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Now Playing: Day 661-The Final Road To Survival
Wow! What a busy day!
It bites when you can't get to sleep then when you finally do you can't wake up but I'm getting used to it and sometimes it is what it is. I had taxes to finish doing today for a friend and a few family members then off to try and fix the wire mess behind the living room entertainment system.
Let's not go there on that one! Hahahaha! Let's just say Dish Network will be out tomorrow putting back together the mess that started while replacing the old entertainment centers and rearranging the living room. Hahahaha! I also had to run a few errands, mail out some forms for SSD Medicare, etc, etc, etc. This just wasn't the day to have any problems. That is until you wake up as you place your hand to your chest and ask yourself, "Is my heart still beating?"
Welcome to the world of Gastroparesis, MS and damaged nerves. At least I can say after the scare from you know where I am bit more conscience of how much Gatorade and electrolyte water I am now drinking. The low blood pressure and low blood sugar problems is the reason how I got dizzy and fell three weeks ago and suffered a concussion so at least I didn't get up right away and got smarter this time around! I was told by my Gastroenterologist last week I need to drink at least 1/2 to a full 32oz bottle a day. Its tough because I am hardly thirsty and seldom hungry. I don't have normal hunger pains like most people and since my nerves are all haywire the sensors from my brain don't work properly. Now I find myself having to do post it note reminders again through out the house. At least they serve a purpose which is to "DRINK! DRINK! DRINK!" 
I received the QMB forms to have the state pay for my added Medicare Part B coverage that I must now buy due to my not so wonderful insurance company named Medical Mutual making mandatory changes. Now Medicare will be my primary insurance company starting March 1st while Medical Mutual will only be paying up to 20% of all claims. In layman terms that means barely if anything. There are always things lurking right around the corner when one suffers from a chronic or terminal condition. Honestly I am lucky to now be used to it. Just part of the sick game. I don't sweat the big stuff anymore and instead do what needs to be done and do it quickly so I can move on with my life. Same with stress and drama. Been there. Done that. Not worth it so now I focus on me, my health and happiness. The fur gang couldn't agree more!
This evening I vowed to start working on court forms that need to be filled out, typed out and filed no later than the end of this month. I spent around three hours this evening pulling up and printing out so many requested papers that I almost ran out of a full ink cartridge. I also had to refill the paper three times. Crazy what the court system will request from you but no need to cry over spilled milk. I need to do what I need to do in order to move on with my life and finally be happy. Amen.
So in between a few head moments of pressure followed by nausea I pushed my way through and finished up a very productive day! Now its off to get my couchbed ready while Precious takes up the master bedroom. Is she spoiled or what?!
Tomorrow is Hell-In-A-Jug day so need I say more? Nope.
It's Super Bowl Sunday!
WELCOME TO THE NEW YEAR 2012! 



My Gastroenterologist has a file on me now the size of a encyclopedia. We all laugh and make light of it because sometimes no matter how bad life can gets it still requires laughter. She explained they are going to electronic filing via a computer system by the end of the year. I feel sorry for whoever has to put my files onto computer format. YIKES! My GI doctor only ran a bit behind today but otherwise hes always on time. I only waited around ten minutes before he came back in the room which was good because it was too nice of a day to sit in the doctors office. He hasn't seen my cane yet so its been quite awhile since my last visit. I had to cancel the past four appointments due to being sick. He was aware of my past emergency room visits however he wasn't regarding my concussion. We did go over MS and my other Gastroparesis complications. He told me to make sure I was aware there is no turning back with my unique medical situation. He also asked how I was mentally. I replied by saying, "I always do better knowing. No matter how bad the news its still important for me to know what I am facing that way I can accept things at face value. I don't do well when things are hidden from me." My doctor shook his head in agreeing.
My GI doctor altered a few medications which leaves me minus two now off my list of eight. I can still use peppermint oil at night on a piece of paper towel near my couchbed since I am not digesting it only inhaling it. He said, "I think you learned that after your last surgery when they used it to help your nausea." I told him I am on my second bottle and so far I feel it helps a bit at night when I am sleeping. The MS symptoms were there for quite awhile but agreed it takes time to put all the pieces together and although things haven't changed nor will change at least there is a name to put on the symptoms. Gastroparesis can sure cause all sorts of complications and other connected problems. I now fully believe once again anything is possible with GP. Expect the unexpected but as he said, "Don't expect it to get better. There is no turning back from here." I must take that information and now keep it to heart. If I want to go out on a good day and do something I will because I can't predict tomorrow.
This evening I finished putting up the new curtain rod and relaxed with the fur kids. They are the best and I don't know what I would do without all my buddies. 

We waited around ten minutes before my doctor came in the room. He is always nice in apologizing for the wait. I have been seeing him a bit over eight years now and he knows my unique medical case inside and out. Its a huge relief knowing I have complete trust and faith in my amazing team of specialists. He went over all of my current medications then we discussed all of the tests I had done at the hospital. I am still dealing with the post concussion syndrome which can linger for months. Since I already have other existing medical problems it will take me longer to fully recover than someone who doesn't have the same issues. Since I am now having at least 3-4 days of nausea and vomiting a week its quite obvious I am still dealing with the post concussion on top of my Gastroparesis. We also added a new word to the equation called: MS. I have been through various testing for MS through out the past year by my specialists. MS doesn't have a specific test but a range of tests that are done over a period of months to a year based on symptoms. I have been watched by my specialists for over a year now and I have displayed every symptom minus one. Vagus nerve lesions can also be a sign of MS. I guess we all learn something new everyday. All these head issues finally all make sense as well my immune system doing some quite odd things over the past three years. I started having seizure problems almost four years ago and I always thought there was a possibility over the years I might end up with Parkinson's as a complication due to my Idiopathic Gastroparesis. Strange enough I really didn't think of MS as a complication from my Gastroparesis but I wasn't that educated as well on it. Like I said, we all learn something new every day. For now my doctors goal is to get the head issues and flair ups under control. This means taking lots of medication that this gal isn't used to. I went from two to eight. I have a list now to follow while doing my best keeping up with everything. They still need to run blood work time to time seeing where my immune system is and how close I am of putting the flair ups to sleep.
After a very informative appointment I was once again reminded by my doctor that he can't fix me. He can't cure me. No one can. What they can do is their best to help ease symptoms this way the flair-ups can subside hopefully a bit quicker! I told him as long as he can put a temporary bandaid on and allow me a few days of freedom a week I am happy! The post concussion syndrome from the concussion will have to ride itself out. I know my limits as well when its safe to or not to drive. If I run into problems I must pick up the phone and call someone to come get me and my car. So its another part of life I need to work on by altering things a bit but its not like I haven't done it before. Its all in your attitude. Attitude can make or break you.


I woke up around 10am after going to bed around 4am. I had the worst headache with nausea as soon as I laid down on my couchbed. Once 10am hit the darn sun started coming through the towels hanging over the curtains which fired my head pressure right back up again. By 10:30am I started having tremors in my legs then a seizure came on. Seizures are scary no matter when they strike or how bad the intensity. I do my best not to panic which can only prolong the seizure and make it far worse. Forget trying to pick up a phone and call someone. Hahahaha! NICE TRY but NOT happening! During a seizure that is the last thing you are thinking about and your only concern is holding on for dear life and praying the son of a gun gets over with soon! I also worry if I will wake up and not know where the heck I am at. That has only happened once when my ex lived at the house. It was scary waking up not knowing where you are or who is sitting next to you. Never ask a person questions during a seizure because we can't talk.
The worst part of today was having two seizures within an hour apart from each other. The second one is always the real kicker because it makes your entire body sore and its hard to move your arms and legs.Your face also goes numb. This time at least someone was over the house when it came on and noticed my body shaking under the couchbed covers. I am very fortunate I came out of that one with no ramifications. Afterwards I was exhausted but too scared to go back to sleep. Thank you Mr. Valium for doing the trick within 15 minutes. WHEW!

Once me and my friend got up around 2:30pm we thought maybe Pumpkin kitty got ahold of some Drano of his own! WOW! What a MESS! It has to be the medication and for now I will be holding off on it for a few days. Mostly for his sake but also my friend said for his too! Hahahaha! Talking about POO-POO Kitty! He left a mess from one end of the house to another. We were both shocked! This new shampooer machine already paid for itself ten fold!
After cleaning up the last of the mess it took us over two hours. Nothing like waking up to that kind of nightmare. It wasn't too smart of an idea for me to keep bending and stooping because once this evening hit the head pressure started getting the best of me then quickly followed by waves of nausea and vomiting. One step ahead and now two steps back. At least I see my specialist Tuesday and after getting an email regarding my three hospital visits I have a few questions about my tests and cat scan. I realize that sometimes our doctors feel things are best left unsaid in fear that maybe the patient has enough on their plate already to deal with however...I do better 'knowing.' Guess I will find out more come next week at the appointment.
Wow! February is less than a week away! Valentine's Day is not too far behind either so that means only one thing: CHOCOLATE! YUMMY! For now I will settle on the beautiful flowers I got this week that make the living room smell like spring. I would rather smell it in flowers than having it early like today's temperatures. Just nuts! One good thing about being stuck at home recovering is I don't have to worry about being out in public catching all the viruses going around. Amen. Littleblue and Oreo are sporting their new Valentine heart bandannas. They are too cute!
