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amorousNow Playing: Day 2592-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)
What holiday is lurking right around the corner... With a big, red, heart shaped, super sweet treat waiting inside?
VALENTINE'S DAY! CANDY DAY!
With everything going on in our lives, I almost forgot to decorate! Unfortunately, due to most of our holiday decorations already being meticulously packed away. I opted for just a few Valentine's day decorations this year. LESS is MORE! I have a hunch, that this year is going to fly on by, in a blink of an eye!
Today seemed to as well, fly on by...
I didn't want to jinx myself in saying that this year, would be a far less doctor visit kind of year. Who I am fooling to think such a thing? Today was another beginning of another medical year with 2 specialist appointments back-to-back. Since I am at my max with oncology treatments, the next dose being the fatal dose. All that anyone can do at this time with new lesions, cancerous growths rearing their ugly head, is to biopsy and stage. I had been debating on if it would be worth even knowing the battle at this point?. Some how, knowing what I am battling, seems to be half the battle. My battle. I continue doing better knowing, than not knowing. I am fortunate to still have that option. I am also fortune enough to still fool the best of the best when it comes to my outer appearance. Eric loves to be front and center when visiting a new specialist. The priceless looks viewing page after page after page of surgical notes, test reports, specialist notes, oncology treatment notes, blah, blah, blah... Then looking up at me... PRICELESS! Maybe today wasn't the best of the best of days. Doing my best to not appear anything close to how I feel on the inside, but it still seemed to work.
"You look great! If I didn't look at your medical records. I would had never guessed with how much you have going on medically."
When I hear anything close to what I was told today. Then I know what I am doing is still working! TADA!! Let's face it, my major transformation has certainly come a very LONG WAY! From the super short, dark hair-almost black, pixie hair cut. To the super blonde, extensions, curls and the whole nine yards! This gal has come a long way to continue hiding how I feel inside. I refuse to look sick. Not if I can continue helping it anyways! If I can't feel good about myself on the inside, I sure the heck can at least do my best to feel my most absolute best on the outside!
This year is all about embracing the feminine side of me. The make up, magical hair accessories, no more sweats and zipped hoodies, every day side of me. Sure, I still can't wear the shoes that I would like to wear. The same super cute shoes with heels that I once wore during my career days, but this gal isn't going to ring in another gym shoe year either! Cute boots for the winter, with low, flat, chunky heels. Summer will be all about super cute sandals! I plan to slay with my new feminine look and embrace it along the way~ All the way through this new year, 2017!
So... Maybe not today. It most certainly was not a super cutsie slay with my feminine look way kind of day, but I still got up and got my far better wardrobe out for the day. After back-to-back specialist appointments and another round of biopsies. We still did our best to enjoy the rest of the day with the fur gang. I am that kind of gal, that no matter how yucky I am feeling. You will still catch me walking at the trails or with Littleblue and Snoreo at one of our local dog parks in the country. If anyone knows that the ole saying is true, it's definitely ME.
Life is far too short. Enjoy each and every hour, minute and second that God gives you!
OH... By the way... Look FABULOUS while you do so too! Ladies, embrace the most BEAUTIFUL 
YOU~
