Now Playing: Day 822-The Final Road To Survival
FINALLY! After dealing with the non-stop family stress for two days in a row even after they were told I HAVE to do treatment I was finally able to play Drano catch up today.
THERE IS A GOD!
I didn't need to have a plane pick me up and take me to GP Island I just needed to know I have thousands of people who have my back and love me enough to protect and direct us both in the right direction. THANK YOU!! Eric also said, "THANK YOU AND THE SHELL FINALLY GOT AWAY FROM THE NUTS." Hee,hee,hee,hee...
One of my best buddies in the city also got a bit inspired by me finally taking the bull by the horns that he too started on a new journey letting go of someone who hurt him and his Son in the past. He told me, "Like yourself it was a long time coming but when its the right time you just know." I am very proud of him and together we continue to support one another on our new life journey without the stress, without the constant harassment but instead with open eyes and a lot more wisdom! CHEERS TO THAT!! It takes time to heal when you are constantly being bullied by family and when its been going on for years it can also take years to recover. I sure hope my dear friend and his Son are in a much better place emotionally and in time they can be at peace again.
I have taken a second step today in my healing process. I now belong to a grief support group that helps people cope with the loss of family. Some members have lost family due to death, incarceration and abandonment. It wasn't just the support group learning that I am far from alone but also by the outpouring of those around me who over the past few days have shared their own stories of family walking away and turning their backs. I have mentioned quite a few times on my blog that I should had been born in the 30's or 40's when family used to act like family. In this new turn of the century it seems family no longer consists of blood but instead are made up of strangers who love you unconditionally and whether you know it or not no matter what they will ALWAYS have your back. AMEN.
The first word of advice the past few days from friends, GP family and the grief support group was to do the best I can of getting away from the past. Putting all the reminders of hurt to the side so I can let my soul finally heal. Let's just say we took their advice this afternoon and Eric helped me clean out things that were reminders of those in my life who are now part of my past who have hurt me for many years, belittled me, bullied me, chastised me, harmed me, threatened me and my health. Once I am finished of getting rid of all the reminders can I then continue taking steps to peace and happiness. We don't plan on taking them out west but keeping all the bad memories left here in Ohio where they belong. I have wasted many years of my life that I will never get back on hoping family would change but what I should had done was change myself a long time ago by walking away. Its going to take time but each step will make a huge difference.
I still have my Will, Power Of Attorney and other legal issues that will need to also change. Most wouldn't think to ask themselves if they were in an emergency situation would they want the same people who have caused them stress and harm to be by their side? What about at your own funeral? I have found out today through guidance that I have the right to make those decisions in life and even after death.
Let's just say for now I need to handle this second step making the appropriate changes proceeding forward to better days. Stress-FREE! CHEERS to a great first start today-Day 1!!
"Never, never be afraid to do what's right, especially if the well-being of a person or animal is at stake. Society's punishments are small compared to the wounds we inflict on our soul when we look the other way. -Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.