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don't askNow Playing: Day 625-The Final Road To Survival
If this is what I have to look forward to in 2012 then I might as well pack it up and head to GP Island for the remainder of the year. AMEN!
It all started around 7:40am when I was sound asleep then woke up with Littleblue sitting up looking at me and a heavy feeling on the blanket. I was SMART to have two blankets last night seeing Littleblue was vomiting on me. YIKES! Let's just say I now have three fur kids at home all sick with the same viruses passing them around. Since they are airborne what I didn't know was this particular virus can also be caught by humans. Of course as the vet explained yesterday its only a risk for those with compromised immune systems so that once again puts me on the medical lottery. If they had such a lottery I would be a billionaire by now because anything rare out there I always seem to be the unlucky victim. I woke up my friend since Littleblue wouldn't stop vomiting and needed to go to the vet. The emergency clinic is only five minutes from the house and the veterinarian who treated Oreo said more than likely Littleblue would get the same virus.
He was sure right!
Once my friend let Jingles puppy outside and came back in to get the car situated with a few blankets, paper towels and a puke bag I was up myself puking in the bathroom. Not from the virus but my darn GP and intestines! YOU GOT TO BE JOKING ME! What a start to the new day! My friend was nice enough to not just help Littleblue out and the rest of the fur kids but also help me back to the couch. I couldn't go with him as sick as I was feeling but he was only there for an hour to get Littleblue started on two injections, one for the vomiting and the other an antibiotic. I had emergency pills at home from my last ER visit due to intestinal vomiting. I am taking the medicine for intestinal ulcers but still having the pain and burning. Luckily I see my Gastroenterologist in less than two weeks. For now it looks like this is the start of a week from HELL!
Later this evening I had to deal with more stress on top of being sick. Not like this is anything new. I feel like I am starting the same ole crap as I did last year. One huge never ending circle and told myself this just has to stop! I have to take care of myself and my health. I don't have time to deal with stress. I won't tolerate it anymore! Sick or not its just not worth the energy. I have learned you will never win any arguments either when someone is an addict. Thank goodness my living situation will be changing later this month. You can lead the horse to water but you can't make them drink. I hope to God I never have to deal with another person who is an addict for the rest of my life but if for some freak chance I do things will be different. I don't have it in me to put up with the level of things I have over the past year. My friend said, "I don't know how you do it or did it for so long but you have more patience then anyone I have ever seen." He babysits those who are addicts down at the county jail and sees first hand what they can do to everyone around them. Its a sad situation but until the person realizes they have a problem and want to get help you can't help them. I am fortunate to have a great therapist who has been working with me to arm myself with common knowledge and a list of what NOT to do living with an addict. He himself has treated addicts for over twenty years but because of the huge toll they take on family, friends and loved ones he no longer treats them. Sometimes like today I meet my limit, especially when I am not feeling well but I am glad to quickly overcome the anger and get back on track. You will never win an argument with anyone under the influence so as my specialists tell me you must learn to mentally and emotionally check yourself out from the individual. 
"Addiction affects family members worse than it does the actual addict. This is because the family members are not high and drunk and are able to have an outside, objective viewpoint on the damage the addiction is causing. The addict is constantly in a haze and off in another world, so they do not realize all of the damage they are doing to themselves by living their lifestyle."
Tomorrow is a new day and if I am to start turning over a new leaf in this New Year I must also learn when to put my foot down and say, "I had enough." Its tough when you don't want to see someone destroy their lives but I can't enable their behavior either. Time to zip it and not worry about others who create stress. Time to put those ear plugs and horse blinds on if I want this to be a better year. Amen. This email vacation response I got from a friend of mine when I went to send them a reply email this evening and thought it was just right up my alley. You have to respect honesty!
Wishing you all a Happy New Years! I plan on having a Very Changed Happy New Year! A lot of I will not's will take place and will most likely upset a lot of people, BUT I really don't care! My list of I will not's and changes will be life changing for me!!!...The Bull of 2011 is fixin to change! Hope your New Year will be as Happy as mine will be. I guarantee that mine will be Happier than before..."I Have A Plan"
This is from someone who also owns a funeral home. Need I say more?...
celebratory
We got tickets last month for a Michael Jackson tribute show at a casino in Indiana. Its only about a twenty minute drive so it wasn't too far but WOW was it crowded!! Once we got there I was already starting to get a bit tired. Its been a long past few days and although it always feels great getting out of the house and blending in with society it sadly doesn't take too long before the ole GP drains my energy. We did stay for a little over two hours. At least long enough to ring in the New Year. Funny thing was when I asked my friend what time it was seeing I had to make a bathroom trip he said I had ten minutes before it turned midnight. His cell phone clock must has been a bit off seeing once I went into the bathroom and sat down I heard loud music and horns, etc. I quickly went to wash my hands and overheard a few other people said, "Wow! we only have fifteen seconds left before the New Year!" Let's just say it was the fastest sprint out of the bathroom I ever did! LOOK OUT NIKE! Hahahaha! 
on fire
The day after treatment has turned into a day from HELL! I am beyond hungover from the darn Drano with a smashing headache. This treatment of course hit me neurologically. Seems you just can't determine jug to jug what each toxic poison mix contains.
Once we got to the vet we didn't have to wait too long and they re-examined Jingles who is still battling kennel cough and a virus. He is slowly getting better but its important to bathe him once they are coming down off their virus. It helps to rid any bacteria on their skin too! Let's just say I am BEAT and now we must go home and bathe him on top of finishing up loads of wash. No pun intended! GEES! Jingles was a little beastly handful on the way to the vet but after getting his second round of puppy shots he was out like a light on the way home laid back down for a nap once we got through the front door. 
Once we arrived at the clinic they let us in and took Oreo back right away. The veterinarian came back in to explain why Oreo is so sick and declined so quickly. With him being 13 years old he can't fight off infections and viruses like younger fur kids. Its very similar to my fragile immune system and having to be super cautious around anyone who is sick. I catch things super fast and so can Oreo. He was running a 102.5 fever so definitely up from just earlier this afternoon. They had to give us more antibiotics then explained with the tremors, seizures and poor Oreo being so sick its touch and go. My nerves as well my friends were shot! The only good thing is the kitty gang can't get canine viruses so they are in the clear but Littleblue can catch the same viruses since they are airborne so we must watch her very closely. For now they want us to wait 48 hours to see if Oreo's body can bounce back from the virus since it is just now in the active stage. As far as seizures they can't do much because they are very common in older pets. 
d'oh
Yes! Everyone is invited and all you need to do is bring your own favorite chaser and I will provide the rest! You can drink as much as you want! Need to drop a few pants or dress sizes before the holiday weekend? No problem! I have enough jugs for everyone! Hahahahaha!
I am hoping to have a low key day tomorrow and just catch up on my Jersey Shore DVDs then later on watch my friend TRY to beat my Asteroids record on the old school Atari game. Hahahaha! This evening I turned over the game three times in a row with a 100,000 score!
Am I good or what?! I warned him that back in the day Asteroids was MY GAME! 
This evening I got the ole Hell-In-A-Jug together and my chaser glass. I had a few takers over at the house however they passed on any Dranotini's. Maybe next time although I did let them know I had plenty to share! Even some to go! Within three hours I dropped a few pants sizes and brain cells to boot Hahahaha! Just part of the ole Drano side affects. My goal is hoping by Saturday I will be bounced back enough to go out for the New Years Eve festivities if even for a few hours. Until then I just have to play things by ear in my typical GP life. Sunday I have a few more glasses of the nasty stuff to toss back. I split this treatment in half because I don't want my angry insides to feel more like fire than they already have been. 
Only time will tell...
surprised
I haven't had too much luck yet taking medication to help cool the stomach fire off so my GI doctor called in a new medicine today hoping maybe to hit a few things at once. Donnatal. The only downside with this medication are the side effects such as knocking you out like a light and slowing things down a bit TOO MUCH. Like I need more slow organs or how about a dependency to barbiturates? UMMMM...NOT! Why in the world with all the billions upon billions of dollars pharma companies can't create medication without tons of side affects? You try to fix one problem but then end up creating ten more. It makes me a bit hesitant to take any new drug but I do need to calm my angry insides down including the waves of nausea and vomiting. I have tried this same medication years ago to no avail and it didn't resolve my problems either. If we are dealing with intestinal ulcers its going to take more than just this medication to fix the problem. I also am on a clear bland diet. 
With it only being a few days away until my next Hell-In-A-Jug treatment I am keeping close tabs on all the new medication as well existing ones. Everyone has been asking what plans I have for the upcoming New Years Eve. My response is same as any other day, "I have to play things by ear. It all depends on how I am feeling and if my Idiopathic Gastroparesis will let me out of the house to play." Hahahahaha! Well at least I was lucky enough to get out of the house for a bit this afternoon. Two days in a row being house-jailed is enough to drive anyone nuts but at least my fur kids keep me busy. They are the best!
Off to watch Jersey Shore season 1 on DVD. So far I got through disc one and now close to finishing up disc two. WHOAHOA! Things that make a GP gal happy! Hahahaha!
sharp
8am and I FINALLY went to sleep! WHEW! Maybe this is just part of sleeping with the rest of the VAMPIRES...BOO! Hahahaha! I have officially caught up with my friends third shift sleep schedule but not by choice seeing this sure can't be healthy for my tired body. I am still dealing with vomiting but crossing my fingers the new medication will help with the burning and stomach pain. Only time will tell.
With trying to keep up on every little medical thing going on inside my body I clearly forgot about the large cyst I have on my chest. My hospital didn't forget. Friday they sent me a letter reminding me since I had a large cyst that was picked up last year on a mammogram-same time I had the breast cancer scare I now need for them to do a yearly check. GEES! I can't even hardly keep up with treatments and the constant pills I am taking to help boost my damaged immune system. Now I must pencil in another scare into my crazy GP life. So instead I added it to the kitchen cabinet "To Do" list, this way I don't forget. Seems anymore I have numerous "To Do" lists. Hahahahaha! 
So after four hours of house chores and playing holiday clean up I decided to have a Jersey Shore series marathon. Just one of many great gifts I got for Christmas. I already played my old school Atari system last night. WOW! Can we say it sure brought back many fond memories being young again and not having a care in the world! Ahhhh....Those were the days! When I saw the games Asteroids and Centipede I literally LAUGHED OUT LOUD! Hahahahaha! 
And let it begin with me.
Another sleepless night. Chalk it up as the second night in a row of getting less than five hours of sleep. Try also bouncing back from treatment on limited sleep. NOT! Sure...I got to bed on time but was woken up with not just GP problems but loud noise. Need not go there...Once I woke up after the third time at 9:30am it felt as if my heart was beating outside my chest. This time I made sure to check my blood pressure seeing I was having horrible sweats on top it! Seems when your body can't recuperate and is being woken up for various reasons you can get some pretty scary readings. I was wide awake but with a pulse running 59. 
Forget any Christmas Eve plans. They went out the door at 10am along with getting any additional sleep. So much for seeing my extended family whom I only get to see once a year. Its sad but even more sad when things in life are out of your control. There was no need for getting upset or angry because all that does is make my condition a million times worse. Thanks but no thanks I have enough stomach pain, burning and intestinal pain with nausea/vomiting. I made a few phone calls once I finally could get my tired body up, that was at 2:30pm. I was able to get a shower at least so that was a good start but sadly I couldn't attend church where I go every year for candlelight service. Instead I had to settle for another church which is located right behind my home. Their service wasn't until 5pm. This at least gave me time to take a shower and throw on some clothes. 
Can anyone have a QUIET Christmas Eve church service this evening? One that is filled with relaxing holiday music, not much talking and where everyone can leave me alone? Horrible when your body is that exhausted that you need to ask for peace and quiet isn't it? Luckily both me and my friend's wishes were granted. This church service was quiet, peaceful and had lots of relaxing music. It was the only thing I was able to gather enough energy to do today. Once we got back to the house which we could had walked back seeing its that close the fur kids were waiting to be walked outside and fed. They were also waiting next to their stockings for SantaPaws. The fur gang were EXTRA good this year so I just know SantaPaws will be EXTRA NICE to them! 
Littleblue likes to take charge and guard all the stockings while BearKitty just enjoys laying on the stockings and teasing everyone. Hahahahaha! Hey! animals are just like kids. They are far from dumb! My gang are super smart kids and each Christmas they get lots of toys, treats and gifts.
