under their wings. The other four adult male white ducks have been hanging around them and even the injured female goose. It was nice to see they all accept one another. The female goose seems to be getting around a bit better although she still suffers from an injured leg due to people leaving fishing line around the park grounds. She must had gotten caught in it but we are hoping soon enough either the park Rangers get her help or she is able to slowly bite the rest of the line off her leg. She has to hop around but is doing the best she can while being injured. There has been quite a few times we have come across young kids throwing rocks or tormenting her. Call it a "SPECIAL DISABLED BOND" because although I might not be one of the wildlife I am still human and understand first hand what its like for people to torment and try to hurt you when you are already down. People should raise their children and start them off young on how to respect the wildlife, not try to hurt them. Eric says they need "Kid-Cops" because I would be a great one! I told him if they ever came up with such a thing I would be the FIRST in LINE! AMEN! I have policed more kids at the park than what I would like to say who are left unattended trying to harm wildlife while their parents who clearly don't know how to watch their kids nor maybe should had thought first about having any sit back and don't do a darn thing. Once I speak up I have yet to see anyone take over. Maybe I am a "Kid-Cop" already and just don't know it but all it takes is one time for the menacing kids to understand me and I get my point across. I don't take people tormenting people and I sure won't take people tormenting animals. You can't feel sorry for anyone young or old who gets bit due to their actions and sheer ignorance. People have a right to defend themselves when sick or injured and so do the animals. I sure won't be the first to offer assistance when we finally see someone get bit but I will be the first in line by saying, "I told you so." 
sharp
Here we are once again waiting to see how many fur babies Littleblue will be having this time around.... After her last heat she had 10 hedgehog puppies. So far she has 11 various stuffed animal fur babies and its only been two days! Hee,hee,hee,hee... No. We aren't talking real puppies but don't tell Littleblue that because if you ask her she will tell you otherwise. She is too cute and such a good Mommy to her stuffed animal fur babies. Very protective too!
We were suppose to get rain today but instead we got clouds and wind. The good part was the wind helped cool things down. We finally were also able to walk at the park later this evening to check up on the baby Malard and white duck. Once Eric pulled the car up to park I looked down by the lake and saw both of the baby ducks laying near the other ducks and geese. Isn't wildlife amazing that when babies are abandoned by their family others will take over and protect them? We were both beyond RELIEVED to see them being accepted and even better was when we went to feed them. They must had learned to eat bread from watching the adult ducks. Thank goodness they are doing really good and I can't wait to visit them again.
don't ask
What most don't understand about the ramifications of stress is the consequences it can leave on a fragile body. Ask my insides just what stress can do after getting only four hours of sleep from family causing more unnecessary stress then having sugar levels spike within a short time. We let things go until my sugar readings kept getting higher into the 170's along with feeling dizzy and the sweats. My doctors have already warned me on numerous occasions to stay away from any stress because it can unravel the hard work they are doing to keep me out of trouble. I guess it takes having just one organ act up to actual heed the warnings. Eric also got a first hand look today at what stress can do to a body that is already fighting enough battles. 
After a sleepless-night, long afternoon getting checked out and finally having doctors sit down not "asking" but telling me "The stress will have to stop and those causing stress will need to stay out of your life before the stress ends up becoming your demise," we came home a heck of a lot smarter and wiser. Eric of course had a few other family battles to attend while I layed down on the couch to finally rest. Needless to say I am B E A T! I slept until 11:45pm and here I am right back up again. Instead of only checking my blood sugar once a day I will now need to check it three times a day. My doctors are always concerned when my body throws out of no where a new symptom. Prior medical records show a minimum warning when one of my organs stop working. I need my pancreas in order to survive so I take this "NO stress" warning EXTREMELY seriously. Eric has grown tired of the relentless stress and rightfully so which has him also taking the necessary means to make it stop once and for all. 
not sure
Here comes the HOT HOT HOT weekend! Bring on the snow I say! Even the kitty gang must be thinking the same thing after waking up to find their holiday snowman cat nip toy next to my sandals. Hahahahaha! Littleblue and Bear kitty have been doing some bonding time during the day since its far too hot outdoors to play in the backyard. Eric gave Littleblue her bath this afternoon but instead maybe Littleblue was giving him a bath. She doesn't mind the bath however she likes drinking the water from the nozzle when you are trying to rinse her off. It typically takes until the next day for her undercoat to be completely dry. With this heat maybe we just need to let her run-dry outside.
