Good VS Evil
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"Money does not change people. It only unmasks them." If a person is naturally selfish, arrogant or greedy, the money brings that out, that is all.

There's a fine line in the sand between "making a lot of money" and "being greedy." Where is that line? It's around the point when you start to sacrifice yourself and your family all for a dollar. It's around the point when you start to throw away your morals and ethics for a dollar. When you lose sight of everything including common sense is when you are in real trouble. Aside from greed the bad karma that follows is bound to get you also in trouble.

I have seen and personally met people through out my life that do well and then those who don't do well when coming into money whether by inheritance or a successful business venture. I have also seen truly good genuine people change into someone that I don't think they even recognize in the mirror all because of money. Its sad when you think about those who suffer in the world but still have the heart to reach out to others who also suffer then you have those who live high off the pig that gain nothing but inhumanity by the almighty dollar. Someone told me today that those who reach a high financial statue should be set a limit via through the government when their income meets expectations and forced to donate a small percentage to an organization helping others who are less fortunate. I agree. I also personally feel that the individual should be told to take one full day once a month working along side a disabled and less fortunate person unlike themselves so they can appreciate where their money is going. This will also humble any individual who doesn't know the true meaning of suffering. Amen.

Sure. These are wonderful ideas but this is the real world where such a thing would never happen.

I woke up around 2:30pm today feeling extremely dizzy and cold. This could only to me mean one thing. Either my blood pressure was once again running a bit too low or it is my blood sugar. I carefully got my leg up and moved it off the couch then stumbled into the kitchen to test my blood sugar level. Sure enough! way, way too low and no wonder I am feeling horrible. The sugar rush begins once again so between candy, glucose tablets and gel I was finally able to get my sugar level back up to a safer range.

The weather has been picture perfect the past few days and I sure wish it could stay this way all year. 68-70 degrees is perfect! The park in front of my home has been quite busy with walkers, bikers and then those just enjoying some time in the sun. Me and my friend-Caregiver have been doing our best to get out and keep my spine from locking up. Same goes with my leg so its been a toss up between the ole cane and wheelchair. We both came upon the most sweetest thing in the world walking around the park when an elderly couple was sitting on the park bench as the husband was reading a book to his wife. We both couldn't help but smile from ear to ear. Its rare moments like this in life when one realizes the small things that matter the most. In a world where you meet and see thousands of people it only takes one instant to truly touch your heart.

I finally have all my specialist appointments lined up for next week as well a few more tests. Sure, there will be no surgery in my future but its important my doctors stay in close communication with my overall care. I "thought" Drano would be placed on further hold with everything that is going on but once again that quickly came to an end as I was advised to start treatment late this afternoon. My Gastroenterologist doesn't need any more complications nor hurdles to jump so its better to be safe right now so unfortunately I had a date with Mr. Hell-In-A-Jug this evening. WHEW! If spinal pain and a numb leg isn't enough imagine the pain after treatment and the intestinal inflammation that follows. Ready or not Drano here I come!

With all the craziness and changes going on around me the mail brought a smile in a package today. One of my dear friends in Florida sent me another inspirational ocean rock to add to my collection. This one was perfect and is called, "Expect Miracles" along with a beautiful stone plaque to place near my Bible in the living room. Thank you so much Arline, you made my day!

My friend-Caregiver has been put through the ringer lately as he continues dealing with changes that have been brought on by helping me out. What those who are healthy fail to understand are the responsibilities that are placed upon a Caregiver. He doesn't get paid nor asks for any award but what he gave up in his life not because he was asked nor told but because he willingly stepped up to the plate seems not only to me but many others certainly unfair. He gave up his house in order to help with mine. He gave up a recent promotion with the Army in order to help me out. He did a shift change in order to be here for me so I am not alone while enduring treatments and could go with me to my doctors appointments. To anyone with a heart any person who puts their life on hold because they want to help someone sick or disabled is a hero. Instead he has been through hell and back all in the name of support. Just sad isn't it?

If I had the energy instead of just spreading awareness for Gastroparesis maybe I should also focus on raising money for the Caregivers and those who put their heart before their wallet. Amen. Instead I can only hope that either I hit the lottery or others who want to help step forward. Not because they have to but because much like myself they too have a heart. Amen.