Mood:
downNow Playing: Day 844-The Final Road To Survival
One hour you are up! The next hour you are down! Only with Gastroparesis can you be fine one second then in the ER the next. It's no wonder I can't predict anything and forget planning ahead anymore. It doesn't exist.
I'm frustrated and honestly just BEAT physically and the last few weeks BEAT MENTALLY! Who would had guessed at 7am I would wake up with the worst sharp pain coming in waves only to realize later in the ER my intestines once again have flipped and twisted up on other organs. This is now the fourth documented time it has happened in the past two years.
NOT GOOD!
It might be a good thing my intestines no longer have motility and tent to flip and twist only while resting. It also might be a good thing the pain is so severe that it wakes me up because bowel perforation is a complication when this happens as well obstructions. Once the pain hit me I had to call Eric's name four times before he could hear me seeing I couldn't raise my voice due to the horrific pain. Last time I told the ambulance driver they might as well shoot me if this happens again because the pain is almost impossible to endure! Needless to say if I knew the next day would had included this hellish nightmare I might had taken up drinking last night. AMEN! At least it might had helped the pain to stay a bit numb. So far all the other three times my intestines eventually resolved themselves with the help of gravity and without any severe complications. Unfortunately this time my ovary is wrapped in the mess and they highly doubt that will remedy itself without surgery but guess what? They can't do surgery. There are no surgery options. I am just SOL!!
The end of my day included some strong pain meds (thank goodness for Morphine and Dilaudid) and plenty of couchbed rest. Eric has been amazing keeping up with the house chores inside and out. The fur kids don't mind spending some down time with Mom while she heals and slowly gets back on her feet. I don't need anymore stress that I am already having to deal with on top of not feeling well but of course in this city it tends to find you regardless of how well you are hiding. Amen!
Once I was finally able to catch a break with the pain Eric took the fur kids out for a walk at the park and on his way back he found a cute little nest of baby rabbits but in a bad spot-the front yard under a small bush. Since he knows my deep love for all wildlife he quickly headed up to the local hardware store and bought some wood to make a protective area for the babies. There are two baby rabbits but they don't have their eyes open just yet so they must be only days old. I love animals and always have my entire life. They are the only things that seem to bring me happiness anymore since I am limited being sick. I can't wait to watch them grow up and finally be on their own. After a nightmarish 24 hours I sure needed a reason to smile and they made my day!
