Emotionally... everything finally came to a head as we were given 48-hours for the final and last round of treatments to start working before my specialists will have to admit me to the hospital.

Today... I got lucky.

Tomorrow... I am not so sure... but I live for the day. I live in the present. I live for the moment. 

What I can't predict... is the future... tomorrow. 

I do know what I am. I am human. I have emotions, sometimes like today, really raw emotions. Hospitals scare the hell out of me. Especially if being admitted. I have been fighting like hell to get better and somehow make my way over this Mammoth Mountain. But for some reason.. my body is just not following my brain.

So... as I sit here and look at over $2,500 worth of medications, at home treatments, nebulizer machine and other information from my specialists... I am lost for words. I am completely dumbfounded. I would not be human if I didn't say that I am also starting to get pretty scared and very concerned for my life.

I am very fortunate to have a new team of specialists who haven't given up on me. They have desperately continued trying over the past week to get me stabilized. When other doctors have given up on me back across state lines. These doctors in our new home state have yet to give up on me.

As I was sitting here sifting through my phone. I found this video of our beloved Oreo bravely taking his very first steps after suffering a stroke that paralyzed him from the neck down. I remember as if it was just yesterday taking him to the emergency veterinarian hospital and being told Time After Time by each veterinarian that he would not make it and that we should let him go. You know what we did? We didn't listen to the veterinarians. We listened to our heart. We did what any decent human being and great fur parents would do... we took our beloved Oreo home and fought alongside him each and every day. We made sure Oreo had our undivided attention, daily physical therapy provided by both of us along with a customized wheelchair. 

We never gave up on Oreo being able to walk again and Oreo never gave up on us as he bravely took his first steps six months after a major stroke. What a remarkable gift to be able to say that together... we defied the odds with our beloved, brave and remarkable fur child, Oreo. 

Never give up never give in.

I will always love you... For A Thousand Years...