Now Playing: Day 4057-FREE YOURSELF...MY JOURNEY
Topic: Struggling To Get Comfort
Yea, yea...I will admit it...
I have done my fair share of crying over the past 24-hours. The pain is unreal as well the inability to get comfortable.
I feel so incredibly alone in this new journey. The reality of knowing it just begun is also extremely frightening. As with any chronic illness, some just can't handle it. With time, experience and wisdom...I have learned to just let those folks be. My fur kids have yet to waiver with the rotation of a new furry visitor by my side. A reminder that I am overwhelmingly loved by the furry kind 💕🐾💕
I joined an online community aka support group that was suggested by one of my surgeon's assistants. Still...it's hard not to feel so alone.
Indiana wasn't where I envisioned to start this new year. It certainly doesn't help either when the mail brings long awaited tax documents to continue new business ventures.
Yet...everything feels like a big circle.
Six months has turned into more months than I would like to say and another set of surgical hands who waits in the wings. This, not by my decision.
I have enjoyed watching live feed while continuing to test out new streaming equipment for a reputable company. Waking up to capture the sunrise along the coast of Florida somewhat helps the beginning of a long day of pain, uncertainty.
I have even thrown around the idea of turning off the online world and its entirety. Yet, my therapists feel it's important now more than ever to podcast, blog and express how I am feeling. No matter how depressing or gloomy it may be in my current reality.
So, as I watch my make believe stars in the streaming sky...maybe I will wake up tomorrow with this all being nothing but a mere dream.