Mood:  down

What's a DraCussion?

Seems lately I am creating my own words...

Its when you have to endure Drano while having a concussion.

This would be a very, very bad day and if I woke up irritable just add ten times that when I learned I still have to do treatment. Of course things had to go through my specialists but was told this afternoon that they don't need any additional problems and take the concussion very seriously. I told them I honestly just want to rest in a nice quiet and dark room. Although I don't need a bowel obstruction going on either they felt it was safe for me to do half of the treatment today then finish the rest tomorrow. GEES! So after a horrible night of rest and waking up feeling worse than yesterday I had to motivate myself enough to get the hellish jug of liquid dynamite together. I figured the sooner I finish treatment the better off I will be!

Oreo has been laying around most of the day. I am sure he probably also has a headache.

 My friend found this little bit of information online regarding a concussion:

"A concussion may result when the head hits an object or a moving object strikes the head."

He then said, "Looks like you got hit with a double whammy! A sitting and moving object all at once."

FUNNY GUY! FUNNNNNNYYYY GUY!

OK. I did want to laugh but I am in too much pain so instead I just shot him a look. Hahahaha! I am used to keeping busy even during the ole Hell-In-A-Jug treatments so this time around was a bit trying. I also have to cancel and once again reschedule my Gastroenterologist appointment because I am not to be out driving. The hospital doctor said, "If you endure another concussion while healing from the first one it can cause brain swelling and even death." OK. Need not say more. I will stay home and find things to do occupying my time. For now the only thing I am occupying tonight is the bathroom from the darn Drano, my couchbed in between the bathroom trips and the ice packs placed over my face and head.

My friend has officially taken over computer duties and cleaning chores around the house. I am already going nuts and this is day #1. I want to watch TV but the light and sound hurts so I did my best to adjust the settings and brightness. Vomiting that came on late night didn't help and who knows if its from my GP or the concussion. My doctors will be in touch during the healing process. If I need anything my friend can just give them a call. Its a huge sense of relief knowing I have a great team of doctors and specialists. When bad things and unforeseen circumstances happen is when you realize those who truly care. 

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 10:32 PM EST

Updated: January 17, 2012 11:12 PM EST

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Mood:  down

One can never predict day to day nor hour to hour living with Gastroparesis. Since Gastroparesis causes severe nerve damage it can affect anything. Including your blood pressure and blood sugar levels. Today I got a grim reminder just how severe Gastroparesis truly is and how much worse the condition can progress leaving one vulnerable for anything.

Luckily starting today I now have help from a few great friends updating my blog just long enough until my brain recovers. This comes after the unthinkable happening this afternoon. I should had joined Pumpkin and just lounged around all day. Instead it was time to do my Drano aka Hell-In-A-Jug treatment. I got up and started putting away my couchbed blankets and pillows. Everything 'seemed' A-OK until I felt myself getting dizzy then the last thing I remembered was losing my balance hitting the right side of my face and head on a wooden side table then seeing white. It felt like I broke my teeth then I heard a glass shattering noise in my head. What I realize now after almost blacking out was my blood pressure and blood sugar were low and with the table being within my reach I held onto something that wasn't stable. At the same time poor Oreo was jumping mid air onto the couch next to the table. I made a collision between a hard 50 pound fur pup's skull and a wooden table. I saw stars and went down. Within I felt was a few seconds I looked around the room and felt blood coming out of my nose. I reached back for the couch as Oreo sat next to me. I remember hearing my friend in the kitchen but I was still dazed and confused so it took me five minutes to just say their name. Once they came into the living room my friend panicked asking what the heck happened then ran to get some tissues for my nose. It was a funny story 'I thought' at the time but I was the only one laughing.

Later on as the day progressed I felt burning in my face and head. I also couldn't keep my balance. I couldn't breathe out of the right side of my nose either. The headache was horrible but dumb me kept moving around pretending like everything was OK. I did fine until around 6pm. Almost four hours after the fall my friend thought it was a good idea I get checked out. I refused to go to the hospital seeing I am so tired of emergency rooms and even with insurance its just too darn expensive. I agreed to be seen by the Urgent Care center down the street by my house. My friend was concerned because the right side of my face was becoming more swollen. I was also getting very tired which is unusual for me seeing it was only 6:30pm. Once we arrived at Urgent Care there were only two people ahead of us so we got back into a room within 15 minutes. The doctor was very concerned although he didn't want to push on my nose, face or head. He had me do some tests on my balance as well questions to see neurologically where I was at since hitting the table and Oreo's skull. Instead of just finding out if I had a broken nose I was told I needed to go to the nearest emergency room because he said, "There is something clearly going on neurologically with your brain."

My friend began to panic but I remained calm because all I wanted to do was go home, get some ice and lay down. Instead I was told the opposite which was not to use ice or lay down. So from a quick Urgent Care visit we headed up to the hospital. The doctor at the Urgent Care center had already placed a call with the hospital and faxed over the report and exam. We only waited around ten minutes then was quickly sent back to a room. The nurse came in and took my vitals then the doctor-Neurologist came back to see me. After tests and going over everything the reason I was so tired, confused, dizzy, burning and having ear pressure with a horrible headache was because I have a concussion. YIKES! I must had hit the wooden table on the corner so its no wonder my nose is swollen and feels like bone protruding. I also hit that side of my head on a 50 pound fur kids skull as he was jumping mid air then hit my right ear with both his skull and table. I am lucky she said it wasn't worse because some people with low blood pressure and low blood sugar problems black out then go into a coma. DOUBLE YIKES! Instead I realized I was blacking out because I got dizzy super fast so I reached for an unsteady table and Oreo in the wrong place at the wrong time. Oreo is fine, my friend did check on him after we got my nose bleeding under control. With my concussion it will take 2 weeks before I can resume a bit of normal activity. 4-6 weeks for the bruised part of my brain to fully recover. The nose swelling will go down in time and then I need to see my ENT specialist so they can take a look to make sure its only a fracture and not a break.

After a few hours the doctor came back in to go over the treatment plan. She made sure that I understood things will get worse before they start getting better and not to be alarmed if I continue feeling dizzy, off balance and over all just not feeling well. Its normal she said to be very tired and its ok to sleep because it will help my brain to recover. The doctor explained that the first 24 hours are the most serious and when complications can occur so she went over with my friend the symptoms and signs to look for and when to head back to the hospital. They wanted to start a good pain management treatment however my Idiopathic Gastroparesis doesn't leave much room for medication that can cause further GI problems so instead the doctor ordered anti inflammatory drugs. Before being released they made sure my blood pressure and blood sugar levels were in a safer range than we could head home.

My head, ear, nose and face were throbbing!  Completely different than a migraine or normal headache. If anything today, I quickly learned that I need to be careful and more aware of my sugar and blood pressure readings. I failed to take my blood sugar and blood pressure once I woke up this afternoon. A poor decision on my behalf but if I was to learn the hard way I sure did today!

I hope this month isn't a warning of a bad year to come. Amen.

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 11:59 PM EST

Updated: January 17, 2012 10:24 PM EST

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Mood:  celebratory

I'm feeling a bit Jersitaly this week!

While taking a peaceful scenic drive the other day we came upon a house that surely represents true Italy at its best! How neat is that?!! I just had to stop and take a photo!

My other run in with Jersitaly this week came in the form of a DVD I purchased online. I have ordered from Amazon.com quite a few times even during the holidays purchasing a few gifts. I have never had any problems and always received my orders within a week. Of course the one time I am REALLY looking forward to getting something in the mail is the first time I run into a defective order. GEES! I have only heard of one other person who told me about a DVD they got as a birthday gift and the disc ended up being blank. It does happen, although I am sure its very rare. Just call me the second person to win the defective DVD lottery. WHOAHOA! I love the show 'Mob Wives' and once my friend heard the first season was available on disc we both decided to go in on a copy. Amazon as well VH1.com had them for sale but I figured since I have already ordered from Amazon and never had any problems why not save myself a few dollars.

What I ended up doing instead is going back and forth with the seller on how to return the defective product. I even suggested they contact the company where it was purchased from seeing that is information that any company would want to know. If there is one surely at least a few other defects are also roaming around the great USA. I even tried the discs on three different video players but they came up blank and wouldn't even read. After four days I am still waiting on information to send back the return to the seller but so far no luck. I might just end up eating this purchase. Go figure! Although sellers just like Ebay have buyer feedback I am hoping to hear back from the seller on my return by early next week so I can buy a replacement. Maybe I need to just contact the 'Mob Wives' so I get this quickly resolved instead of Amazon. Hahahahaha! OK. That was FUNNY!

I vowed after dealing with a tremendous amount of stress going on in my life that I do whatever it takes to put an end to it. So far I am working on the first day of feeling like I can breathe again. It felt great! I set my cell phone alarm for 12:30pm. I didn't sleep too well in between Oreo having a seizure and me getting sick. I can't predict the vomiting any more than Oreo can predict his seizures. With my back not giving me much of a break either I still was determined as ever to get out and visit a bit of Jersey.

I tried to make contact with this individuals management company a few months ago but no luck.  With seven years of experience under my belt I have found the best way to approach someone in the spotlight is to meet them one on one or when the opportunity arises. I have yet to meet anyone who didn't want to take the time learning about the Gastroparesis Awareness Campaign mission. When others just hear the word, 'Gastroparesis' they always have the same concerned and confused facial expressions. The Gastroparesis Awareness Campaign was never about money. Our hard working tax dollars is where the government gets the funds for research not from incorporated organizations. The majority of organizations out there now work the same as any other company. Non-profit sadly doesn't exist anymore. People are more willing to help and work with someone if you just be yourself without asking them to open their wallets.

People respect people who are true, sincere and genuine. At the end of the day I always treated everyone I have met over the years the same as I would treat any other well respected person. If you take the title away a person is the same as you and me. I am blessed for the overwhelming support from many celebrities and others in the spotlight. Those who are willing to help the Gastroparesis Awareness Campaign team in raising Gastroparesis Awareness and helping the public by educating others on this debilitating GI dysmotility condition.

I didn't forget about my back fractures today. I didn't forget about vomiting. I didn't forget about what little energy my body has nor additional weight loss. The most important thing I didn't forget was millions of other Gastroparesis patients around the world who too suffer on a daily basis and the power of awareness! It didn't matter if I had to crawl to my destination today. My passion is still alive and I will continue fighting hard in what I believe in. A Gastroparesis cure and saving lives.

Yes, it was indeed a very successful Jersitaly day!

CHEERS!

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 11:59 PM EST

Updated: January 16, 2012 2:11 AM EST

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Mood:  celebratory

If one gets sick the entire gang get sick.

First it was Jingles puppy who I found out was born one sick little guy so I made sure he got the care he needed in order to get better. Next Oreo and then Littleblue ended up catching the same viruses from Jingles puppy so they had to be checked by my veterinarian and then placed on medication. Now it seems the poor kittygang all caught the exact same respiratory/head virus. GEES! It started first with Precious kitty then it went to Pumpkin and now Cuddles. Bear kitty seems so far to only have the head part with his eyes watering so I have to clean them with warm water twice a day. I figured it might be a very good idea to have one of them checked out by my veterinarian because the virus can be passed around the fur kids over and over again.

Pumpkin is the easiest and most laid back when it comes to car rides and doctor visits. He doesn't enjoy them but tolerates them! Hahahaha! Sure, he talks to you while your driving until you reach the clinic door. Once the veterinarian places a hand near him he turns into a SCARY Halloween kitty! YIKES! He was actually pretty good today but did give a few warning meows and hisses to the veterinarian. Seems the same viruses are still lurking around the house. Now the kittygang are passing things around so instead of bringing them all up my veterinarian are treating them all at once with two rounds of medication. No need she said to have them checked because the virus is airborne. Its inevitable and they will all sooner or later catch it. So after we drove back home and dropped Pumpkin off we headed to Walmart to get their prescriptions filled. At the same time Walgreen's called to give a heads up that my insurance and the company who makes my Drano treatments are flagging their concerns with me drinking the jug on a weekly basis due to unforeseen side effects as well long term. I can't tell you how many times this has happened and my GI doctor has sent them numerous letters and reports on the necessity of the medication but once again we have problems. Now instead of my medication being a $20.00 copay it is now $100.00!

Yes, the GP fun just never ends does it? I asked Walmart since I was already there getting the kittygangs prescriptions how much the Trilyte would be for me on a weekly basis. The best they could do is $42.00 so that is far better than $100.00 but my GI doctor will still need to write another letter to the drug manufacturer as well my insurance company next week. Since this will be a new pharmacy I am using the pharmacist was shocked on the amount of Drano aka Hell-In-A-Jug I must consume on a weekly basis in order to keep my body from becoming toxic. He was quite taken back and had never heard of Gastroparesis nor the intestines becoming paralyzed from severe nerve damage. He has heard of those who have other medical conditions involving the intestines but he said they get a colostomy bag but never heard of those who don't have that option so gravity and the force of a dynamite jug must clear them out in order to stay out of trouble. He had never heard of Gastroparesis but does now including the rest of the pharmacy staff. Hahahahaha! They were also shocked of the long list of drugs I am allergic to due to the inability to break down and properly absorb medication.

Can you imagine the faces of other customers next week when I pick up my Santa sack of Drano goodies? OH MY! Hahaha! They don't carry more than a few at a time so he had to place my order directly from the pharmaceutical company. I do have one jug of Drano left at home to hold me over. I will be drinking that jug of salt water nasty stuff Sunday or Monday. It once again just all depends what my body tells me. If I can't sleep the night prior or going through any stress I must hold off treatment due to the cardiac effects it can cause.

So thanks to a late Xmas gift tonight at least I was able to place my thoughts away from the Drano and welcomed a new shampooer! WHOAHOA!! Ever seen someone this happy to have a new shampooer? If you haven't you sure have now! Hahahaha! I get just as excited with a new vacuum. No wonder I have four of them including one in the garage. It doesn't matter if I am sick, I will always be a neat freak. Wheelchair bound later down the road? No problem! I am sure you will still see me vacuuming away. Hahahaha!

Tomorrow I have plans set in stone. Yes stone! Word has it there is someone I have been trying to make contact with a few months ago on behalf of the Gastroparesis Awareness mission via their management company but was unsuccessful seeing they were on the road traveling. So lets just I say I got the green light and tomorrow I am just praying my GP doesn't let me down so I can come home with some great news! I need some good news in my life. I had enough of bad news for the rest of this year and every year after! I feel the winds of change coming and it can't come at a better time. A friend told me today, "Things can't be at a slow pace with you and if change is here I promise it will be all at once and so far I am right. Be ready for some fast changes over the next few months." You know what? They are right! I can't be worried about others anymore in this city. I have to continue looking ahead and never look back. Take the important lessons I have learned and move on.

 "I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I'd just been myself."

Here's to keeping the great Gastroparesis Awareness mission alive in honor of those who inspire me and make me a better person!

Eliana-Idiopathic Gastroparesis patient

Thank you to Eliana and her wonderful Mother Andrea who has also been a beloved and dear friend. Together we will face the GP road with strength and determination! Amen.

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 11:59 PM EST

Updated: January 15, 2012 2:10 AM EST

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Mood:  amorous

What a week! What a day, but another productive one at that! Unfortunately all good things must come to an end as I am closing in on another Drano treatment weekend. UGGG!

It was a great day as I once again was able to put out another fire. Nothing more self gratifying than relieving stress. GP and stress just doesn't mix. It starts causing my insides severe inflammation. Last thing we need as Gastroparesis patients. I am now taking the time needed to live a safer and happier life for me and my beloved fur kids.

I got quite a few offline emails regarding the situation a week ago with the attempted assault. There were quite a few outraged individuals who aren't just GP patients but others who suffer from various conditions as well those in the legal and medical field. Like myself, they take it very seriously knowing someone would attempt to be violent towards anyone who is sick. If I lost my backbone over the years I quickly found it and thank you to those who support the act of self defense in order to keep safe. Its not like me to take such extremes but I have yet to deal with someone so intoxicated as to come after me and try to force themselves into my home in a rage. I have quickly learned from that one night of experience that you can't wait until its too late. I am lucky she was unable to get into my home. I can only imagine what 'if' she did. For now I am doing just fine and I am confident enough to learn from the experience in what to and not to do. Thank you everyone for your amazing support and being my rock!

This evening I put together a letter on behalf of a family who has a daughter suffering from Gastroparesis. Her name is Brittney and she is 12 years old. Her family asked for my help in contacting one of the Gastroparesis Awareness Campaign spokespeople. I take what I do helping others who suffer from Gastroparesis very, very seriously. It has been my passion for many years. Lately that passion has sadly had to take a back seat due to personal issues that have created a lot of stress for myself. After sitting down tonight in the GP room filled with many reminders of why maybe I have been blessed to live almost nine years with a terminal condition called Gastroparesis I vowed to refocus my attention to the cause. It helps me to help others and I enjoy all the wonderful emails and letters from fellow GP patients as well their family, friends and loved ones. I now realize my true calling and it was nice to start my focus again this evening on bringing a smile to a young patient by the name of Brittney.

I am going to share some photos and story of an amazing and quite talented young girl who enjoys baking and visiting the local pet stores. I see so much of myself in Brittney's story and the love for the furry ones. It breaks my heart to read her suffering by the hands of Gastroparesis. I can only pray my mission allows for one day a cure for those like Brittney as well many other GP patients. Amen.

My daughter Brittney is 12 years old and suffers from Gastroparesis. Brittney has been through a great deal in the past 15 months. She has suffered greatly with this illness. At first, we thought she was making it up or was just a worrier suffering from anxiety. But after losing 17lbs and not being able to eat anything at all, we started to get very concerned. She was looking very ill and seemed to be getting depressed. Then when she completely stopped gaining weight, she also stopped growing. She was suffering daily with nausea, abdominal pain, vomiting and insomnia. She was eating very few foods because there are so many foods that upset her system.

It has been a long, hard struggle not only for my daughter but also for the entire family. She was a completely normal child that never missed more than 1-2 days of school a year. She has missed over five months now with Gastroparesis. I have great sympathy for anyone who has this after going through everything with Brittney. It is hard to accept that you will never have a normal child again and it will become a daily struggle for the rest of their life.

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 11:55 PM EST

Updated: January 14, 2012 2:33 AM EST

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Mood:  celebratory

Nothing quite like the magical feeling waking up to see SNOW! B E A U T I F U L SNOW! GLORIOUS SNOW! Wonderful S N O W! I just knew it was going to be an amazing day!

It's also been a very productive day! I was able to actually put out two fires that had been burning the last few weeks. It felt GREAT! I did it also while keeping my jets cool, calm and collected! Now I have just two more fires to go! WHOAHOA! Ok...well maybe three just depends on how seriously some people take me when I say I have boundaries and they must be respected just like I respect those of others.

I also learned something new today seeing you are never too old in life to learn. What I learned after talking to my local county domestic division is what you are and are NOT suppose to do when vacating a property or shared property with an ex. Every state is different when it comes to the law and every county is also unique. Such as...I wasn't aware that you must have in writing each piece of property that belongs to both spouses that was agreed upon before vacating. This also includes children or pets unless they are in immediate danger or sick. Additional change in their environment could result in more physical harm unless both parties agree such as a verbal or written agreement. This is until a court decides otherwise. The truth holds the same for shared property this includes all assets, bank accounts, credit cards, etc. I am not dumb and wise enough to keep my mouth shut for now and not overstep the law when it comes to not going by the court rules. What you are 'suppose' to do when one spouse moves or decides to end the marriage is to first file a legal separation. This allows both parties to fairly divide things as agreed upon then is placed on legal record until one or the other files the final steps of divorce. Unless you wear the robe never try to be the judge. WHEW! Thanks but no thanks luckily 'I' know better!

Sadly due to Oreo still having seizure problems he can not be around Jingles puppy right now. It was decided upon by both veterinarians this past week and put in writing. It is for both their safety since Oreo is scared after having tremors and seizures so he isn't himself. He can't help being sick but for now Oreo must be kept in a quiet, comfortable setting here at home where he is used to his surroundings. Any sudden change for now could kill him and that's the last thing I want on earth nor to create more stress and fear for him. The new medication he was placed on is only to be used 'as needed.' Since Oreo can't speak I do my best to judge things by how he is behaving or his actions. Jingles is such a energetic puppy that Oreo gets very nervous around him so maybe later down the road when Jingles gets a little bigger and older they can reunite. For now Oreo enjoys relaxing and taking it easy on the couch near my own couchbed listening to instrumentals or spa music on satellite TV. Honestly I always used to listen to light jazz or swing tunes but I also enjoy this new super relaxing music too! With all the madness that has been going on lately my nerves have been shot so until things ease up one step at a time I will take anything that helps me to R E L A X...

This evening I had a not so wonderful migraine come on with the darn tremors and vertigo. With the weather doing such a rapid change I am sure its not helping as my immune system struggles to adapt. Luckily I still have my horse blinder glasses so I put them on and grabbed my ice pack then took a short one hour nap. I try my best not to take medication unless I am screaming mercy! So far so good and I will just have to take things one step at a time. I have yet to find any permanent relief for my intestinal ulcers. Seems the darn Drano just makes the burning ten times worse so for now I am breaking up my treatments through out the week to see if that might help a bit. If not I won't have a choice but to chug the jug straight up! YIKES! I see my Gastroenterologist next week so not too far away. I am also due to have my dentist check my teeth seeing between Idiopathic Gastroparesis and the darn Hell-In-A-Jug treatments I am lucky to still have teeth. Same with the hair today, gone tomorrow but such as life and I will be just fine. Although somewhere later on down the road I might just have to gum my way through Slimfast. Hahahaha!

I'd like to close this evenings blog with a little song I like to dedicate to my crazy GP life. It's an oldie but OH such a GOODY! ENJOY!

HIT IT FRANK!

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life that's full.
I've traveled each and ev'ry highway;
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, I've had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
"No, oh no not me,
I did it my way".

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
AND DID IT MYYYYYYYYYYYYYY WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 11:59 PM EST

Updated: January 13, 2012 1:45 AM EST

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Mood:  celebratory

With all the non-stop stress I am happy to say sorry folks who like to bring me down but guess what? I'm still ALIVE! WHOAHOA!

I should had been a Navy Seal. Heck! So far it seems I am already in training. Prepare for battle! Been there. Doing that. Hahahaha! So one might wonder how my spirits are still up even with all the crap going on around me. God loves a fighter and he sure does love me! We all have a purpose here on earth and let's just say my job is far from done. Amen.

After going to the county courthouse and receiving all the necessary paperwork to file a civil protection order against my ex's sibling I decided to take a day to reflect on everything. To go over the entire situation. It also gave me time to speak to the judge's magistrate and assistant. Today I spoke to the local and county Sheriff's department regarding the attempted assault. 'Attempted' because I wasn't under the influence of anything unlike his sibling who was under the influence of quite a few things. I won't be allowing anyone to ever again try to force their way into my property after being asked numerous times to leave. What I found out was I have been able to protect myself, my life and my fur kids over several times now. 

It's called the act of "Self Defense."

You don't have to be assaulted in order to protect yourself. Verbal assault which puts a person in fear of their life also allows you to protect yourself. No one gets arrested for protecting themselves and with a prior incident report a page long let's just say that soon to be EX Sister In Law is extremely lucky! After the county looked into this individuals background a bit further it certainly explained how my ex ended up with all their drug and alcohol addiction problems. They learned the behavior as well the violent temper first hand from their own family. I honestly am still a bit shocked and taken back finding out all the repeated history of arrests. One should learn from their past mistakes and grow up to be a better person not create a longer rap sheet like his sibling. To make a long story short I tend to believe his siblings actions will not be the first nor the last. I might have my local and county departments behind me but for now at least I am 100% educated on my rights to defend and protect my life as well my beloved fur kids.

SAY HELLO TO MY LITTLE COLORFUL FRIENDS!

I like to call my little friends M O P. I won't tell you what the initials stand for, I rather you guess but certain you can figure it out. When you are sick and in no position to be lunged at nor threatened with violence you have to get some type of support and back up. Have a game plan. Sure wish I had both prior to last weekends ridiculous act of someone being way out of control and NUTS! Being told by the law and the court system that regardless the scenario and you are sick as well injured you need to do what you need to do to protect yourself. Period. I couldn't agree with them more and honestly I have had just about enough, no wait! I HAVE HAD ENOUGH of walking on egg shells. No one should have to live a life of fear due to some nut job extended family member nor an addict who mind you will never be clean or sober. They just lead everyone to believe they are for the sake of once again manipulating. Those who fall for the stories are just as if not more foolish looking than the addict.

Now I have my own personal stash of M O P S because one can never be too prepared to protect themselves. Amen. Miss pink M O P stays by my side indoors while her cousin blue M O P stays in another location and their cousin dark blue M O P in a special secret hiding spot. A dear friend of mine was very, very proud of me today for taking action and finally saying NO to being a door mat for violent and aggressive behavior. They have recently taught their own son about sticking up for themselves after being picked on by a bully at school. He said, "You can just never be too certain with people in this world. There are a lot of nuts out there and you always have the right to protect yourself when you are being threatened. This also goes for children because as parents we can't always be there for them." As a very concerned Father he has no problems confronting the school nor the bully's parents but at the same time let's just say his son finally stuck up for himself and justice was served!

It's a very long process going through the court system these days seeing most are just too overwhelmed to handle cases. You might wait days or even weeks before justice is even served. In my decision to become my own form of justice I eliminated the trips back and forth to the county court house as well wasting precious and valuable time. Something I won't be wasting on some raging idiotic lunatic soon to be ex Sister in law with a long history of  breaking the law. Amen. Now if she comes near me again and decides to be brave or feeling a bit lucky that day I promise you I won't be sitting back and taking it. I might be sick but I am not without strength and I am far from stupid.

Fear nothing. Fear no one.

So for now I told the judge's office I will hold onto the paperwork but at the same time I will do what needs to be done in the name of self defense. They agreed as well the local and county Sheriff's department. 'If' and that's a huge 'if' this happens again the individual or individuals will be arrested on the spot. It will be the last and final incident report that will be taken. Guess we all run out of the 'Get Out Of Jail Free' passes sooner or later. Back fractures or not I refuse to ever again live in fear.

Today has been a pretty low key mellow day as I continue making necessary changes placing lines in the sand. I have boundaries and they must now be respected. I will take nothing less. I have suffered far enough medically and I have suffered far more by others off the wall behavior. If those seek the help they need to educate themselves on my condition and how to support me I have no problem allowing them back into my life but you can't change people. Its up to those to 'want' to change. For now I will be alright and just fine taking care of me, myself and I along with my fur gang. No one said Gastroparesis was easy but WOW! no one told me it would be this tough dealing with stress created by others on top of being sick either. WHEW!

CHEERS TO THE POWER OF ONE! If I can make it and survived this long by golly anyone can do it! AMEN!

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 10:43 PM EST

Updated: January 12, 2012 12:15 AM EST

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Mood:  chillin'

FINALLY! I can relax and sit back on my couchbed and blog! You have no idea how much I now look forward to blogging! You know why? I am finding it an amazing way to vent and de-stress...It's also a very helpful way for me to keep up with my progress whether it be medically or personally. I also enjoy writing! Its liberating being able to literally throw myself into something besides a dentist chair. Hahahaha!

Speaking of throwing yourself into a chair!...

I like to call this little part of my blog the "Oprah Couch Session." Call it coming clean if you will of any questions out there in my city regarding my health or other false information being thrown out for the world to see or hear. If you can't hear it from the horses mouth then why take it from its tail end? Hahahaha! Just call me "KimEd!" So here we go. I am going to take these one at a time so there are no further false rumors out there to make me roll in my grave later down on the road. We are talking much, much later down the road of course!...I also would rather set the record straight now than later because I honestly have had my limit of stress as my final boundaries are set in the sand.

So if you haven't read it here coming directly from me and you are hearing it via a third party then guess what folks? It isn't true and sorry but you have been dooped. Ready? I am.

1. When a 'friend' contacts you on emails or information which was private information based off of feelings then turns around and back-stabs you sharing private emails then maybe this isn't a friend to start with but a drama starter. Funny how a 'friend' would play both sides isn't it? When the emails are based off my feelings of non-support and 'feeling' abandoned then guess what? Those are 'my' feelings and I am entitled to such without being thrown stones.
2. I have done my best to make contact with friends from my past on a few occasions. The same friends who left me high and dry once I got sick and diagnosed with Gastroparesis. Let's just say after trying more than a few times and giving information they request but in turn still not contacting me then I got the 'hint' maybe they were just using it the same way as saying 'hi!' to someone out in public. Small talk if you will but honestly no resentment or bad feelings because I extended a second hand out and if its not given back at least at the end of the day I can say I tried.
3. I am not on a list of medication as some say out in the city. I take my Drano treatments when I am not under stress and one nausea medication as needed. Tums (occasionally) for acid and Beltonna for intestinal ulcers which didn't work so that leaves me with three medications. Not sure where some think I am taking pain meds or a list of other prescriptions?. I don't even take seizure medication because mine are due to the vagus nerve damage associated with my GP so they didn't work and when I did I was only on them for a week at a time just long enough for my doctors to say, "NEXT!"  Come on now. You are accusing someone who lives and will be prior 'lived' with a drug addict. Its scary enough seeing someone become Jekyll and Hyde when a pin drops so why in the world would I want to take any medication to start with? Sure, my doctors are very compassionate and rightfully so with my terminal condition but as I tell them and I am telling you now I REFUSE to take any pain medication. I would rather suffer with the pain and deal with it. Guess what? I have and I still do. Do you count holistic Peppermint Oil as a drug too? If so I guess I am guilty of applying it on a piece of paper towel at night to help ease nausea by breathing it in. No. You can't get high off of it either so might as well shoot that rumor down too if it tries to surface. Hahaha! Medication case closed.
4. Doctors, specialists, surgeons, etc can NOT disclose or share any personal information of a patients by law. This includes even if you pay them to be your doctor at your business. They can get sued and their license taken away. Let's just say any specialist who has only seen you two to three times has absolutely no clue about your own 'unique' condition unless they have at least treated you for over a year as well have any and all prior records from all your specialists. My team of 16 specialists whom all treat at least one organ not to forget my dentist who cares for my teeth that makes 17 have been seeing me as their patient for over 8 years now. That makes them experts in knowing my 'unique' medical condition. They are a team and work together as a team to give me the highest quality of care available. My friend has been attending various appointments for quite sometime as well my ex did too so let's just say specialists are not dumb. They can see through things and when it is extremely important for a patient in my case to have support its in the records. Records and emergency room visits speak for themselves as well when my ex had attitude and was hungry so wanted to leave and rush the treating doctor. Or when my ex told my doctors about the lack of support he saw for years or by telling me I couldn't be at home when my condition deteriorates due to 'some' would place me in a nursing home or care facility. That didn't go over so well! Same goes for questions that are or aren't being asked. One should also be an expect at my condition if they are supporting me and are first of all around me enough to even know about Gastroparesis. You can read about a medical condition online all you want but each patient based on the severity and connected problems are going to be different. Like I said and will say it again, "Unless you are here with me and have been at the doctors appointments with me let the doctors play doctor and try not to have a doctor badge on without the degree." When those who go with me at my appointments are telling someone facts its because they are real facts. Anything else, coming from anyone else is just made up crap. If you believe it then get out of my Oprah audience because you clearly belong on the Jerry Springer show. No, my prior medical conditions of having a reaction to a herbal supplement 11 years ago with a temporary superficial clot in my left arm, etc doesn't qualify for having Gastroparesis. My specialists as well clinics who had all my files went over everything. Been there. Done that. No connections. If only it was that easy to figure out the great GP mystery! As far as my brain? Ask any of my doctors how smart I am or better yet ask friends who know me now or better yet I know! Ask SSD health professionals whom stated at my hearing that I am intelligent enough to hold two master degrees but sadly my body is in in no shape to hold any job. My two Neurologists told my ex, "Do you know how smart your wife is? Look here! Look at her brain on these tests and scans! See that? I know she's smart, she's got a great looking brain!" My other specialists always remark by saying, "I don't need to tell you everything, you are highly intelligent and smart enough you can figure it out and usually do before I can."  If having 'feeling's and venting them instead of holding them in then later blowing up makes you stupid and questions your cognitive health then I must be the dumbest person around! Hahahaha! Give me a break!
5. Was I dumb to put up with crap living with an addict? Yes. Did I give out too many "I forgive you cards?" Yep. Guilty as charged. Did I try to put a stop to things solo and without help from others who also got the wrath of the addictions? Yes. You can't win a war without your troops. I tried and tried my darnest but I got no where fast. Those who think enabling someones addictions will make the person stop are crazy! They look worse than the addict. Remember the addict has it easy, their actions even sober may never affect them. Its the innocent people who have to live with it that suffer ten fold. My GREAT and I will say GREAT Psychologist treated addicts on the side for a very long time and he stopped doing so and will not treat any addicts again. You know why? Because of the damage addicts do to everyone around them. If you want the best and highest quality of advice on the what to do or not to do for someone who has addictions talk to someone who treats or has treated them for over 15 years. Amen. How anyone can sympathize with an addict who would lie, cheat and steal from you over someone who is sick and suffering who didn't ask for their condition is heartless and obviously isn't thinking straight.
6. If you don't know how to act around or support someone who has a chronic or terminal condition regardless what it is then go see a therapist who specialists in terminal care and find out. I guarantee they will know first hand what you should do and what NOT to do. That includes not belittling the patient and causing them additional physical and emotional stress. Not everyone is built like the great wall of China being able to handle a tremendous amount of turmoil but I am. Don't patients have enough on their plate already? I think so! As far as if someone makes a critical decision to either help out or not and quickly decides they will NOT help out there is something wrong with that picture. In the end makes you wonder if they were punishing the patient for being sick. Its not a good feeling when someone refuses to accept the person you are today. Sick or not. If you can't accept someone at face value now then don't accept them at all. Remember we are not invincible we all one day will come down with something. How would you like to be treated? Just because someone may be GREAT at reaching out and helping others doesn't mean they treat those closest to them the same way.
7. We all have friends that maybe not everyone knows about. Different friends bring different things to the plate of life. Some may bring great advice while others offer humor. Some may be wise in making quick decisions while others offer support and compassion. I have been accused by some of not knowing him or her, etc. Maybe because you are not around me long enough to know or ask. I have many friends. I used to have far more friends in state than out of state. Now I have twice as many friends out of state than both combined but what you see is what you get. They except me at face-value. Take me or leave me. My blog is also real and not fictional. This is my life and my 'feelings.' Trust me this blog benefits me more than most would care to say but if over 86,000 readers can relate or connect with me in a way that helps them in their own life then I see nothing but positive by doing a daily journal about my crazy GP life. Amen.
8. Those who like to accuse me over and over again of being distorted about reality need to drink a few more pots of coffee in the morning. I am without a shadow of a doubt 110% fully aware of what I have medically and what I deal with personally. I am also fully aware of bad behavior and being falsely accused maliciously over fabricated crap. Reality is knowing when someone clearly needs to get help of their own and step out of the land of make believe. I have been eyes wideeeee open folks all eight years and 10 months of medical suffering. I don't need to video tape it. I have a darn good memory like a library so if you doubt my common sense then ask me a question. I am sure to have a quick and honest answer for you.
9. Try not to compare ones medical condition to another. You can't. That's like comparing apples to oranges. Anyone who uses that same analogy over and over again only shows others the lack of compassion they truly have for the person who is sick.
10. When you constantly belittle someone countless times you are bound to get a back fire reaction which might include someone taking their tone of voice up a few notches. You know why? Because maybe you are not really listening and they grew tired of repeating themselves. Patients have feelings too and we are not made of stone. Same goes for any human being.
11. You will quickly find out about those later on in life who were fortunately enough to leave a legacy behind and foot prints in the sand. This gal never took the Gastroparesis bull by the horns fighting for years raising Gastroparesis Awareness without great cause! I find anyone who questions my compassion for helping other patients who suffer in silence or reaching out to assist their family, friends or loved ones very disheartening. There is no shame in the power of loving others out there in the world. I don't need nor did I even need to profit by being a good person. I would rather die broken knowing I gave it my all no matter how sick I was to help someone than in the end to die and be judged by how much money I made or how many toys I had. Respect isn't based off of Uncle Sam its based off of those who were always real to the end and fought for what they believed was right. That includes fighting for yourself. That's TRUE RESPECT!
12. There comes a time in every ones life when relentless stress can start causing extreme harm to someone internally. You can be the strongest bull in the China shop mentally but human organs can only take so much physically. For those who feel my medical condition might kill them because they can not handle seeing me sick then it is best for now you not see me. Its sad to have to part with those we love but it never was my intention to cause anyone including family stress by being sick. I guess in a strange way in the end I am protecting their lives by putting my own on the line. Until everyone sits down with someone who specializes in treating chronic and terminal patients that can assist the tension that continues to build I must for now go my own separate way. I won't disallow anyone when my time comes to be by my bedside nor put limits on who passes by my coffin when Heaven calls but I just for once wanted to be as real as one can get. I am not dead yet so please don't talk of me as in 'past' tense. The only thing that kills is hope. This was long overdue and I can only take full responsibility of not being upfront with my feelings for years and thinking it was 'ok' to bottle them up because it wasn't. I will take this time in front of over 86,000 readers and apologize for any hell that my condition has caused my parents and my Sister as well their children. Being human means you can accept when you are right and even when your wrong. Being human also means you are sincere when you say your sorry. Its sad that I can't be that person you all once knew years ago. All I can be now is me. 

This Oprah couch session went wayyyyyy past the one hour time limit...Heck! Where were the commercials? Time to give Oreo his medication and call it a night. OOPS! I mean a morning. There are other chess pieces just waiting to be moved this week and remember time waits for no one. Amen.

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 11:59 PM EST

Updated: January 11, 2012 7:51 PM EST

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Mood:  d'oh

Wow! Is this week going to be all over the place! I have been changing this and rearranging that into the early evening hours. Just when I 'thought' I had a game plan today it once again got shot down.

There wasn't much sleep for this gal last night seeing poor Oreo still isn't feel well with seizures. He had one at 10:30am that woke me up then he was disoriented stumbling to stand up so once he come to I had him sleep next to me on the couch bed. This way I could keep a close eye on him. The seizures are very scary for him as well what follows which is extreme disorientation. His blood work is still out pending and until that comes back its touch and go. Jingles isn't helping matters but he can't help it since hes still a puppy. Littleblue is still nursing her hedgehogs playing Mom to the gang. So much for a two week ordeal. We are now going on three weeks.

Once I got up and started moving around doing the normal house chore routine I went to let Jingles outside. He seems to be getting sick again and coughing up thick yellow mucus with constant coughing. Of course this is a sign of a secondary or rebound infection. I already had plans to file some paperwork down at the county court but instead I had to change plans and call the animal care center near my house to have Jingles checked out. This is the third round of antibiotics so something must be going on but my gut was saying more like maybe the current medication isn't strong enough. My friend has plans to take his son to dinner after school so thankfully it was early enough in the afternoon to have Jingles checked out. Its hard to balance everything going on at the house but when there's a will there is a way and I always seem to find it!

I would rather have someone home at all times with Oreo seeing he isn't doing good with the seizures. He has two more days on his antibiotics so I felt it might be best to call his veterinarian to let her know about his seizure and tremors this morning. He is also very anxious and scared. Before we left to take Jingles down the vet he snapped at me and growled then went after Jingles. One must remember when you have seizures just like animals they go through stages. Before, during and after the seizure. It isn't Oreo's fault because he doesn't really understand what he is doing but I don't think having Jingles around right now is such a great idea but I will let both veterinarians work together and give the final say in a game plan.

My friend has the day off so thankfully he was able to go with me. We are slowly talking again after his brain funk not protecting me against my ex's crazy sibling. I don't forgive or forget that easily and I do have my guards up but its only natural. I think anyone would and once he proves to me I can trust him again I remain an Army of one. The veterinarian was fully aware of Jingles being sick so they had us bring him up around 4pm. We were placed right away in a room and they did a physical exam and went over all of Jingles shots and medication. They looked into prior medication he was taking and I found out this was one very, very sick little guy since he was eight weeks old. Maybe sooner. I guess you can say I earned my 'Fur Kid Wings' with Jingles. Heeheeheehee! Once the veterinarian listened to his lungs Jingles started coughing horribly again. The poor guy is still sick and the medication he was placed on two days ago just isn't strong enough. They placed Jingles on a new stronger antibiotic same as what Littleblue and Oreo were put to prevent any secondary infections. They also prescribed Jingles a cough suppressant that has a sedative this way he rests. Being such a energetic puppy he isn't getting enough rest so hes not giving his immune system a break. He can go and go and go and go! I don't remember any of the fur kids having this much energy. WOW!

The veterinarian was very concerned with the other fur kids at home seeing they can rebound the same infection and virus then pass it around again. YIKES! With Oreo also being 13 years old the stress of the puppy isn't helping his seizures because over the past three days they have gotten worse. Oreo is having different type of seizures so it makes it twice as hard for the veterinarians to get things under control. "IF they can get them under control." When the blood work comes back then they will have a better understanding of Oreo's medical condition.

Once we got home my friend put Jingles in the backyard and I went inside to check on Oreo. He isn't acting like himself and started having the tremors within ten minutes of being in the house. He is scared to be alone and will follow you everywhere. I was to go to dinner with my friend and his son but felt it was important for someone to be home for Oreo. It was a very smart decision because Oreo later on walked into the dining room chairs, tried to hide in my closet and under the kitchen drawer. Nothing like Oreo would ever, ever do and when he went outside it seemed as if he wasn't sure where he was at. I did call his veterinarian again seeing I didn't have my cell phone on when they called earlier. Around 9:00pm after I finished up disinfecting the entire house and cleaning up a bit Oreo's veterinarian called. They decided to stat his blood work due to the more frequent seizures and changes. The veterinarian explained the blood work showed no organ failure or organ infections so they are certainly leaning towards a lesion or brain tumor. They do offer cat scans but the downside is regardless of either they can not do surgery or cure the problem which is causing Oreo to be very, very sick. The veterinarian was extremely informative and went over everything to be expected. We also discussed Oreo's behavior and what I should be looking out for during his seizures this way I know when its important to take him there asap! They called in some compassionate care medication so Oreo can sleep and if he is having pain he can be more comfortable. Poor Oreo does nothing but pace the floors and follow us around everywhere. He is very affectionate but as told because he is scared and sick due to the seizures and neurological trauma. My CrystalblueAngel had seizures before she went to Heaven and it was extremely hard watching her suffer. I sure wish our fur kids could talk but for now I need to keep him comfortable in a calm, quiet and 'safe' environment.

This all makes me wonder the other night when that nut was over the house outside in a psychotic rage while Oreo was also outside if that made his medical situation worse...Seems to me if stress makes my GP worse and others who have chronic or terminal medical conditions it can certainly do the same to fur kids. It really makes me infuriated! My back is still not 100% and I had to cancel my GI appointment for Thursday since things had to be all rearranged this week and I still have to fit in the second half of my treatment. GEES! My Gastroenterologist is very understanding and worked me into next week, same day and same time. Tomorrow I have a court appointment to put a quick stop to that nut trying to assault me for no reason then I will be taking a further step in another direction right after that so I won't be tolerating something like that from ever happening again.

Sometimes I think I should had been born into the Mob life. At least when there is problems it doesn't take them forever to resolved them and they don't need the law to do it. They also have each others back no matter what. The law is for the guilty not the innocent that's why the guilty have a better life in jail or prison than people who are homeless. Truth. If I was a member of a Mob family I seriously doubt I would have any problems with being a human punching bag nor the stress that has come into this new so far 'hellish year 2012.' Maybe that's why I like the show 'The Mob Wives.' They have a problem it gets resolved then and there. People are up front and if they have an issue they deal with it head on.

For now I like 'Facebook' because if you ever want to know the TRUTH and real FACTS on someone just look them up! No one LIES on a Facebook wall and if and when they do I am always the first to know because society doesn't like liars or drama folks. People are as real as real can get when it comes to their personal life on Facebook. Maybe later this week I need to air out some truth on my blog. I will call it my own little Facebook since there seems to be some far out confusion from some folks in this stressful city regarding my condition. If you can't educate yourself and support someone who is sick then how can you preach truth on something you have absolutely no clue about. Amen.

Well that's for another day...Another blog...For now I have my fur kids, my health and my life to protect so I have no time for clueless people nor drama. My GP plate is already full enough.

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 11:30 PM EST

Updated: January 10, 2012 1:18 AM EST

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Mood:  don't ask

Ahhhh...OK. Now I know why everyone has been acting scary! It's a full moon weekend! BOO! I guess this explains off the wall behavior. Sure...it all makes perfect sense now!

On a more serious note I got lots of support after last nights crazy, unnecessary and uncalled for chain of events. Thank goodness for friends who understand and can relate due to also living a part of my personal hell. Some in more ways than others but regardless I am still able to stick to my guns and keep both feet firmly on the ground. Consider it like a game of chess. One has to be careful before making any move. NEVER make a move off of emotion. Let all emotions ride out before making any logical steps. You will not only save yourself some time but additional stress.My friend apologized to me today in regards to not sticking up for me while having someone attempt to assault me. Honestly he said, "I don't know what I was thinking but I sure the heck wasn't thinking." It got to him all night and around 5am he confronted my ex about the entire incident that happened all because his puppy 'accidentally' got out of the house when he was walking Littleblue. Remember anyone who comes off drugs is bound to snap for no reason same goes for the sibling and whatever they were taking or under the influence of. Detoxing should be done under a controlled environment and never on your own cold turkey. Its a step down process. Not all at once. Lord only knows but it was CRAZY! My friend asked for my ex to apologize for coming after me and screaming when it wasn't my fault that his puppy 'accidentally' got out but I would never and don't hold my breath.

On top of the chain of events this is Drano treatment day and I still have a swollen back. Its important for me to walk around still due to my Idiopathic Gastroparesis but it doesn't come without the heavy price of constant pain. I have been through worse and I will just have to continue sucking up and dealing with it. I didn't sleep hardly at all last night into the morning and early afternoon. I got a few hours here and there in between the constant text messages and calls from very concerned out of state friends. At least they did talk me into some rational sense and helped me decide the next of many moves which will allow some peace back into my life. Its true! Unless you have lived it yourself or walked in someones shoes you will never know first hand what its like. They all know because they either have been through the same things or live it now. Consider it being a back bone for each other.

This evening once I could come down off between having the shakes and panic attacks I got my mind off of things and did some house chores as well tried my best to clean the car. Same car that sees the open road only twice a week if its lucky! Hahahaha! I didn't forget about the attempted assault last night. It hasn't left my mind. It won't leave my mind until I know justice has been served. I was reminded of my options and plan on taking them. It will be the first and the last time that incident will be happening. I also did a few other proactive things tonight in order to keep the peace. I had enough with stress and if others can't accept me as sick then you might as well not accept me at all. I have taken care of myself, this house and the fur gang for over eight years while being sick and I promise you even if I have to crawl I will be able to continue doing the same for the next eight years or sooner if God feels I finally deserve a peace of Heaven.

You know when it rains it pours and sometimes life just doesn't seem fair. So far I would like to call 2012 the year from hell. Hahahaha! If I need to continue playing the game of Battleship through out the rest of the year to put out all the fires then so be it. I have plenty of time!

With all the stress which should never have happened Oreo had another seizure late this evening. It scared the heck out of me but mostly my friend seeing Oreo was on his bed when it started. Once I came in he was shaking from head to toe and his eyes rolled back. I remembered the veterinarian telling me not to move him and just make sure he is warm and comfortable. Turn off all lights and any noise. We both remembered as we did our best to comfort Oreo. I can't stand with every breath in me seeing my fur kids sick. I know as well first hand all about seizures and they are scary! They also leave you feeling exhausted and disoriented. Oreo was taken to the vet emergency clinic once the seizure stopped. I spoke to the veterinarian seeing I couldn't go due to problems with my back and being in the bathroom. They ran blood work first to make sure there is no internal organ problems. If all comes back clear the vet said they might be dealing with a lesion or brain tumor. My heart just sank. We are taking things one day a time but for now I will fight to keep things as peaceful as possible in this house from here on out. The crazy person last night won't be around me for the rest of their life so that's one down.

I am learning that in life you take it one day and sometimes one hour at a time.

Thank you Kevin, Frances, Brian, John, Mike, AnnMarie, Jan and KimAngel for being the wonderful friends that you are! Thank you for being my rock and backbone when I have felt weak. Yes, it did good to cry it out last night but today is a new day and I got my game face back on! Love you all!

Posted by GastroparesisAwarenessCampaignOrg. at 11:59 PM EST

Updated: January 9, 2012 2:22 AM EST

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