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Well at least the generic Drano aka Hell-In-A-Jug is staying down far easier than the name brand ever did! I also don't have to worry about gagging on the extra salt chlorine taste with the generic brand. Not that it isn't there but it just doesn't taste as strong and it also seems to stay down without coming back up through my nose. UGGGG!
We had work come out just a WEE bit too early this morning. I assume they didn't realize I had treatment so was unaware 10am might be a bit too early to start breaking up concrete on the side of the house. I have come to realize you can't expect or assume that the world understands your medical journey. Especially if you don't speak up. This afternoon I finally decided to break down my own concrete wall and spoke to someone I have known for over eight years regarding my unique medical condition and situation. Let's just say I might share certain things or parts of my life on this blog but I still have details of my life I keep extremely private. I was always known in highschool as the gal you could tell a secret to and trust it would stay as such, "A secret." Now as an adult there are many times I want to be ME and not ME with Gastroparesis. What I have also became aware of is sometimes you can't be yourself minus a medical condition and you need to be both. It would be great to run from Gastroparesis but sadly each time I have tried it quickly found me. Hahahaha! Telling someone you have known for over eight years that your medical condition has changed and progressed since the first and last time they heard of anything can be a bit shocking for them. I saw it first hand today but you know what? It felt good to be upfront and honest regarding my unique situation as well explaining truthfully why me and my ex are no longer together. "When you get sick not everyone can handle or wants to be around it. I am not the first to have it happen nor the last but you live, learn and move on with life making sure to fill it with those who do care and want to help." I have come to realize maybe we both just really didn't know much about each other to start with because two very private people doesn't always make for a very public conversation. It was nice to talk as adults and work out our differences and I finally have a glimmer of hope once again that not all people are the same. Some do care and others don't. Its up for us as patients to decipher the difference between the two. Sometimes it won't happen right away but eventually over time even caterpillars show their true colors.
Me and my friend-Caregiver and the fur gang had a very nice, low key and relaxing Memorial Day. My friend has been serving in the Army for almost 15 years. He not only helps to protect America but also took on the roll to help me. He recently gave up a rank promotion so he could remain in the states to help me medically and continue providing assistance around the house. When people like him give up important things in life not because they were told but because he wanted to shows the utmost support and act of selflessness. If only the world had more people who cared without being asked then maybe it would be a better place. He will not be re-enlisting next year even though he is only five years away from retirement. Why you may ask? Because he said, "Who would take care of you?"
Thank you Eric for not just serving our great country but giving a huge part of your life in order to help me with mine.
A team of 3 is now down to a team of 2 as my surgery day comes a bit closer. We are looking into nurse home care options and a few amazing GP friends of mine are also looking into their schedules to see if they might be able to help. My dear friend Kevin who lives here said he would be more than willing to step up to the plate and help too! For now I am going to become like the Bears and hibernate in order to get myself back on track. Stress up here must go back down there. I only have one me and I only go around once in this lifetime. I can't lose anymore precious time for hope in others but instead must now believe in myself.
"Wisdom is knowing who deserves a second chance. Courage is knowing the next time will be the last." -Mark Amend