Dentist & Desert
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I have a few things on my mind today. One is the dream of waking up putting my feet in the warm desert sand. Where else but VEGAS BABY!
Honestly I just really love the city and all the endless possibilities where dreams don't just come true but life evolves around fun! FUN! Something that I have lacked in my twisted Idiopathic Gastroparesis life for years. Actually almost a decade! YIKES! I have looked into the housing situation out west and honestly even if I moved into a rental they are far more nicer than those in the big city. I have no desire to jump into a house loan out west. Why when its nothing more than a headache and a huge money pit in this horrible economy. If only I could get my parents to load up a UHaul and follow behind me because this gal would JUMP in a heartbeat! So for now I might just have to push that dream of mine to the side. I would love to put a end to this chapter of bad memories in this city. The open possibilities starting a new lease on life and a fresh slate would be WONDERFUL!!!! I think the fur gang wouldn't mind at all although I tend to think they would miss their wildlife buddies outside.
With the help of my pain medication I finally caught up on a bit of shut eye this morning into the early afternoon. I had to set my cell phone alarm since it is my last dental treatment today. I never thought I would get there but here I am and can't wait to put this dental nightmare quickly behind me! My friend had their first dental visit today since switching over doctors. They found the office I go to very nice with a great staff. The rooms are all new and state of the art not to mention that huge relaxing salt water tank in the waiting area. BONUS! My appointment was for 3:30pm and their appointment was at 4pm. Honestly I would had been right on time if it were not for catching a five minute train on the way.
One would think I would know better to expect any doctors appointment to go smoothly and I don't know why I thought today would be any different because it wasn't. It actually turned into a DENTIST APPOINTMENT FROM HELL!
There were only three teeth left to rebuild and fix so surely it would had gone so much easier than my last three appointments right? WRONG! The first huge problem was my dentist could not get me numb. This was after three tries and using the full 500 dosage of anesthesia. Even he was baffled as well his assistant. I just shook my head in huge disappointment and said, "It never fails. Every doctor appointment I have ever went to has never gone smoothly. Its one thing or another and this is just NUTS!" They could tell my frustration once they shot more medication into my nerves and gave it a ten minute break in between each dose then started drilling again. The sharp stabbing pain times 100 sent me about through the roof! "OUCH! GEES! DANG IT! GRRRRR!"
Just a few choice words but trust me I had many more in mind!
Finally after going on almost two hours of drilling then stopping then drilling then stopping since it was obvious the medication wasn't working I had to just suck it up and deal with the absolute worst 'FREAKING PAIN! I clinched my teeth so bad my dentist had to keep telling me to loosen up so instead I gripped my hands and feet together for three hours of a patients worst nightmare. One thing though I can say is, "I MADE IT!" I AM FINALLY FINISHED WITH MY FOUR DENTAL TREATMENTS! WHOAHOA! And over $3,000 later.
My friend said there was no way in hell they could had went through three hours of drilling without being numb and hats off to me for really enduring what most would never endure. My dentist was even amazed I lasted through the entire procedure. Once they cleaned everything up we sat down to talk as I found out my main nerve that runs from my ear to my jaw no longer works. It is dead. My dentist said the chemical problems within my body as well severe nerve damage from my Idiopathic Gastroparesis not to mention the damage from the ole Drano aka Hell-In-A-Jug is really taking a horrible toll on my body. He asked, "What does your doctors and surgeons think of enduring this deadly mix on a weekly basis?" I told him they said, "We have bigger concerns to worry about besides your teeth. We have to be concerned first for keeping your blood from becoming toxic." My dentist said in response, "I can understand but it should worry them the damage I am seeing on the surface that can only be much worse on the inside as what it is doing to other vital organs. I would be highly concerned if I was you having to drink this on a daily basis but I do know there is no other option." The other comment which I have heard many, many times over and over again I also heard from my dentist was, "Your body is really out of whack! Your central nervous system is barely existing. You are a very complex and complicated patient. I haven't had this happen ever before in my many years seeing someone with such extensive nerve damage. What you are drinking is doing the same if not far worse than most chemo patients I treat."
So after leaving with more concern regarding not just my Idiopathic Gastroparesis but drinking the Drano on a weekly basis it has me once again questioning how I want my ship to go down. Slowly or quickly? Hard suffering or a quick punishment? Hmmmmmm.....Well for now I was just glad to run like HELL out of that dentists office and head to the car. I was very glad just to get home and find some peace and quiet. My head was rocking and later this evening my mouth was on fire with pain! It will be a very long night to say the least.
Let's just say it wasn't the time, day or the place to stress me out and I think I found the first passenger to aboard the Island of time-out. A few of my fellow GP friends were right on the great idea making this island for those who lack respect for anyone who is sick and causes a patient more stress than they already have to endure on a daily basis. SHAME! SHAME! SHAME! ON THEM! For now though I leave the first guest with a smooth flight and plenty of coconuts.
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at 11:59 PM EDT
Updated: September 28, 2011 1:35 AM EDT