Now Playing: Day 707-The Final Road To Survival
Ever try to resolve an issue and work to move past it? Maybe I can't with my unique set of medical circumstances but I thought I could possible do so with people. Well today I thought wrong...
On top of dealing with non stop pain and my Gastroparesis I once again was faced with more unwanted and unnecessary stress. If anyone thinks adding stress onto anyone who is sick is OK I am here to say, "Its not." I will never get how anyone can find it fun to cause an abundance of mental and physical harm on someone who is clearly sick. Clearly some folks don't have a heart. I don't know how or why I put up with it but this evening I realized by saying, "It has to stop. Enough is quite enough."
I didn't get much sleep last night and tonight will be no exception. I once again couldn't get comfortable. I can't do treatment because of the pressure placed on my lower spine due to all the damage. Try sitting down whether alone on a toilet seat and making 24 hour bathroom trips after treatment-NOT. As per my specialists instructions today, "We will have to watch, wait and see on how your body responses over the next 48 hours." If things get worse its right back to the local ER.
If life is about learning then maybe I need to learn from today and not keep making the same mistakes. People can be the most cruel, mean, nasty and vindictive people only "IF YOU LET THEM." I have enough to deal with whether alone continuing to be someones punching bag so starting tomorrow I will refocus my attention to my health, myself and those who respect my condition and my over all well being.
This isn't going to be a fun next four weeks dealing with spinal trauma on top of my normal GP problems but where there is a will there is a way. I consider the last few days of stress a minor set back. Hey, it happens because life does involve both good and bad days. Per my doctors suggestions, "You must fill your life with a good support system not those who only want to bring you down." My friend Kevin said it and said it best, "If a sibling refuses to treat you like a normal human being and can't offer support then you need to quit trying. Why would anyone take any sibling constantly bullying and belittling another sibling especially when they are fully aware they are sick is just ridiculous." He always told me to never allow my condition to make me weak because I have always been a strong person. Kevin remembers my days working and traveling while hiding my illness. He has seen my determination with the situation because I kept trying but as he said, "You wouldn't put up with foul behavior from friends or strangers so why put up with it from a sibling? Because they are family and we always give family more than a few chances but their chances are up. Its time to move on."
There is always a reason for my blogs as many continue to contact me and say, "Thank you for keeping it real!" I sure hope if anything comes out of this one is that family doesn't desert family nor bully one member that is down. You build them back up over and over again. That is what support means. I hope the next time you are around a family, friend or loved one who is sick or suffers from any chronic or terminal condition you take time to show your support. They will not only remember you for it but it shows you have a heart, an example for others in life to hopefully follow.
"A Caregiver can be a licensed nurse, family member, loved one or friend. A Caregiver is a responsible party for the overall patients care which can involve medication assistance, preparing food, daily living activities, cleaning, house maintenance, doctor visits and protection of the patient. Caregivers also provide assistance with errands and psychological support to ensure the individual is comfortable. The Caregiver works with physicians in order to follow professional instructions. Most Caregivers become the patients listeners and will allow the individual to express their fears and concerns without being judgmental. A good Caregiver reassures the patient at all times, protects the patient and honors all advanced directives."