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Now Playing: Day 572-The Final Road To Survival
Its one more day before I make that final turn. That final exit out of my 30's and into my 40's. EEK!
So maybe I was never looking forward to being in my 40's only because I never though I would honestly live to see it. With my condition that has progressed over the past eight years and nine months I was told on more than a few occasions that I would be lucky to live with paralyzed organs past four years. Here I am already doubling those odds and defying the impossible.
I have no idea what to think or make of this new decade of my life. What I do know is I am fortunate by the grace of God and Angels that walk along side of me to see it. To live it.
Its time now to be out with the old and in with the new. My first start is with my feet! Hahahaha!
OK. To be exact my boots!
I have this one pair that I just refuse to let go of due to #1 they are comfortable and #2 I just was always too sick to take the time to find a new pair to replace them.
Today was the day my friend vowed if need be take a Port O'Potty with us and head to the mall to find me some souls. NEW SOULS! Hahahaha!
So my nausea hasn't eased up nor the waves of vomiting that accompany it but I do the best I can and still live life just a bit differently now. I did touch base with my Gastroenterologist this afternoon and his assistant. We went over the continued problem which they like to call, "Intestinal vomiting" seeing it isn't really the stomach that is causing it but things-well lately any thing minus watery fluids that touch my intestines which in turn comes right back up. Its very common unfortunately with my rare but serious complications due to Idiopathic Gastroparesis. Yes, its new for this gal and yes! it's very annoying but sadly it is something I am going to have to accept and learn to live with seeing as they said today, "It's not going to go away but we will help you learn to work around it the best we can."
So today is the last day in my 30's and it might be a good thing seeing it hasn't been a decade of kindness. The greatest struggles I had to overcome were in my 30's. The biggest disappointments and let downs were in my 30's but the most knowledge I have ever gained was also in my 30's. With knowledge comes wisdom and that is something money can't ever buy.
We did find me a new pair of boots today and I finally said goodbye to my old ones. Bye comfy boots! I sure will miss you although at this point they seemed as if they were talking back because the souls were open from way too many miles, hahahaha!
My friend also chuckled and lets just say there isn't strong enough superglue to hold them together for another decade. Hahahaha!
-Ecclesiastes 7:8 The end of a thing is better than its beginning; The patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit.
Tomorrow is a day to celebrate. Celebrate life. I am fortunate and beyond blessed to be a living, breathing, walking miracle. My doctors always tell me, "Kimberly, you have been through hell and back but your strength has allowed you to survive. You are a survivor and its your determination that makes us fight harder for you to continue living the best life we can give you." After over 8 years of fighting today I can look back and say, "It was worth it. Life is always worth it and YOU are worth fighting for!" Amen. 